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  • At the age of five, I was molested at the church my family has been members of for over 50 years.

  • He told me to never tell anyone and I'd be sinning if I did.

  • What is your biggest secret?

  • During my teenage years of depression, I got involved with the psychotic and obsessive guy that abused, threatened, and blackmailed me.

  • I swore if I had the money, I would have hired someone to kill him to relieve me of the nightmare I lived in.

  • My father died 14 years ago, but I still add his number to my contacts list every time I get a new phone.

  • I'm addicted to porn.

  • I am Christian, but sometimes I get terrified that this is all that there is.

  • I'm not religious or affiliated with any religion...

  • But we all have that similar feeling, and I have that same feeling that you, your eyes open all of a sudden, This is where you are and this is all that you have...

  • And that's scary.

  • I don't think much about leaving, but I do fantasize about what my life would be like if I didn't get married at 21, have two children before 25, or quit teaching because more money needed to come in.

  • When mom told me you had killed yourself, I was so relieved I would never have to tell you I'm gay.

  • Umm..

  • First of all as a person who is gay, when I was in high school, I worked on a suicide hotline for three years.

  • I don't want anybody to ever feel relieved at.

  • I mean, what I gathered from this, is that a parent took their own life like to be relieved.

  • That's a lot of turmoil.

  • I feel for them.

  • I love my dad, but wish he would get a DUI just once.

  • Yeah, I think that's always really hard when you have a parent and you feel like that parent isn't as responsible you might like them to be.

  • I think you can still love someone but wish them to step up.

  • I think that's like a perfectly plausible thing to ask.

  • My best friend died because of me.

  • I'm 19 and I met her in a children's depression hospital after an attempted suicide.

  • A day after she contacted me and for some reason, I didn't reply.

  • I was scrolling through my Instagram feed.

  • I clicked their icon and read the comments, “RIP, miss you so much”.

  • It was.. , then I knew I had killed someone I love.

  • This situation hits me.

  • It hits me so deeply and almost instantly.

  • It's a subtle reminder that the influence that you leave on somebody could be eternal.

  • There's power in your presence; there's power in your influence; there's power in who you are.

At the age of five, I was molested at the church my family has been members of for over 50 years.

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