souls and bodies packed into a Texas church

on the last night of our lives.

Packed into a room just like this,

but with creaky wooden pews draped in worn-down red fabric,

with an organ to my left and a choir at my back

and a baptism pool built into the wall behind them.

A room like this, nonetheless.

With the same great feelings of suspense,

the same deep hopes for salvation,

the same sweat in the palms

and the same people in the back not paying attention.

(Laughter)

This was December 31, 1999,

the night of the Second Coming of Christ,

and the end of the world as I knew it.

I had turned 12 that year

and had reached the age of accountability.

And once I stopped complaining

about how unfair it was that Jesus would return

as soon as I had to be accountable for all that I had done,

I figured I had better get my house in order very quickly.

So I went to church as often as I could.

I listened for silence as anxiously as one might listen for noise,

trying to be sure that the Lord hadn't pulled a fast one on me

and decided to come back early.

And just in case he did,

I built a backup plan,

by reading the "Left Behind" books that were all the rage at the time.

And I found in their pages

that if I was not taken in the rapture at midnight,

I had another shot.

All I had to do was avoid taking the mark of the beast,

fight off demons, plagues and the Antichrist himself.

It would be hard --

(Laughter)

but I knew I could do it.

(Laughter)

But planning time was over now.

It was 11:50pm.

We had 10 minutes left,

and my pastor called us out of the pews and down to the altar

because he wanted to be praying when midnight struck.

So every faction of the congregation

took its place.

The choir stayed in the choir stand,

the deacons and their wives --

or the Baptist Bourgeoisie as I like to call them --

(Laughter)

took first position in front of the altar.

You see, in America,

even the Second Coming of Christ has a VIP section.

(Laughter)

(Applause)

And right behind the Baptist Bourgeoisie

were the elderly --

these men and women whose young backs had been bent under hot suns

in the cotton fields of East Texas,

and whose skin seemed to be burnt a creaseless noble brown,

just like the clay of East Texas,

and whose hopes and dreams for what life might become

outside of East Texas

had sometimes been bent and broken

even further than their backs.

Yes, these men and women were the stars of the show for me.

They had waited their whole lives for this moment,

just as their medieval predecessors had longed for the end of the world,

and just as my grandmother waited for the Oprah Winfrey Show

to come on Channel 8 every day at 4 o'clock.

And as she made her way to the altar,

I snuck right in behind her,

because I knew for sure

that my grandmother was going to heaven.

And I thought that if I held on to her hand during this prayer,

I might go right on with her.

So I held on

and I closed my eyes

to listen,

to wait.

And the prayers got louder.

And the shouts of response to the call of the prayer

went up higher even still.

And the organ rolled on in to add the dirge.

And the heat came on to add to the sweat.

And my hand gripped firmer,

so I wouldn't be the one left in the field.

My eyes clenched tighter

so I wouldn't see the wheat being separated from the chaff.

And then a voice rang out above us:

"Amen."

It was over.

I looked at the clock.

It was after midnight.

I looked at the elder believers

whose savior had not come,

who were too proud to show any signs of disappointment,

who had believed too much and for too long

to start doubting now.

But I was upset on their behalf.

They had been duped,

hoodwinked, bamboozled,

and I had gone right along with them.

I had prayed their prayers,

I had yielded not to temptation as best I could.

I had dipped my head not once, but twice

in that snot-inducing baptism pool.

I had believed.

Now what?

I got home just in time to turn on the television

and watch Peter Jennings announce the new millennium

as it rolled in around the world.

It struck me that it would have been strange anyway,

for Jesus to come back again and again

based on the different time zones.

(Laughter)

And this made me feel even more ridiculous --

hurt, really.

But there on that night, I did not stop believing.

I just believed a new thing:

that it was possible not to believe.

It was possible the answers I had were wrong,

that the questions themselves were wrong.

And now, where there was once a mountain of certitude,

there was, running right down to its foundation,

a spring of doubt,

a spring that promised rivers.

I can trace the whole drama of my life

back to that night in that church

when my savior did not come for me;

when the thing I believed most certainly

turned out to be, if not a lie,

then not quite the truth.

And even though most of you prepared for Y2K in a very different way,

I'm convinced that you are here

because some part of you has done the same thing that I have done

since the dawn of this new century,

since my mother left and my father stayed away

and my Lord refused to come.

And I held out my hand,

reaching for something to believe in.

I held on when I arrived at Yale at 18,

with the faith that my journey from Oak Cliff, Texas

was a chance to leave behind all the challenges I had known,

the broken dreams and broken bodies I had seen.

But when I found myself back home one winter break,

with my face planted in the floor,

my hands tied behind my back

and a burglar's gun pressed to my head,

I knew that even the best education couldn't save me.

I held on when I showed up at Lehman Brothers

as an intern in 2008.

(Laughter)

So hopeful --

(Laughter)

that I called home to inform my family

that we'd never be poor again.

(Laughter)

But as I witnessed this temple of finance

come crashing down before my eyes,

I knew that even the best job couldn't save me.

I held on when I showed up in Washington DC as a young staffer,

who had heard a voice call out from Illinois,

saying, "It's been a long time coming,

but in this election, change has come to America."

But as the Congress ground to a halt

and the country ripped at the seams

and hope and change began to feel like a cruel joke,

I knew that even the political second coming

could not save me.

I had knelt faithfully at the altar of the American Dream,

praying to the gods of my time

of success,

and money,

and power.

But over and over again,

midnight struck, and I opened my eyes

to see that all of these gods were dead.

And from that graveyard,

I began the search once more,

not because I was brave,

but because I knew that I would either believe

or I would die.

So I took a pilgrimage to yet another mecca,

Harvard Business School --

(Laughter)

this time, knowing that I could not simply accept the salvation

that it claimed to offer.

No, I knew there'd be more work to do.

The work began in the dark corner of a crowded party,

in the late night of an early, miserable Cambridge winter,

when three friends and I asked a question

that young folks searching for something real have asked

for a very long time:

"What if we took a road trip?"

(Laughter)

We didn't know where'd we go or how we'd get there,

but we knew we had to do it.

Because all our lives we yearned, as Jack Kerouac wrote,

to "sneak out into the night and disappear somewhere,"

and go find out what everybody was doing

all over the country.

So even though there were other voices who said

that the risk was too great and the proof too thin,

we went on anyhow.

We went on 8,000 miles across America in the summer of 2013,

through the cow pastures of Montana, through the desolation of Detroit,

through the swamps of New Orleans,

where we found and worked with men and women

who were building small businesses

that made purpose their bottom line.

And having been trained at the West Point of capitalism,

this struck us as a revolutionary idea.

(Laughter)

And this idea spread,

growing into a nonprofit called MBAs Across America,

a movement that landed me here on this stage today.

It spread because we found a great hunger in our generation

for purpose, for meaning.

It spread because we found countless entrepreneurs

in the nooks and crannies of America

who were creating jobs and changing lives

and who needed a little help.

But if I'm being honest, it also spread

because I fought to spread it.

There was no length to which I would not go

to preach this gospel,

to get more people to believe

that we could bind the wounds of a broken country,

one social business at a time.

But it was this journey of evangelism

that led me to the rather different gospel

that I've come to share with you today.

It began one evening almost a year ago

at the Museum of Natural History in New York City,

at a gala for alumni of Harvard Business School.

Under a full-size replica of a whale,

I sat with the titans of our time

as they celebrated their peers and their good deeds.

There was pride in a room

where net worth and assets under management

surpassed half a trillion dollars.

We looked over all that we had made,

and it was good.

(Laughter)

But it just so happened,

two days later,

I had to travel up the road to Harlem,

where I found myself sitting in an urban farm

that had once been a vacant lot,

listening to a man named Tony tell me of the kids

that showed up there every day.

All of them lived below the poverty line.

Many of them carried all of their belongings in a backpack

to avoid losing them in a homeless shelter.

Some of them came to Tony's program,

called Harlem Grown,

to get the only meal they had each day.

Tony told me that he started Harlem Grown with money from his pension,

after 20 years as a cab driver.