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  • THEME MUSIC

  • Welcome to Talking Heads and the world of Poh Ling Yeow.

  • 'You know her as someone who loves food and cooking,

  • but this actually an unlikely path

  • for a shy, Chinese-Malay

  • Mormon called Sharon.'

  • Poh, welcome to Talking Heads.

  • Thank you very much for having me, Peter.

  • Now, in a slightly different life - it is a slightly different life -

  • I would have introduced you as Sharon... Yes. (LAUGHS)

  • ..make-up artist to the stars in New York.

  • Yeah, perhaps. That was my fantasy, anyway.

  • You started down that road. Yes.

  • What grabbed you about make-up?

  • I don't know. I think it's definitely related

  • to the fact that when I grew up, um...

  • ..I always had this chip on my shoulder

  • about looking not the way I wanted... Sorry.

  • (LAUGHS) Yeah, couldn't really do much about that.

  • Um...I don't know.

  • In some weird way, perhaps it was...

  • ..cathartic of me to be able to do this thing where I could

  • change someone's face, and something about that appealed to me.

  • If anything, food...

  • Yes. ..association with food is the least likely.

  • Yeah, in a way, but it was always there.

  • Recently, I only just realised that my Year 12 project

  • was on food in art and art in food.

  • Well, it's very much Chinese cultural tradition, isn't it?

  • Very much so. Very much so. People live to eat.

  • Yeah, completely.

  • After you finish breakfast, you talk about what you're having for lunch,

  • At lunch you talk about dinner. Is that what happens?

  • It's actually a huge part of, not just eating, but...

  • ..it's a huge part of what we do for recreation, really -

  • shop and eat. (LAUGHS) Yeah.

  • Now, life for you has been something...

  • ..there's an issue there about fitting in.

  • To be brief, you didn't really feel like you fitted in

  • as a young kid in Malaysia.

  • Yeah.

  • You joined the Church of Jesus Christ of the Latter Day Saints -

  • the Mormons - and struggled to fit into that.

  • Yeah. You struggled to fit into commercial art.

  • Yeah. You do fit into cooking,

  • but life's been a lot about this sort of finding the path.

  • Yeah, and I do acknowledge that a lot of it is...

  • ..obviously, it's an issue with myself.

  • And I did struggle with shyness,

  • so I think that was a little bit of a problem with friends,

  • and I got brought up in quite a strict home. Yeah.

  • Is it right to say you felt pressured to be the good, Chinese girl?

  • Yes. I did. (LAUGHS) But I was.

  • 'I think a lot of people

  • would describe me as having quite a sort of bubbly,

  • effervescent personality,

  • but I've certainly not always been like this.

  • I think until very recently,

  • I've felt fairly uncomfortable in my own skin,

  • and very much so, when I was younger.

  • TRADITIONAL CHINESE MUSIC

  • I'm fifth generation Chinese-Malaysian,

  • and have to say that most of my cultural influence

  • definitely come from the women in my family.

  • I was born in Malaysia and lived there until the age of nine.

  • And the strange thing is that

  • I always felt...out of place.

  • I always had this weird, strange feeling

  • that I wasn't quite where I was meant to be.

  • When my parents announced to my brother and I,

  • "Hey, we're moving to Australia,"

  • I remember this cloud just lifting from me -

  • It was so vivid -

  • and thinking, "My life is going to finally make sense."'

  • ROCK MUSIC

  • 'As soon as we landed in Australia, I just remember thinking,

  • I love everything, I love the street signs,

  • I love these weird eucalyptus trees, the magpies -

  • I love everything about this country.

  • I didn't want to be Chinese when I was younger, I have to say.

  • I remember the first day of school,

  • I opened my lunchbox

  • and already, the smell of it was a bit of warning.

  • Braised chicken giblets in star anise and soy -

  • one of favourite dishes.

  • That lunchbox got snapped shut very promptly.

  • "Oh, this is so not a sandwich."

  • And I didn't eat anything for lunch.

  • I just remember thinking, yuck - I want to be blonde with freckles.

  • (LAUGHS)'

  • So, Poh do you still a line in chicken giblets...in star anise?

  • No. Haven't had it for ages, actually. My dear auntie...

  • ..she's lived with us since I was a child.

  • She thought, poor girl - first day at school.

  • I'll give her everything that she loves. (LAUGHS)

  • Give her some comfort food. Yeah, give her some comfort food.

  • Let's take you back to Malaysia.

  • You're growing up. You're there till you're nine,

  • so it's quite a bit of the journey. Mm.

  • In Kuala Lumpur? Yes.

  • What was life like for you there?

  • I really, really struggled all through school

  • till I came to Australia.

  • I literally just... It was just this confused haze every single day,

  • and I just remember my routine was, get there,

  • cry my eyes out till recess time.

  • That was like a little break for me. (LAUGHS)

  • You could stop crying at recess? Yeah, I could stop crying at recess.

  • Then I'd take... Must've been a great student to have in class.

  • I know. And then, I'd take out my hanky,

  • and I'd always have this really self-indulgent moment

  • where I'd go, "Oh, look, I'm so sad.

  • Look how wet my hanky is." I'd do it every single day,

  • and then, I'd struggle through to the end of class that day.

  • Then my mum, my auntie would actually have to come

  • the next morning

  • to copy down the homework that was on the blackboard

  • from the day before.

  • And my mum would do my homework for me. (LAUGHS)

  • What motivated your parents then, to...

  • ..take the big step of coming to Australia?

  • The main reason was to give my brother and I a good education.

  • It's quite hard to get into universities in Malaysia.

  • It's investing a lot in the kids? Mm, it is.

  • Expectations. Yeah, yeah.

  • What was that like for you?

  • I guess I was very shy, so even when...

  • ..like I had to put up my hand in class, or whatever,

  • I would find that quite difficult.

  • And then, early on in high school, I actually saw it was such a problem

  • that I decided to enrol in some drama classes.

  • That's what actually started to help me a little bit

  • with my confidence problem.

  • At home, how big a deal is food as you grow up?

  • Oh, huge. Especially with my auntie.

  • She cooks pretty much 24/7. Must come around sometime.

  • Yeah.

  • There seems to be something or other about...

  • There's a relationship between food and love, isn't there?

  • Completely.

  • I didn't grow up in a house that was overly affectionate,

  • so food definitely plays that role.

  • It's got that sort of currency as affection and love.

  • CHORAL SINGING

  • 'When I was 16 my family joined the Church of Jesus Christ

  • of the Latter Day Saints, also known as Mormonism.

  • At the time, that environment really appealed to me.

  • An environment that was very clean-cut. I felt really safe.

  • But then, I did start to feel a bit trapped.

  • I'd never had a boyfriend.

  • So I thought, I think I have to actually remove myself

  • from this situation, entirely.

  • I went overseas with my best friend.

  • Most of it was spent in Utah, because she was Mormon, as well,

  • and we thought it would be a good way to be able to do fun things,

  • date and that all kind of stuff

  • in an environment that was in line with our values.'

  • DANCE MUSIC

  • 'A real turning point in my travels was when I went to Canada,

  • and I suddenly realised there was this whole, big world out there.

  • The first person who took me under their wing

  • was a transvestite named Arnie. (LAUGHS)

  • Little things like this suddenly just

  • blew my little Mormon world to pieces.

  • I suddenly realised I can't live with this set of values,

  • this doctrine, any more.

  • When I came back to Australia,

  • I managed to attract this friend at church, Matthew,

  • and we fell in love, we got married,

  • and together, we helped each other leave the church.

  • I could not believe

  • how light I felt as soon as I'd made that decision.

  • Just felt like my whole life

  • had been lived under this cloud of guilt,