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  • - Okay. All right.

  • I've never really done this kind of thing before.

  • My parents said,

  • "Zoe, why don't you finally try one of those dating apps?"

  • And I was like, "Yeah, fine, okay."

  • Next thing I know, my little sister, brat,

  • has grabbed my phone,

  • and she's sending all of these little hearts

  • to all kinds of people.

  • I could've killed her.

  • And then guys start sending me hearts,

  • and some of them look like kids in junior high school,

  • and then other ones look like my uncle Leo.

  • And then...

  • And then there's this one guy, Anthony,

  • who seems like a nice guy, I guess.

  • Sent me a heart,

  • and we started sending some messages back and forth,

  • and now I'm going to meet seems-like-a-nice-guy Anthony.

  • - I'm not sure why I sent a heart to this girl, Zoe.

  • I mean, I liked her name, and her picture was...

  • Yeah, she's really cute.

  • Maybe too cute.

  • I just don't know what it is about this online dating stuff.

  • It just seems so impersonal, you know?

  • Like, do people actually tell the truth on these things?

  • Are there pictures really them,

  • or them now and not like 10 years ago?

  • But this Zoe girl.

  • I don't know why, I'm just really excited to meet her.

  • - I've kind of been on a dating hiatus for a while now,

  • because, well, some relationship crap, you know.

  • Hoo. Online dating!

  • I feel like I just made a commercial about myself,

  • and Anthony must've watched it.

  • Oh, I think that's him!

  • - Hi! - Hi!

  • Anthony? - Yeah.

  • - Hi. - Zoe.

  • - Yes. Yeah.

  • - Great to meet you.

  • - [Zoe] Yeah, you too.

  • - So, I saw earlier

  • the restaurant is kind of noisy and crowded,

  • and it might be a long wait,

  • but I thought I could get takeout

  • and we could eat in my car.

  • - You want me to eat in your car?

  • - Oh, yeah.

  • No, I thought it'd be great to have a conversation

  • and get to know each other a little better.

  • - You realize that sounds kinda strange though, right?

  • - Yeah.

  • I'm sorry.

  • That'd be weird.

  • We could eat in your car though.

  • - I rode my bike.

  • - Oh, that's pretty cool.

  • - And I didn't have time

  • to do a full background check on you.

  • - That makes sense.

  • - I'm kidding. (laughs)

  • I'm kidding. I'm sure that your car will be fine.

  • - Great.

  • Yeah, or we could do a picnic.

  • I have blankets and things in my trunk.

  • - Along with a dead body?

  • (Anthony chuckles uncomfortably)

  • Kidding. (laughs)

  • - Yeah. Okay. - Get it? 'Cause...

  • - Right.

  • Great.

  • I will get some food, yeah?

  • - Sure. Yeah.

  • I'll have the vegetable stir fry

  • with brown rice and a diet Coke.

  • And an egg roll.

  • And chopsticks.

  • Chopsticks, yeah.

  • Chopsticks.

  • - [Anthony] You got it.

  • (Zoe exhales sharply)

  • (Zoe giggles)

  • (gentle acoustic guitar music)

  • (Zoe exhales)

  • (gentle acoustic guitar music continues)

  • - I'm going out with a really handsome guy tonight.

  • My husband Kevin.

  • Lucky me.

  • It's our 13th anniversary.

  • The unlucky one, I suppose.

  • You know, it's funny,

  • one of the 15th-century definitions of the word anniversary

  • is commemorating the death of a martyr.

  • That's somewhat alarming. (chuckles)

  • I think marriage is like a car, right?

  • If it's running smoothly, there's no problem, it's fine.

  • But if you ignore the occasional tuneup,

  • cars, like marriages, can break down.

  • Parts start to fail, the oil gets low, the tires wear out.

  • And if you ignore it long enough,

  • it just, it stops working altogether.

  • The car breaks down.

  • It's weird.

  • I actually had a dream the other night

  • where I'm driving this car of our marriage,

  • and I wondered where I'd go.

  • What roads would I take?

  • Would I pack up, make a U-turn,

  • get going straight, slam on the brakes,

  • drive it to the junkyard? (chuckles)

  • I don't know.

  • Cars and marriages, it's not a perfect analogy, but close.

  • Bye.

  • (car horn honks)

  • (Kevin sighs)

  • (phone beeps)

  • - Hey, Rachel, running a bit late. I'm on my way.

  • (phone beeps)

  • (Rachel scoffs)

  • I got a hot date tonight.

  • She is smart, talented, witty, beautiful.

  • You'll see.

  • Great mom.

  • It's our anniversary.

  • 13 years. (chuckles)

  • You know, in a lot of ways,

  • and I guess this is pretty normal,

  • it feels like it's been forever.

  • And I don't necessarily mean that in a positive way.

  • I mean, yeah, I love Rachel, I guess.

  • It's just that every now and then I have to ask myself,

  • are we really married,

  • or did we just get together and have a couple of kids?

  • Is that a terrible thing to say?

  • Yeah, maybe.

  • When I think about Rachel, do I really know her?

  • I mean, I know a lot of stuff about her,

  • but do I really know her, love her?

  • (phone ringing)

  • I'd like to.

  • She's incredible in so many ways.

  • But yeah, I don't know.

  • It's funny, when I first met her,

  • I thought she might be like Rachel

  • from the TV show "Friends."

  • Thought that'd be pretty cool.

  • Yeah.

  • Well, my Rachel and the TV show Rachel

  • have very little in common. (chuckles)

  • Hey.

  • Sorry I'm late. I...

  • - No, it's fine. I got your text.

  • - Kids doing okay?

  • - Yeah. Yeah, yeah, they're fine.

  • Let me just...

  • - The restaurant's not gonna hold our reservation forever.

  • - Okay.

  • We could go in.

  • Or not.

  • - Up to you.

  • - It's our anniversary.

  • Come on, Kevin.

  • Smile.

  • Let's go enjoy dinner.

  • - [Kevin] All right.

  • - This for me?

  • - Oh, yeah. This is for you.

  • - [Rachel] Thank you.

  • (car door shuts)

  • - I live on a beautiful street.

  • Got a lot of great neighbors, our lovely home.

  • Yeah, Grace and I bought this place, what, 35 years ago.

  • Hasn't really changed much since.

  • Well, a few years back

  • Grace decided she needed a new kitchen,

  • but other than that, yeah.

  • We raised our three kids here,

  • watched them grow and then leave.

  • It's been a good life.

  • And after we became empty-nesters,

  • Grace decided she wanted to open up a flower shop.

  • Grace's Floral.

  • Yeah, it's just a few blocks down there, around the corner.

  • She really is amazing.

  • I would not wish any companion in the world but her.

  • It's...

  • That's Shakespeare.

  • - Oh, it is almost time for Christopher to be home.

  • We have been married for, let's see, 40, 42 years now.

  • They've been good years.

  • They've been great years actually.

  • And Christopher stays busy. He stays active.

  • Unfortunately, cancer just doesn't seem to care

  • too much about all that, especially the kind he has.

  • But he's been handling it really well so far though.

  • He's my hero.

  • He's the love of my life. (chuckles)

  • He had a doctor's appointment today,

  • so we'll see how that went.

  • I try not to get my hopes up.

  • (door opens)

  • Hey. (chuckles)

  • - [Christopher] There you are.

  • - Yeah.

  • I read the review of "The Sound of Music" today.

  • (Christopher chuckles)

  • - Oh, come on. You know I don't read reviews.

  • - Yeah, well, I read it and they loved it.

  • - [Christopher] Oh.

  • - They compared it to a Broadway production.

  • - Ooh.

  • Anytime anyone compares a high school production

  • to a Broadway show, they're outta their freaking mind.

  • - So how was your appointment with Dr. Azari?

  • - It was fine.

  • - All you ever say is, "Fine."

  • - It was fine.

  • Yes, it was same thing as last time.

  • No improvement. It's still there.

  • So, how's your flower shop today?

  • - I'm getting tired of, "Fine."

  • We haven't even talked about what's going on with you.

  • Can we do that today, please?

  • - Yes, that's fine.

  • Teasing you, okay? Yes.

  • We'll do it tonight.

  • How's that? That's cool.

  • - Thank you.

  • (soft piano music)

  • - Really like eating at the club, don't you?

  • - Yeah.

  • - Okay.

  • Thank you for the flowers. Your mother would be proud.

  • - Here's to 13 years.

  • - Cheers.

  • (glasses clink)

  • - 13.

  • Pretty forgettable, wouldn't you say?

  • More like non-memorable?

  • - Unmemorable.

  • - Rachel the writer.

  • Words, words, words.

  • - Kevin, the architect.

  • Straight lines, foundation, steel, cement.

  • - Good, good. Got it.

  • (Rachel chuckles)

  • Make any progress on the new book today?

  • - Yeah.

  • Yeah, I got the galleys back. It looks good.

  • And I took Jimmy to soccer, got a workout in at the gym.

  • Your day?

  • - Oh, same old.

  • Do you remember our first anniversary?

  • - Um...

  • Yeah, the...

  • - Pizza parlor on 45th.

  • It's gone now, but they had great pizza.

  • - Sounds familiar.

  • - We split a large.

  • My half was pepperoni, extra cheese.

  • Your half was Hawaiian. (laughs)

  • I still don't get that pineapple on pizza thing.

  • - I love it.

  • And pepperoni?

  • Exactly what animal is that from?

  • - No idea. Several probably.

  • (Rachel laughs)

  • Here's what I remember.

  • We couldn't wait to get home, get our hands on each other,

  • celebrate a whole year of mad, passionate love.

  • You were beautiful that night.

  • - So were you.

  • - You remember?

  • - I do.

  • - We haven't had pizza in a while.

  • - No, I know.

  • We used to have it, what,

  • three, four, sometimes more times a week?

  • - Gotta admit,

  • I miss the ambiance of the noisy, hot pizza parlor.

  • (Rachel chuckles)

  • - Can I answer any questions for you?

  • Celebrating anything special?

  • - It's our anniversary.

  • - Wonderful.

  • I have a special menu just for anniversaries

  • if you'd like to see that.

  • - Oh, that's okay.

  • No big deal. It's fine.

  • - Oh.

  • Okay.

  • Well, just go ahead and

  • continue looking at the menu then for a while.

  • - Thanks.

  • No big deal?

  • - Yeah, it's number 13.

  • Should we try for 13 more?

  • - Let's try for two, see how we're doing.

  • - 15, huh?

  • - That would be cause for celebration?

  • - Not so much 13?

  • - Nah.

  • Unlucky.

  • You know, 15, 20, 25, 10 even.

  • But 13?

  • Yeah, pretty forgettable.

  • Like you said.

  • - Unmemorable.

  • No big deal.

  • - All right, so, I have a couple blankets here.

  • - Oh, perfect. - I'll have you grab that.

  • I'll get the food.

  • - Okay, I'll grab

  • this one. - Yeah.

  • I'll just grab this one too.

  • And there should be a spot real close.

  • (trunk shuts)

  • All right.

  • So, this place looks good.

  • - Oh, yeah.

  • So, Anthony, where did you get your name?

  • - My dad.

  • Yeah, it's his middle name, so.

  • Real original.

  • - Anyone ever call you Antonio,

  • kinda give it like a Latin flavor?

  • - I don't think so.

  • - Ant Man?

  • The superhero? - Sometimes, yeah.

  • Yup. Yeah. (Zoe laughs)

  • - Tony?

  • - My sister, and I hate that name.

  • - Okay, so no Tony the Tiger.

  • - Nope.

  • - Got it.

  • I guess we'll just have to go with

  • Anthony.

  • - Oh, I love it.

  • Yeah, it's a great idea.

  • - Thank you. Thought of it myself.

  • - Yeah.

  • - So is anyone else in your family named Zoe?

  • - No, just me.

  • My parents actually named me Elizabeth,

  • but it was really hard to say as a kid.

  • That T-H never came out quite right.

  • - Okay. Elithabeth, yeah.

  • - Yeah.

  • - So I guess Beth was out of the question.

  • - Yes.

  • They tried Liz too, but I didn't like it.

  • You know, something about the Z though.

  • I liked the Z, so Zoe.

  • And the E has a...

  • Those two little dots above it.

  • An umlaut.

  • - Oh, cool. Yeah.

  • - Yeah.

  • - Zoe with an umlaut. (Zoe laughs)

  • Yeah. I like it.

  • - Good, 'cause if you didn't,

  • I don't think we could be friends.

  • (both chuckle)

  • - Fair enough.

  • (Rachel and Kevin laughing)

  • - That's a rather interesting reaction.

  • - Well, I'm an interesting woman.

  • - Yes, you are.

  • Rachel, we're pretty open with each other.

  • - Yeah.

  • - But there are certain things we just,

  • we don't really talk about.

  • I haven't...

  • How do I say this?

  • I haven't really been honest with you.

  • - Okay.

  • I don't really know where you're going with this.

  • - It's not what you think.

  • No, what I mean is,

  • yeah, there, there are certain things

  • I don't open up to you about, and I'd like to.

  • - Well, why don't you?

  • You don't trust me?

  • Come on, you brought up the trust issue.

  • - I was talking about honesty.

  • - Honesty, trust are sort of the same thing.

  • - Sorta, sorta.

  • I guess...

  • I guess I don't trust you in some ways.

  • - All right.

  • Well, speaking of honesty, what are you hiding?

  • - Nothing, really. Just-

  • - Just not opening up? - Yeah.

  • - Well, come on. A lot of men don't.

  • - Yeah, well, I don't wanna be like a lot of men.

  • I wanna feel like we know each other.

  • I wanna be honest with you. I wanna trust you.

  • And reciprocity would be nice.

  • - Trust? Honesty?

  • After 13 years, is this really something that bothers you?

  • - Yes.

  • - Okay.

  • Okay, I'm in.

  • Truth, honesty. I like it.

  • - Good.

  • So, do you think that I know who you are down deep?

  • Your hopes, your dreams, your anxieties, your fears?

  • - I mean, you know I dream about living

  • in the south of France one day.

  • - See? You don't wanna talk about it.

  • - Did you plan all this, Kevin?

  • The trust thing, honesty, getting to know each other?

  • - No.

  • - But you've been thinking about it.

  • - Yeah.

  • - [Rachel] And you're bringing it up tonight.

  • - Uh-huh.

  • - You're an interesting guy, Kevin.

  • - I'll take that as a compliment.

  • - It wasn't really meant to be.

  • How's your salad?

  • - Interesting.

  • - [Rachel] Good.

  • (pages turning)

  • (pen writing)

  • - I think it's time we talked about...

  • (page turns)

  • - Cancer?

  • - Yeah.

  • The cancer.

  • Are you scared?

  • - No.

  • No, I think I'm actually more curious

  • about what's on the other side.

  • I think I'll be...

  • I don't know, I think I'll be different.

  • I think I'll be surprised.

  • - Are you ready to go?

  • - Yeah, well, the funny thing is

  • I really thought I'd have some more time

  • to work on some of this stuff.

  • Could've had more time with the kids or time with you.

  • And there's all that...

  • That heaven stuff.

  • Do you have...

  • I mean, do you have a clear idea

  • as to what heaven's really like?

  • - Not really, no.

  • It just sure sounds like a lovely place.

  • - Yeah.

  • Yeah, but you know,

  • there's all that talk about a judgment day,

  • and reckoning, and meeting God, and I... (sighs)

  • Just sounds busy and confusing.

  • I mean, I just wanna relax on the other side, you know?

  • I wanna find some distant corner of the universe

  • and just take it easy.

  • You think it might be possible

  • that God has created some vacation planet

  • named Cancun or something? (Grace laughs)

  • - Well...

  • - Where I can escape to and just...

  • I don't know, just wait for you.

  • - Maybe. It's a lovely idea.

  • - Yeah.

  • So where can you and I escape to?

  • Now, while I still have the energy and the time.

  • - I would go anywhere in the world with you,

  • Christopher Stevens.

  • (Christopher chuckles)

  • We can climb every mountain,

  • ford every stream, can follow every rainbow.

  • And we can stay as long as we like.

  • (pats leg)

  • (Christopher sighs)

  • - Deal.

  • - Okay.

  • - Okay.

  • (Christopher chuckling)

  • - Wow. Yeah.

  • And you're going to school here?

  • - Yeah, at the community college.

  • - Cool. What are you studying?

  • - Art.

  • - Wow. - Yeah.

  • I work with oils, acrylics, watercolor, charcoal, crayons.

  • (Anthony chuckles)

  • - So you wanna be an artist then?

  • Or do you think you'll end up teaching?

  • - I wanna be an artist,

  • selling my stuff all over the place, online, offline.

  • You know, my grandpa is a school teacher.

  • I don't really think that's for me. It's too structured.

  • - Yeah, I can see that.

  • - What does that mean?

  • - Oh, well, just that you seem like you...

  • - Unstructured?

  • - No. (chuckles)

  • (both laughing)

  • I'm just saying.

  • - I'm just teasing you.

  • - Okay.

  • That's really cool though.

  • Do you ever use a computer to draw?

  • - Oh, no. Not really my thing.

  • What about you?

  • - No, I never draw with a computer either.

  • - No, no, I meant-

  • - I know what you mean.

  • Sorry, that was a joke.

  • - Oh, humor?

  • Okay, so you're trying to impress me.

  • - Oh, I try.

  • (Zoe chuckles)

  • No, I'm a chemistry major at State.

  • I transferred there after my sophomore year.

  • - Are you gonna be a doctor?

  • - I'm thinking dentistry.

  • - Wow.

  • Okay, wait, looking in people's mouths all day long?

  • (Anthony laughs)

  • - Well, I hadn't really thought of it that way before.

  • - What, they didn't tell you?

  • - Oh, I'm sure they'll get around to it.

  • (Zoe laughs)

  • - Maybe they just don't wanna scare you away.

  • - Yeah, yeah. Maybe.

  • - So, do you like mouths?

  • - I guess, yeah.

  • - Do you like mine?

  • - Oh, yeah, it's lovely.

  • - Yeah, I had a braces.

  • - Okay. It's a beautiful mouth.

  • - Thank you.

  • No one's ever told me that I had a beautiful mouth before.

  • - Yeah, they must not have been paying attention.

  • (slurps drink)

  • - Thank you.

  • - [Kevin] Thank you.

  • - So when did we stop noticing each other?

  • - What are talking about? I notice you.

  • - When?

  • - All the time. I'm looking at you right now.

  • - Ha. Funny.

  • No, no, I'm serious.

  • When you come into the bathroom and I'm in the shower,

  • it's like I'm invisible.

  • - You never say anything about me when I'm in the shower.

  • - You're changing the subject.

  • - Not really.

  • - Come on, you used to jump in the shower with me.

  • And since you aren't joining me in the shower anymore, I-

  • - Well, just come on, Rachel.

  • It's not that I don't notice you.

  • It's just that...

  • I don't know.

  • - [Rachel] You don't know?

  • Or you don't wanna say?

  • - Well, do you want me to notice you?

  • - It would be nice.

  • Yeah, women like to be noticed, seen.

  • At least I do.

  • Other people notice me.

  • - Sure. I'm sure they do.

  • - And I'm sure you get noticed.

  • - Sometimes.

  • - But we don't notice each other?

  • Really see each other?

  • Weird.

  • (fridge door closes)

  • (Grace sighs)

  • - Hey, where you headed?

  • - I gotta go pick up a prescription.

  • - Okay.

  • When are you going to tell me what Dr. Azari really said?

  • - Well, he mentioned a few treatments and options.

  • You know, that kind of thing.

  • - Wait, you discussed all of that

  • without me even being there?

  • - Grace, I didn't even know Azari

  • was gonna be there, all right?

  • I went in for some blood work, and when that was done,

  • he walked in and started talking.

  • Look, come on. This is my disease.

  • I don't want you bugging me every five minutes.

  • - Bugging you? - Yeah.

  • - Really? - Uh-huh.

  • - Christopher, this is our disease.

  • You seem to think this is all about you, and it isn't.

  • I want in on the decision making.

  • - Hey, I have no problem with you giving some input.

  • When it comes right down to it that I'm gonna-

  • - Got it.

  • Okay, it's your disease. Got it.

  • But you know what?

  • This tumor, it affects me just as much,

  • if not more, than it does you.

  • - Really? I'm not so sure about that.

  • - Really? - Uh-huh.

  • - And have you tried seeing this from my perspective?

  • - Actually, I've been trying to figure it out on my end.

  • - How it seems to have the person you love-

  • - Look, if I've given you the impression

  • this is easy on me, then I apologize.

  • - How it feels to have the person you love most in the world

  • dying right in front of your eyes?

  • - Okay, you're right. I didn't...

  • Yeah, I didn't look at it that way.

  • I'm sorry. Sorry.

  • - Baby, you gotta talk to me.

  • Let me help.

  • You... (sighs)

  • You're gonna move on, you know?

  • You take the final exam and you graduate,

  • and I'm gonna be left here,

  • marooned without you.

  • (Christopher sighs)

  • - You know, this probably sounds weird,

  • but I really think that dying is easier

  • when compared to living.

  • I mean, it's sad, yeah, in some ways,

  • but I think it's easier.

  • Well, that is until the pain sets in.

  • Azari said that could get pretty ugly.

  • - He actually said that? He said ugly?

  • - No, he didn't, but that's what he meant.

  • (Grace sighs)

  • - So what are the options?

  • - Well, you know, there's the chemo and the radiation.

  • Surgery's not an option. Not at this point.

  • Seems like the pancreas

  • is a pretty difficult organ to deal with.

  • - Okay.

  • - So we have choices to make, Grace.

  • Decisions.

  • (Christopher chuckles)

  • (soft music)

  • You and I.

  • - [Grace] Okay.

  • - Okay?

  • Do this together?

  • - Yeah.

  • - [Christopher] You okay?

  • - Yeah, I'm fine. Go ahead.

  • I'm good.

  • - Okay. - Thanks.

  • I'll be right back then.

  • - Okay.

  • (tender music)

  • - Do you remember, when we first got married,

  • where we lived?

  • - Yeah, that apartment on the top floor

  • of that old building in Rose Park District?

  • - Yeah. Great view of the mountains.

  • That was a cool old place.

  • - What made you think of that?

  • - Oh, I was thinking about us,

  • about you, the woman that inspired me, a muse,

  • a woman that would wrap her arms, and sometimes her legs,

  • around me the minute I came home.

  • - That was a long time ago.

  • - Yeah.

  • - We were young and crazy.

  • No kids.

  • We live two different lives now, Kevin.

  • - We do.

  • The architect and the writer.

  • - Do you ever wonder why I write books for kids

  • about rescue dogs that help the needy, the downtrodden?

  • - Assumed you enjoyed it.

  • - No, I do. I just...

  • I mean in instead of other types of books.

  • - No. Why?

  • - Well, the other types scare me.

  • Yeah, I'm afraid people get to know too much about me,

  • that my writing would be to autobiographical.

  • - What's wrong with that?

  • - Well, I'm not a happy person,

  • and I don't want people to see it.

  • - So you write for kids?

  • - Uh-huh.

  • - Yeah, you know, the unhappiness is there,

  • but it's hidden, so they don't see it.

  • I mean, come on, they're kids,

  • so I can write about my ennui in euphemistic ways,

  • and nobody hears it.

  • It's perfect.

  • - You don't think they pick up on it?

  • - I doubt it. It's hidden pretty deep.

  • - Do you put it there on purpose?

  • - No, I think it comes through naturally.

  • - Huh.

  • Well, maybe the kids are smarter than you think.

  • - Do you see it?

  • - In your books? - Yeah.

  • - Yeah, I suppose so.

  • - Well you've never mentioned it.

  • - Well, I don't like talking about your books.

  • - Oh. Okay, why?

  • - I just don't.

  • Okay.

  • Since I brought up the honesty thing, I...

  • For lack of a better term, I am jealous.

  • - Resentful?

  • Envious, emulous, something like that.

  • - Yeah, something like that.

  • - I don't believe you.

  • - Come on. See?

  • Trust, Rachel. I'm going out on a limb.

  • - You were saying?

  • - I am jealous or envious or whatever.

  • You write all these books. Everyone adores you.

  • You have all these fans and friends.

  • And how many Instagram followers do you have?

  • - I don't know.

  • It doesn't matter. Keep going.

  • - And I build buildings, and no one knows.

  • - So your ego's hurt because you're pretty much invisible

  • to the world, and your wife isn't?

  • - Yep.

  • - Come on, Kevin.

  • You're an amazing architect. You have won awards.

  • - So have you, and more.

  • People have made movies of your books.

  • Not very good ones,

  • but the best you can say about my buildings

  • is they are energy efficient.

  • (soft piano music)

  • (Kevin breathes deeply)

  • You're not a happy person?

  • - What?

  • You didn't notice?

  • (Kevin sighs)

  • - [Zoe] This food is pretty good.

  • I had never been there before.

  • - Yeah?

  • You're pretty handy with those chopsticks.

  • - Here. Try 'em.

  • - Me? Oh. (chuckles)

  • - Yeah.

  • - Okay.

  • - They're a lot easier once you get the hang of it.

  • - Yeah? How'd you get used to 'em?

  • - My parents wanted us to be acquainted with other cultures,

  • so I picked Japan, and I learned how to use chopsticks.

  • - Do you speak Japanese?

  • - A little.

  • - Yeah? Nice.

  • (Zoe speaking in foreign language)

  • What does that mean?

  • - I don't speak Japanese.

  • (Anthony laughs)

  • - Well, that's pretty good.

  • - Yeah.

  • - Of all the sentences to know.

  • - That's the extent of my knowledge.

  • You're welcome.

  • - Okay.

  • We're pretty different, you know?

  • - Are you saying that I'm weird?

  • - Oh, no, no, just that we're different from each other.

  • - Is that a good thing?

  • - Definitely. Yes.

  • - [Zoe] Well, in what way?

  • - Well, I'm taller.

  • - I'm cuter.

  • - No, what I really meant was

  • we're just different personality wise.

  • - So I'm not cute?

  • - Oh, no, you're very cute,

  • but you're more outgoing and funnier than I am.

  • - Well, funny in what way?

  • (Anthony laughs)

  • - I don't know. You're just really cool.

  • I like that.

  • - Well, you're smart.

  • You know, like chemistry, science stuff.

  • - No, I'm really not that smart. I just study.

  • - I bet you got a scholarship, an academic one.

  • - Yeah, but that doesn't mean I'm smart.

  • - That means you're smart, okay?

  • - And you're really talented with art.

  • I mean, I'm more of a stick figure kinda guy, so.

  • - Okay, so we're different.

  • Let's see if we have anything in common.

  • - Sounds good.

  • You go first.

  • - So we're both single.

  • I mean, I assume that you're single.

  • - Yes.

  • And you? Any kids?

  • - Two, with one on the way.

  • (Anthony chuckles)

  • - I'm kidding. (laughs)

  • Gotcha.

  • You looked really scared.

  • No, I don't have any kids, and I am not pregnant.

  • - Do you ever want be pregnant?

  • - Wait, what? (laughing) Or have kids?

  • (both laughing)

  • Come on.

  • - Do I ever wanna be pregnant?

  • - No. I would-

  • - That is the craziest question...

  • - I was following up on the kid thing,

  • and it just came out. - I have ever heard

  • on first date. - I was not thinking.

  • - No, I have heard other crazy questions,

  • so don't feel too bad about yourself. (laughs)

  • - Thank you.

  • Yeah, I'll keep my spirits high.

  • (Zoe laughs)

  • - Yeah, I actually, I keep a list of crazy questions.

  • Yours is definitely at the top of it now,

  • so congratulations. - I'm honored. Thank you.

  • - Weirdest Question Award...

  • - Yep. - Goes to you. (claps)

  • - Weird questions. (sighs)

  • - Oh my goodness.

  • - I'm sorry.

  • - Well, I seem to attract a lot of losers.

  • - You're saying I'm a loser?

  • - No.

  • - Oh, okay. You're saying I'm attracted to you.

  • - Yes.

  • - Okay.

  • You're gonna have to help me out with these chopsticks

  • (Zoe chuckles)

  • - First of all, you're holding them wrong.

  • - Oh, there's a right way?

  • - Yes. Yes. (laughs)

  • Sorry.

  • - [Anthony] Oh, no. Where do you hold them?

  • - [Zoe] You take those.

  • (Rachel laughing)

  • - What are you laughing at?

  • - You.

  • The little boy is coming out,

  • and I've never really seen him before.

  • - Little boy?

  • - Yes, it's cute. It's a new side of you.

  • Not pouting, per se, but, yeah, his feelings are hurt

  • because his girlfriend has more friends than he does?

  • And I really don't.

  • - Yeah, right.

  • - No, I'm serious.

  • I'm a writer. I work alone.

  • Sometimes I go days without talking to anyone

  • over the age of 11.

  • - Well, I'm over 11.

  • - Yes, you are.

  • You also have an office full of people who adore you.

  • - The whole world adores you.

  • - But they don't know me.

  • - People at work just see me as the boss,

  • the guy that signs the paychecks.

  • - You sure about that?

  • - Well, how do you see me?

  • - I see the beautiful man I married,

  • the man all of my girlfriends wish they'd married.

  • - No, they don't.

  • - Yes, it's a true story.

  • - Well, what else?

  • - I see the good, the bad, and the ugly.

  • The man who cries at romantic comedy.

  • (Kevin laughs)

  • - Mea culpa.

  • - Even some TV commercials.

  • - Tell your girlfriend's that, they won't wanna marry me.

  • - No, it would only endear them all the more.

  • Yeah, I see a smart man.

  • Handsome, kind, determined, and talented.

  • Complicated.

  • Angry, competitive, impatient.

  • Control freak.

  • A good father.

  • And tonight I see

  • a little boy.

  • - And somehow all of that doesn't quite do it for you,

  • does it?

  • (door opens)

  • (Christopher breathes deeply)

  • - Hi.

  • Did Azari already give you any indication?

  • - Yeah.

  • He said six to nine months, give or take.

  • Isn't that what he said two weeks ago?

  • - Yeah. (chuckles)

  • Yeah, I think he says that to everybody.

  • You know, some kid walks in with a runny nose,

  • and, "Six to nine months.

  • The upside, kid, is that

  • you don't have to worry about going to school."

  • Yeah, his communication skills are pretty amazing.

  • Yeah.

  • He also said that, with this kind of cancer,

  • you gotta love that word, it could be a lot sooner.

  • It just depends.

  • - Do you think Azari's even the right guy for this?

  • - I have no idea.

  • I mean, he seems to know what he's talking about.

  • How do you know?

  • You know?

  • Seems like every doctor is the best in the country.

  • People come from all over the world just to see this guy.

  • Yeah.

  • I don't know.

  • - Do you think chemo would help?

  • (Christopher mumbles)

  • - Maybe. I don't think so.

  • - Are you sure?

  • 'Cause from what I've been reading about chemo-

  • - Yes they can do chemo and radiation, Grace.

  • It'd feel like they'd be setting my body

  • on fire from the inside.

  • And with the hope that maybe the tumor would shrink.

  • And then perhaps they could do a little bit of surgery,

  • maybe get the cancer out,

  • and then things could possibly improve a little bit,

  • and I might get a few additional months

  • of horrible, miserable, painful life.

  • - But it might be exactly what you-

  • - Grace, chemo kills your body, right?

  • It takes you right up to the death's door

  • only so that you can come back

  • and finish the job on your own.

  • Yeah, take it all the way,

  • open that door, walk right through.

  • Yeah. I just...

  • Yeah, I'm not up for that.

  • - Do you think surgery could save your life?

  • Or maybe, maybe even just give you a few more years

  • instead of months. - Okay, fine, fine.

  • Anything is possible.

  • And we might also win the lottery.

  • - Well, then let's just get a lottery ticket.

  • Huh?

  • (Christopher laughs)

  • - I have no idea what that means. (laughing)

  • - Well? - Oh, you're funny.

  • You know that?

  • - I can be, if the moment's right.

  • Is this moment right?

  • - Yeah, it's pretty good.

  • It's a good time, yeah. (Grace chuckling)

  • I'm good with that.

  • (Grace sighs)

  • - "Get a lottery ticket."

  • - Well?

  • It's worth a shot.

  • - Yeah.

  • - Tell me a secret.

  • - Well, if I did that, it wouldn't be a secret anymore.

  • - So give up one of your secrets.

  • - Why?

  • - I'm curious.

  • - Okay.

  • Okay.

  • I had a boyfriend in high school and-

  • - Rachel, that's not a secret.

  • - Right after high school graduation, we ran away from home,

  • went to Las Vegas, found one of those Elvis impersonators.

  • - You didn't. - No.

  • We didn't.

  • - Why not?

  • - I was only 17. They wouldn't let us.

  • - How come you've never told me about that?

  • - You never asked.

  • - Why would I think to ask if you...

  • Okay, well, nevermind.

  • Do you ever think about him,

  • this high school runaway boyfriend of yours?

  • - Yeah. Sometimes.

  • - You ever want to run away from me?

  • - Yeah.

  • In fact, I did.

  • - When?

  • - Three years ago.

  • You were going to some week-long architectural conference

  • in Los Angeles and taking a bunch of your staff with you.

  • - I vaguely remember that.

  • We do one or two of those every year.

  • - Yeah, I know.

  • So I took the kids to my mom's.

  • - Stayed at you mom's?

  • - The kids did.

  • - I went to Hawaii.

  • - Wow!

  • Cool.

  • How long were you there?

  • - While you were in LA.

  • - Were you thinking about coming back?

  • - Does it matter?

  • I did, obviously.

  • In fact, we were almost on the same flight back from LA.

  • (both laugh)

  • - That would've been awkward.

  • What did you do in Hawaii?

  • - Got a bungalow on the beach, took surfing lessons,

  • hiked a volcano. I went to this luau,

  • I ate a bunch of great seafood.

  • I got a tan.

  • You didn't notice.

  • - Did you go alone?

  • - Went alone.

  • Doesn't mean I was alone while I was there.

  • I ran into some really great people, some fans.

  • We had such a fun time.

  • - And you never said a word.

  • - No.

  • For the record, I've never cheated on you.

  • - Define cheat.

  • - Have you ever cheated on me?

  • - No.

  • - And how about you to define cheat?

  • - What'd you tell the kids?

  • - That I needed some me time,

  • and that it was our little secret.

  • - Hmm.

  • Good kids.

  • Obedient kids.

  • - Yeah.

  • - Doesn't really seem fair to them.

  • - So many things aren't fair to them, Kevin.

  • (Kevin sighs)

  • - I'll be right back.

  • (diners chattering)

  • - I'm really sorry to put you through all this, honey.

  • - Oh yeah, like you did this on purpose.

  • - Well, they say that pain can change a person.

  • I could get angry at everything, at everyone.

  • I don't think I will, but I swear it's possible.

  • - No, I don't think so.

  • - Yeah.

  • Could drive a wedge between us.

  • Drive me crazy, could drive you crazy,

  • turn me into a monster.

  • - Christopher. - What?

  • - You just always overthink everything.

  • You are looking at this from every possible angle.

  • Stop.

  • - Just stop, and let's take this one day at a time.

  • - All right. Okay.

  • - Okay.

  • - All right.

  • So, in the interest of time...

  • - Uh-huh?

  • - I think I should probably take up

  • some really dangerous sport or activity,

  • Like rock climbing or hang gliding or...

  • Hey, how about NASCAR racing?

  • - NASCAR racing? Mm-hm.

  • Well, I think you're a little too old for NASCAR.

  • - Haven't they got a senior circuit?

  • - Uh, no. - Oh.

  • Well, if they did,

  • then they'd be able to say that he died doing what he loved.

  • - Oh, well, I don't know, honey.

  • In that case, you'd probably have to die in bed.

  • - Ooh, I like that idea.

  • - Just saying.

  • - [Zoe] So you're what, 25?

  • - [Anthony] 24.

  • - Oh. - Yeah.

  • - I'm 21. - Oh.

  • - 24?

  • So did you finish your undergrad stuff, then, at State?

  • - Yeah.

  • And then I did one of those humanitarian trips

  • for about a year.

  • - Wow. That's awesome.

  • - Oh, thanks.

  • - Where did you go?

  • - Africa.

  • - Wow.

  • How was that?

  • - It was interesting.

  • I had a lot of crazy experiences, some really awesome ones.

  • I met a lot of amazing people.

  • But you know, it got me outta the States for a while too.

  • - Why did you wanna get outta the States?

  • Was the FBI after you?

  • (Anthony chuckles)

  • - No. Just stuff.

  • Have you ever wanted to do a trip like that?

  • - Yeah, I was thinking about it.

  • But then I got engaged. (laughs)

  • - Oh wow.

  • - Yeah. That obviously didn't work out.

  • Have you ever been engaged?

  • - No.

  • - Being engaged is different.

  • You know, it's like you're committed, but not really.

  • Like, you only have one of the rings, you know?

  • It's kind of like trying out for the team.

  • - Yeah.

  • - And I guess I didn't make the cut.

  • - What happened?

  • - He, Chad, decided that I just,

  • you know, wasn't right for him,

  • tall enough, smart enough, cute enough.

  • - What was wrong with this guy?

  • - How much time do you have?

  • - Oh, geez.

  • How long ago was that?

  • - A couple years.

  • - Huh.

  • - Still bug ya, or still hurt, I guess?

  • - Not really.

  • Every once in a while I put his picture on the wall

  • and throw darts at it, but other than that.

  • - So what made you say yes to me on the app?

  • - You really wanna know?

  • - I guess.

  • - I didn't. My sister did.

  • - Am I supposed to be on a date with your sister then?

  • - No. No, that would be weird.

  • She's 11, so... (laughs)

  • - That would be weird.

  • What's the deal with her?

  • - Well, she grabbed my phone one day,

  • and she sent you a heart.

  • - Oh, so she's the one who likes me?

  • - No, she thought that I would like you.

  • - Okay.

  • And you had nothing to do with us getting together then?

  • - Technically.

  • But I'm glad that she sent you a heart.

  • Along with a whole bunch of other guys.

  • - Oh, geez.

  • So I'm really not that special then.

  • - I mean, I think you're pretty special.

  • I sent a heart back to you.

  • - True.

  • - I've gotta admit that-

  • - What? This more honesty?

  • - Yeah.

  • - Okay.

  • - I have to admit that I don't know

  • if I want to keep doing this much longer.

  • - All right.

  • - Rachel, when was the last time

  • that we honestly said I love you to each other truthfully?

  • - Yeah, but is it that we really don't love each other?

  • - Maybe we just don't like each other?

  • - Yeah, maybe.

  • - So what are we gonna do about that?

  • - Seems like there's several options.

  • - Sure. We could try counseling again.

  • - Yeah.

  • Didn't help the last few times.

  • - No, it didn't.

  • We could just keep doing what we have been doing,

  • ignoring each other.

  • - I suppose, yeah,

  • drifting further and further apart.

  • - That's an option. Not a good one.

  • - We could...

  • We could take a break from each other, officially.

  • - Sure. Sure.

  • And of course there's always...

  • - Yeah.

  • - Divorce.

  • - Wow, it's odd.

  • That word, when actually spoken out loud, just sort of

  • hangs in the air.

  • - Yeah.

  • It's an ugly word.

  • "I choose you every day and I'm so lucky you choose me too.

  • I didn't know what marrying your best friend meant

  • until I met you.

  • You're my first thought every morning

  • and my last thought before I go to sleep.

  • You inspire a love in me that I never knew was possible."

  • (taps greeting card)

  • Why'd you pick a card that talks about love

  • when we can't even say the word to each other,

  • except maybe flippantly at the end of a phone call?

  • - Yeah, that doesn't really count, does it?

  • - No.

  • No, it doesn't.

  • Why'd you pick that card?

  • - I didn't.

  • Lily did. We were out shopping and-

  • - Sorry, and you went along with it?

  • - What was I supposed to do?

  • She was so excited. She thought it was the perfect card.

  • "After all these years,

  • I hope I've been the kind of guy

  • that an amazing woman like you truly deserves.

  • Happy anniversary."

  • You mean that?

  • Why'd you get me this card?

  • - It's our anniversary.

  • - Did you even read it?

  • - I read it.

  • I read a lot of cards, and I chose that one.

  • - Why?

  • And I noticed you signed it, "Love, Kevin."

  • - That's how you sign an anniversary card, Rachel.

  • I noticed you signed just your name.

  • - No, I didn't.

  • Well.

  • Sorry.

  • - It's okay.

  • You know what's odd?

  • We give each other cards that say the things we can't,

  • or don't, or are afraid to say.

  • - It's easier with a card.

  • - Do you think it's okay to get mad at God?

  • - Well, I suppose it depends on what you're mad about.

  • Overall, I think he could handle you

  • reading him the Riot Act.

  • - No, really.

  • I'm angry.

  • - You're not gonna swear at him, are you?

  • - Maybe.

  • - Well, I think you could probably handle that too.

  • Don't be mad at Him. I'm not.

  • - Really?

  • Why?

  • - Well, I don't think God has anything to do with this.

  • - He could stop this if you wanted to.

  • - Yeah, maybe he doesn't want to.

  • - And you're okay with that?

  • - Do I have a choice?

  • (Grace scoffs)

  • - Why don't you just get mad

  • and scream and yell, cry, something?

  • - I do.

  • Yeah, I do.

  • I just don't want you to see that side of me right now,

  • that's all.

  • - So you are angry, then?

  • - No.

  • I don't think anger gets us anywhere.

  • - Oh, well.

  • Because I am angry.

  • And when I talk to God,

  • believe me, I let Him know about it.

  • (Christopher laughs)

  • - I can only imagine.

  • - So if you're not angry, then what are you?

  • Because you've changed.

  • I mean, it's understandable, but I'm just wondering.

  • - Yeah, I just think overall I am, wow, overwhelmed.

  • Yeah, I mean, I have thought over the years

  • what it'd be like to sit in front of somebody

  • in a white jacket and hear the words,

  • "I'm sorry, Mr. Stevens, but you've got cancer."

  • Always thought that I'd come back with some witty remark,

  • like, "Wow, that's interesting."

  • Or, "Whew, I guess it could be worse."

  • - What did you say?

  • - Nothing.

  • No, I just sat there absorbing the moment.

  • Yeah.

  • You know, it's odd.

  • I wasn't scared, angry, or sad.

  • No, I was just, well, like I said, I was just overwhelmed.

  • You know, what am I gonna do now?

  • What's the next step? How do I tell the kids?

  • How do I tell you?

  • - When you did tell me...

  • - [Christopher] Yeah?

  • - I thought I was gonna die.

  • - You know... (chuckles)

  • I think I want my art and theater students

  • and maybe the kids in grade, if they want,

  • I just want 'em to paint my casket.

  • Yeah, I don't care. They can do whatever they like.

  • They can put their names, a Shakespeare quote,

  • some crazy emoji, I don't care.

  • Just paint the whole thing with these

  • brights, wild, crazy colors.

  • That'd be pretty cool, don't you think?

  • - Well, then I will paint a great big red heart on it.

  • - That's great. That's perfect.

  • Yeah, so just get me some inexpensive wooden casket.

  • By the time you guys are finished with it,

  • I'll be the envy of the whole cemetery.

  • (Grace sighs)

  • - You are impossible.

  • - Yeah.

  • You know, if I weren't impossible,

  • would that make me possible?

  • (Grace laughing)

  • Let's get outta here.

  • - Yeah. Good plan.

  • (Grace chuckles)

  • (Grace sighs)

  • - Okay, okay. I'm thinking.

  • (Zoe humming)

  • That's helpful. (laughs)

  • Have you ever been in love?

  • Interesting question.

  • I did tell you that I was engaged at one point.

  • - True, but did you love him?

  • - Okay, I'll answer.

  • You go first.

  • - Well, I think that's cheating.

  • - You're right, it is, but you go first.

  • - Okay.

  • Me, in love?

  • - [Zoe] Yeah.

  • - Sort of.

  • I went to Colgate University outta high school

  • 'cause it was close to home.

  • - Colgate is a perfect fit for a dentist.

  • - That's true.

  • But about my third week there I met Pamela, or Pammy.

  • - And how did you meet Pammy?

  • - Just in class, yeah.

  • We dated for quite a while.

  • - How long?

  • - About seven months.

  • - Impressive.

  • - Yeah.

  • I was pretty much smitten with her. Yeah.

  • Smitten, is that a good word?

  • It sounds like I got hit across the face.

  • Pammy!

  • (both laughing)

  • Yeah, we started talking about marriage

  • and throwing I love you's back and and forth, but

  • then suddenly just...

  • - Something went wrong?

  • - Yeah.

  • I think she decided she wasn't

  • totally over her old boyfriend.

  • - Oh.

  • You were really into her, weren't you?

  • - Yep. Pretty much.

  • She was really, really pretty and talented.

  • She played the flute.

  • Kind of an irritating instrument,

  • but she was smart and nice most of the time.

  • Some of the time.

  • Yeah.

  • It turns out her former boyfriend

  • was gonna be in town for a tournament or something.

  • - An athlete?

  • - Oh, I think it was a hot dog eating contest

  • that he was very good at. (Zoe laughing)

  • And I couldn't compete.

  • Yeah, he showed up and that pretty much ended things.

  • - Did you ever hear from her again?

  • - Mm-mm. No.

  • - Wow.

  • Sorry.

  • - Oh, no, it's cool.

  • And looking back, we weren't really good for each other.

  • I mean, why would I wanna be married

  • to someone like that anyway?

  • - Right?

  • You know, pretty, smart, talented. Pfft!

  • - Yugh.

  • - You wouldn't, definitely not.

  • - No.

  • To be honest, though,

  • she was probably kinda outta my league.

  • - Unlike me.

  • - Are you kidding? You are so far outta my league!

  • - You must play in the minor leagues.

  • - I'm a little lost on the metaphor,

  • But the point is, you are way better than Pammy.

  • - Gee, thanks.

  • - Yeah.

  • Okay, your turn. The love thing.

  • - Oh.

  • Yeah.

  • Once.

  • The engagement fiasco, that was enough.

  • Love's difficult, you know?

  • I don't think anyone's ever really defined it.

  • It's a feeling, a sensation.

  • It's not like a disease.

  • I mean, actually, now that I think of it.

  • Like with a disease, you can define it, right?

  • You can see it, analyze it,

  • look at it from under a microscope.

  • You can live with it, you can fix it, take a pill.

  • And the disease might even kill you,

  • but at least you can define it.

  • Now there's a difference between dying of a heart attack

  • and dying of a broken heart, 'cause with a heart attack,

  • you know what's going on with it,

  • but love, not really sure what it is,

  • but whatever it is,

  • if it's one of those one-way-street kind of loves, then...

  • - Yep. I totally agree.

  • - One-way love.

  • There's something we have in common.

  • - Right?

  • - You know, if we got divorced,

  • I think it'd be different than most.

  • - In what way?

  • - Well, most people fight over everything.

  • Cars, house, kids.

  • I just, I don't think we would.

  • - Yeah.

  • Yeah, I think you're right.

  • - We don't need each other's money.

  • - Yeah.

  • I don't think it'd be ugly at all.

  • Pretty simple actually. We just file a few papers.

  • - I'd keep the house.

  • - I'd get a place close by, joint custody.

  • - Yeah.

  • - I think the kids honestly would be okay with that.

  • - Oh yeah, they know we're not the couple

  • everyone thinks we are.

  • - Right.

  • And you'd have no problem finding someone else.

  • - Oh, please.

  • - No, seriously.

  • Great-looking guy, charismatic, successful.

  • You're like a dream come true for every 25-year-old.

  • - And you, the gorgeous, famous divorcee

  • that everyone adores.

  • - Yeah, that'd just scare guys off.

  • - Only the ones you don't want.

  • - True.

  • - You know how marriage looks different

  • from the inside than it does from the outside?

  • - Yeah, big time.

  • - I think it's the same with divorce.

  • - Probably.

  • Yeah, divorced people our age are pretty strange.

  • - Yeah, there's a reason they're divorced.

  • - Are we strange?

  • - Yeah, we are.

  • - How so?

  • - Well, we can't seem to figure out how to love each other.

  • - Yeah.

  • That's pretty strange.

  • - When do you wanna tell the kids?

  • - I don't know. I don't even know how to tell 'em.

  • I mean how do you do that,

  • tell people you love that you're dying?

  • - Well, maybe we tell our kids

  • and let them tell the grandkids.

  • - No.

  • - I don't know. It might be best.

  • - No. I mean, come on, they're too little.

  • They don't understand this kind of stuff.

  • - Hmm, I think they're smarter than you think.

  • - It can wait.

  • We'll tell 'em later if that's okay.

  • - What's going on with you?

  • - Huh?

  • - Just...

  • I don't know.

  • It feels to me like your whole life is up in the air,

  • and you're just taking it all in your stride.

  • I just don't understand that.

  • - Stride? Well...

  • Yeah, my life took a hard right turn

  • when I wanted to keep going straight.

  • Yeah, I wanna grow old, Grace.

  • I wanna know what it feels like

  • to wonder how much more time I have left

  • and not because of some stupid disease.

  • And I don't wanna miss

  • graduations and birthdays, and Lily's first prom,

  • and Jimmy's little league baseball games.

  • - Yeah.

  • - Yeah.

  • And how many more grandkids do you think we'll have?

  • (Grace chuckles)

  • And they won't even know me.

  • No, they won't.

  • I'll just be some kind of a...

  • I don't know, a bunch of digital photographs

  • tucked away in some online folder

  • that nobody will ever open.

  • - No, don't worry about that.

  • I'll make sure they know who you are.

  • - Oh, okay. That's nice.

  • - Yeah.

  • What's that old Bob Dylan song that I love it?

  • - Which one?

  • - I don't know. I've been thinking about it lately.

  • It's...

  • Oh. (chuckles)

  • Yeah, it's "knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door".

  • - Uh-huh. (laughs)

  • - You think they'll let me in?

  • - Pretty sure.

  • - Yeah.

  • - Yeah.

  • ♪ Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door ♪

  • Oh yeah.

  • Come on, move around a little bit.

  • Come on, shake it up.

  • - I'm gonna go in the house if this is going down.

  • - Nah, I don't think so.

  • ♪ Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door ♪

  • ♪ Boom boom boom ♪

  • - I'm definitely going in the house.

  • (both chuckling)

  • Absolutely I'm headed. here I go.

  • - No, you stay right here. You stay right here.

  • You stay right here.

  • - That's it? That's all the singing I get?

  • - That's it.

  • - Well.

  • - That's it.

  • (Grace chuckles)

  • - Question.

  • What do you think has been the worst part of our marriage?

  • - You really wanna go down that road?

  • - Yeah, sure.

  • - The worst, Kevin? I don't know.

  • There's been a lot of worst.

  • - Yeah, I know. But pick one.

  • - Just one? I don't think I can do that.

  • Okay.

  • Let's see.

  • When you went on that business trip to Italy,

  • and you didn't take me with you.

  • - Well, I was gonna be busy.

  • - No, I know.

  • But I made it clear that I really wanted to go.

  • - Well, like I said-

  • - Everyone else was taking their significant others.

  • That hurt a lot.

  • And then, like I said, I can't just do one.

  • A couple years ago I mentioned wanting to have another baby,

  • and you said it was a terrible idea.

  • - We're both very busy, Rachel.

  • We already have two wonderful children. We-

  • - No, I know, I know. I just...

  • I had this motherly instinct

  • telling me that maybe we should have another one.

  • Might have been good for us.

  • - Good for us?

  • - Could have been.

  • - You never said much about it.

  • - Then you must not have been listening.

  • - Okay.

  • So that was the worst?

  • - No.

  • - Ah, there's more.

  • - The worst.

  • The worst was when I got in that car accident.

  • - Oh, yeah. I remember that.

  • - What exactly do you remember?

  • - Let's see, it was a few years ago.

  • - Six to be exact.

  • - Right.

  • And you got pretty banged up,

  • in the hospital for a little while,

  • nothing life-threatening.

  • - What else?

  • - Let's see.

  • You had an operation on your leg.

  • Seemed to go okay. Your leg's fine now.

  • - I had two operations on my leg.

  • - Yeah, yeah, that's right.

  • - Do you really remember, or are you just saying that?

  • - No, I remember.

  • - My leg still hurts sometimes.

  • - Sorry.

  • - The worst was that,

  • when you realized my leg was gonna be okay,

  • you moved on, and I got really depressed and angry,

  • and you didn't notice.

  • I'd been in a major car accident.

  • Totaled the car.

  • Thank heaven the kids weren't with me.

  • I ended up in the hospital for 10 days, Kevin,

  • and you barely visited me.

  • - That's not true.

  • - Yeah, it is.

  • Even the nurses wondered

  • why you didn't come around more often.

  • I was your wife, Kevin.

  • And I was in pain and in trouble.

  • You think you could have set aside your ego just once.

  • - Ego.

  • - Yeah, Kevin.

  • You know, thought about someone other than yourself.

  • - What if I'd been in an accident?

  • Would you have wanted to visit me?

  • What if I died in an accident?

  • Could have taken the house,

  • the life insurance money, the kids, the business,

  • without me in the way.

  • - That is a very cruel question.

  • - Well, what's your honest answer.

  • - I don't want you to die, Kevin.

  • But, yeah, do I sometimes think that life would be better,

  • easier for both of us if-

  • - If I wasn't around?

  • - Yeah.

  • - Wow, honesty.

  • - You asked.

  • - You're right. You're right, I did.

  • (phone ringing)

  • - Hey, honey.

  • Uh-huh.

  • Yeah, we're at dinner.

  • Yeah, he did.

  • He loved it.

  • Okay.

  • Okay. I'll tell him.

  • Uh-huh. I love you too.

  • Okay, bye.

  • (phone beeps)

  • That was Lily.

  • Wanted to wish us a happy anniversary.

  • - This whole situation kind of changes stuff, doesn't it?

  • - Well, yeah.

  • - I can see the wheels turning.

  • (Grace sighs)

  • - I don't know.

  • - What, you don't know,

  • or you're afraid you're gonna ruin my day?

  • - Yes.

  • I've been put in the uncomfortable position

  • of having to think about me instead of us.

  • And I don't even like to put it this way.

  • - It's all right.

  • - Well, it's like I said before.

  • I mean, you're gonna move on. You'll be in a better place.

  • And what am I supposed to do?

  • What do I do.

  • when the man I have loved since I was 16

  • is no longer by my side?

  • And then I just start to feel selfish

  • for even thinking about me.

  • I mean, seriously, my every thought

  • should be on you right now

  • and helping you get through this.

  • And yet... (sighs)

  • I don't know.

  • - Well, I'm sure you've thought about loneliness

  • and being alone.

  • You're still young and vibrant.

  • (Grace scoffs)

  • - Please. I'm not young anymore.

  • - You're still beautiful.

  • Prettier than you were at 16.

  • - Wait, are you saying I wasn't cute when I was 16?

  • - No.

  • - [Grace] Hmm.

  • - I remember the first time I saw you.

  • - Yeah, I know this story.

  • - Yeah.

  • Yeah, it was my senior year at Marshall.

  • It was an algebra class.

  • - Geometry.

  • - I'm telling the story. (Grace laughs)

  • - Okay.

  • - And, yeah, you transferred to Marshall that year.

  • You were about a week late.

  • You walked in, teacher introduced you, and I was in love.

  • - And I thought you were in love with Becky Smith.

  • - Well, I was.

  • That's before I fell in love with you.

  • - Before you saw me or before you fell in love with me?

  • - Same thing.

  • - Mm.

  • Okay.

  • - So when did you fall in love with me?

  • - Oh, well that would've been

  • when I saw you sitting behind your desk

  • in our geometry class.

  • - Right. (chuckles)

  • No, actually it was about two or three months later.

  • - Oh.

  • - You walked me home from school, and it was cold,

  • and you gave me your jacket.

  • - My letterman's jacket.

  • - Yes.

  • - And you kept it.

  • - Yes, of course I did. It smelled like you.

  • (Christopher laughs)

  • And I still have it.

  • It's in the back of my closet,

  • and I still smell it sometimes.

  • - Did you sleep with it?

  • (Grace gasps)

  • - I'll never tell.

  • - You slept with it.

  • (Grace scoffs)

  • I can tell. I can see it in your eyes.

  • You slept with it. (Grace giggles)

  • Oh.

  • I never get tired of revisiting the stories

  • of when we were young.

  • And I love hearing about

  • when you first fell in love with me.

  • Such a sweet time in our lives.

  • You were such a sweet boy.

  • - Yeah. - Oh.

  • - And the cool thing is,

  • I have loved you every day, every hour,

  • every minute, every second ever since.

  • - I know.

  • I know.

  • What am I supposed to do

  • when those days and hours and minutes

  • and the seconds,

  • when they come to an end?

  • (delicate music)

  • (Christopher breathes deeply)

  • - Okay, truth or dare.

  • - Really?

  • - Yeah.

  • - Okay. Dare.

  • - I dare you to tell the truth.

  • - Again, cheating.

  • - Yeah, you're right.

  • What are you afraid of?

  • - What am I afraid of?

  • Probably the thing that most young girls are afraid of.

  • You know, getting married to some weirdo

  • that goes completely nuts,

  • beats the crap out of me on a regular basis,

  • sets the house on fire,

  • killing me, the kids, and the dog,

  • pleads insanity, blames it all on me,

  • and the court lets him off.

  • Something like that.

  • - You've really thought this through.

  • - Actually, no.

  • I watched an episode of "Murder in the Neighborhood"

  • last night.

  • - Okay.

  • Then what are you really afraid of?

  • - That I'll get married

  • sometime in the next few years, probably,

  • to someone I don't really love.

  • Wow. That's getting kinda heavy for a first date.

  • - But why marry him?

  • - Because he checks all the boxes.

  • - Oh, you're a box checker?

  • - Not now, but I'm afraid that I'll get to that point.

  • - Well, if you had boxes to check, then what would they be?

  • - Not murdering someone in the neighborhood.

  • Has a job, drives a car, loves me,

  • or likes me, or at least is willing to put up with me.

  • That's about it.

  • - You need to be pickier.

  • - You think so?

  • - Yeah.

  • You're awesome. You're great.

  • And you need a much longer list

  • with more boxes and better boxes.

  • - Thanks.

  • - Yeah.

  • - So now you.

  • Truth or dare?

  • - Truth.

  • - Cool.

  • Do you really think that you'll be a dentist someday?

  • - What do you mean?

  • - You know, some people have ideas and dreams,

  • but then they end up settling for something less,

  • something easier.

  • - You don't think I have what it takes to be a dentist?

  • - No, no. I didn't say that.

  • I just mean it's a lot, going to dental school,

  • studying long hours, looking in people's mouths.

  • - I have what it takes.

  • I always like to finish what I start.

  • Well, there were times in Africa

  • when it would've made a lot of sense to call it quits.

  • Saw things I don't ever wanna see again.

  • I had guns pointed at me.

  • It got pretty insane at times.

  • - And you stuck it out.

  • - Yeah.

  • Like I said, I...

  • - You like to finish what you start.

  • - Yeah.

  • - So do you wanna get married, do the kid thing?

  • - I can't believe you asked me that on a first date.

  • (Zoe laughs)

  • - Yeah right. (laughs)

  • So?

  • - If I actually do get married, yeah,

  • I think I'd probably have a kid.

  • - Maybe two.

  • - Possibly.

  • - Does that scare you, having kids?

  • - Definitely.

  • - Do you even wanna be a dad?

  • - Another great first date question.

  • I don't really have good dad role models in my life.

  • I have two uncles,

  • and they're not exactly what I'd call dad material.

  • And my dad, I mean, I love him,

  • but I don't wanna be like him.

  • He's a good guy, but not a great dad.

  • - Are you afraid that,

  • even though you don't wanna end up being like him,

  • that you'll end up being like him?

  • - Yeah, let's face it,

  • growing up for me was not a pleasant experience.

  • I couldn't wait to get outta the house,

  • and I don't ever want my kids to feel that way.

  • - I don't think they will.

  • - Thank you. - Thanks.

  • All right.

  • What's your worst time of our marriage?

  • - Well, it's not as dramatic as yours,

  • and I'm only gonna do one.

  • It was the time I realized you don't love me.

  • - When was that?

  • - Few years ago.

  • - So I don't love you?

  • - I don't think so.

  • - Was there a specific moment?

  • - I was lying in bed, 1:00 or 2:00 in the morning.

  • You were asleep next to me.

  • I was reading something. I don't remember what it was.

  • Came across the word love in the book.

  • I don't think it was in a romantic context.

  • I think it was probably like,

  • I love this thing or that thing, you know?

  • It's so strange we use that word

  • and associated it with inanimate objects.

  • Anyway, I was just looking at you.

  • A light on your face was perfect, soft,

  • mixture of moonlight and my reading lamp.

  • You're a really beautiful woman, Rachel.

  • I just looked at you for a long time,

  • listening to you breathe,

  • like your little sleep sounds,

  • adjust your body here and there.

  • And then you rolled over,

  • and I honestly wondered if you loved me.

  • It was hard to even ask the question.

  • This woman who this shared my life,

  • slept in my bed, gave me children,

  • does she love me?

  • I don't know why, but I got the impression,

  • sensation that you didn't.

  • - Did you ask yourself if you loved me?

  • - Yeah, I did.

  • - And?

  • - I didn't know. I couldn't come up with an answer.

  • I wanted to.

  • I knew I did, but...

  • There were other times, but that was the worst.

  • - Why haven't you ever told me this before?

  • - Like I said, I haven't really been honest with you,

  • and you never asked.

  • (soft music)

  • - Here's your tea.

  • - Thanks.

  • - My pleasure.

  • - So, the elephant in the room is?

  • - What?

  • - How long do you think it'll be before you meet someone?

  • (Grace sighs)

  • And don't tell me you haven't thought about it.

  • - I haven't thought of meeting someone.

  • In fact, I don't even wanna talk about this.

  • - Are you afraid of meeting someone?

  • - I don't wanna talk about this.

  • - Are you afraid of being alone.

  • (Grace sighs)

  • - Christopher, honestly.

  • Alone. No.

  • But I'm not looking forward to the loneliness.

  • And there's a difference.

  • honey, I'm not going to be alone.

  • I have the three kids, seven grandkids,

  • and they are all going to look out for me.

  • - Yeah, but that's not the same.

  • - Well, no. No, it isn't.

  • - Okay, back to the elephant.

  • You always said that, if you died first,

  • you'd want me to get remarried.

  • - Well, it's because men don't do well on their own.

  • - And women?

  • - Some do, yeah.

  • - You? - I have no idea, Christopher.

  • - Well, what do you think?

  • Okay.

  • All right, I was hoping that you would say something like,

  • "I'll just get busy with volunteer work."

  • You know, "Time with kids and grandkids,"

  • and, "I'll always only be in love with Christopher Stevens.

  • I'll never hold hands, never have a crush."

  • - That just sounds silly though.

  • Someone my age having a crush?

  • - Yeah.

  • - But I think all of that would be really selfish of me.

  • It's a part of my brain that says

  • I just want Grace all to myself.

  • - And what does the other part of your brain say?

  • It says that I think you should meet someone.

  • You're far too lovely and beautiful to not meet someone.

  • I mean, it might take a little while, but you will.

  • It's your nature.

  • And your memory of me, it won't disappear.

  • But it'll begin to fade a little.

  • - Yeah.

  • You've given this a lot of thought.

  • And that's what you really think?

  • - Yeah.

  • - I'm not so sure I wanted to hear that.

  • (delicate music)

  • (door opens)

  • (door closes)

  • (Christopher sighs)

  • - [Anthony] So what's it like studying art?

  • - Probably a lot different than studying chemistry.

  • - Yeah.

  • - Did you like to draw even as a kid?

  • - Yeah.

  • You know, I've always been able to draw what I see.

  • - Now that's amazing. (chuckles)

  • - It was funny,

  • I took this because you have to,

  • a portrait sketching class,

  • and I got paired, this was my freshman year,

  • with the cutest guy in class,

  • like maybe even in the whole school.

  • - Geez, how fortunate.

  • - Actually, It was kind of distracting.

  • He was gorgeous, and as I think of it,

  • he was probably hoping that he would

  • have been paired up with somebody else.

  • - No, I doubt it.

  • - Anyway, I was supposed to draw this guy's picture,

  • but I did one of those caricatures,

  • you know, the ones that make you look weird?

  • You know, funny? - Oh, yeah, yeah. (laughing)

  • - Uh-huh.

  • - I'm actually really good at those.

  • The teacher loved it.

  • - Did Mr. Gorgeous?

  • - Yeah, not so much.

  • I think that his vanity got in the way,

  • and I was hoping, in an odd way, that he would ask me out.

  • And we spent so much time looking at each other.

  • It felt like forever, but nothing.

  • - Well, he really missed out.

  • - Actually, as I think about the conversations we had

  • while we were sitting there,

  • they weren't exactly mind-blowing, you know?

  • More mind-numbing.

  • - So, not like our conversations.

  • - Not even close.

  • (soft music) (diners chattering)

  • - So should we venture into the best part of our marriage?

  • - I suppose we could give it a try.

  • - Okay, I'll go first.

  • It's an easy answer for me.

  • Right After we got married-

  • - I know where you're going with this.

  • - We got that internship.

  • - [Kevin] Washington D.C.

  • - Yeah. 18 months.

  • We were so excited.

  • The city was fascinating.

  • We didn't have any kids. (laughs)

  • We got that dumpy little studio apartment in Georgetown.

  • And you loved what you were doing.

  • I was working at the bank, but we made all those friends,

  • and they'd come over,

  • and we'd sit around on the floor and eat pizza.

  • - With pineapple.

  • - And pepperoni.

  • (both chuckle)

  • We'd talk about politics, religion, world affairs.

  • - We haven't done that in a while.

  • - I miss that.

  • It was so fun to be so young and in love.

  • We didn't have any real pressure.

  • And we really loved each other.

  • We really did.

  • There were some other good times, but that was the best.

  • - That was a good time.

  • - So what about you? What was your best time?

  • - Our fifth anniversary.

  • - Is that the one where we-

  • - Our folks paid for us to go to England for a couple weeks.

  • They watched Lily, and off we went.

  • - [Rachel] Mm.

  • - The history, pulse of the city, architecture of course.

  • But the best part was when we rented that car

  • and drove off into the countryside,

  • stayed at bed and breakfasts, talked to the locals.

  • - You remember Stratford?

  • - Of course.

  • We saw that great production of Hamlet.

  • And that picnic we went on out in the middle of nowhere.

  • I think we were in...

  • - Wales.

  • - Yeah. Yeah.

  • Grassy field all to ourselves.

  • Slight breeze, warm, sunny day, a few blankets.

  • And we-

  • - Yeah.

  • That was nice.

  • How'd we lose it?

  • - Little by little. Misstep by misstep.

  • - We have so much to live for.

  • Our life, when viewed from the outside,

  • it's like a fairytale, a dream.

  • The handsome architect.

  • - The gorgeous writer.

  • - The house, the kids. It looks perfect.

  • - It's the inside.

  • - Yeah.

  • - What do we do? Where do we go from here?

  • - Any ideas?

  • - We ruled out counseling again.

  • (Rachel chuckles)

  • I suppose we could try forgiveness?

  • - There's a lot to forgive.

  • - On both sides.

  • - Seems like uncharted territory.

  • - Yeah, kind of scary.

  • What do we have to lose?

  • - Pretty much everything.

  • What do we have to gain?

  • - Pretty much everything.

  • Call it a leap of faith.

  • (diners chattering)

  • (birds chirping)

  • - Do I ever get to see this masterpiece?

  • - When it's done.

  • - You at least gotta tell me what it is.

  • - It's a drawing.

  • - Okay, but of what?

  • - You.

  • - What?

  • Oh my gosh!

  • That's amazing!

  • You are really good at this.

  • - Told you.

  • - Geez, can I keep it?

  • - Yeah, it's all yours.

  • - Thank you.

  • It's the best portrait I've ever had.

  • I was wondering, if you could live anywhere in the world,

  • where would it be?

  • - Not Soda Springs. I've done my time there.

  • - Soda Springs?

  • - Yeah. (laughs)

  • - Wow. Okay.

  • Well, besides that, where would you wanna live?

  • - I don't know, maybe Paris to study Art.

  • Italy. Rome, Venice.

  • - Yeah.

  • - Florence.

  • I think it would be really cool to go somewhere exotic

  • where you don't know what anyone's talking about.

  • - Yeah, that's true.

  • And you could do that with art.

  • It's like art transcends language

  • or sort of has a language all of its own, you know?

  • - That's really cool.

  • So, as a dentist, where do you see yourself ending up?

  • - I don't know.

  • First I wanna get into a really good dental school.

  • - Soda Springs has an excellent dental school.

  • - Really? - No.

  • (both chuckle)

  • So when you're a dentist,

  • do you see yourself ever going back to Africa again?

  • You know, maybe doing free dental work for kids?

  • - Oh, I'd love to. Yeah, in a heartbeat.

  • Maybe my wife could be my assistant.

  • We could work together.

  • Yeah.

  • I just think being a dentist would be,

  • will be really cool.

  • - I agree.

  • Okay. Time for the fortune cookie read off.

  • You read mine, and I'll read yours.

  • - Okay.

  • (wrappers rustling)

  • All right.

  • "You are the crispy noodle in the veggie salad of life."

  • - Yay! That is me.

  • All right, your turn.

  • "An interesting medical opportunity is in your near future"?

  • - Sounds like surgery.

  • - Dental school, silly!

  • - Oh, hey, that's great.

  • - Good one.

  • You're a really good guy, Anthony.

  • - You think so, huh?

  • - Yeah.

  • - You're really cute and funny.

  • You have a beautiful mouth.

  • - You mentioned that.

  • - It's very important to a dentist.

  • (Anthony chuckles)

  • It's getting kinda late.

  • I should probably give you a ride back to your bike.

  • (both chuckle)

  • I think it's the first time I've ever said that.

  • (Zoe laughs)

  • Oh, we gotta get a picture.

  • - Oh, sure. Sounds great.

  • - Here.

  • (camera shutter clicking)

  • (Anthony chuckles)

  • (camera shutter clicking)

  • (Grace sighs)

  • - This whole me meeting someone thing

  • you were talking about.

  • - [Christopher] Mm-hm?

  • - Even if I wanted to meet someone,

  • who's gonna want to meet me?

  • (Christopher chuckles)

  • - Oh, there's a lot of guys.

  • - Seriously.

  • They might be interested to begin with,

  • but as soon as they realize

  • what the big picture is... (scoffs)

  • - What's the big picture?

  • - That I will always love you.

  • And as soon as they see that in my eyes,

  • whoosh, they're gone.

  • They might even leave skid marks.

  • - Ah.

  • Well, I guess I see a different big picture.

  • - You just...

  • You don't get it, do you?

  • - What?

  • - I have loved you my whole life. That's not gonna stop.

  • How could I ever love anyone as much as I love you?

  • - So I'm your forever love.

  • And that's just not for this life,

  • but I'm talking about the next one too?

  • - Of course. We've talked about this.

  • - Yeah, I know.

  • I was just checking.

  • So this whole "till death to us part" thing-

  • - No. I don't believe that.

  • - I still think you'll meet someone.

  • - So this is your big picture?

  • - [Christopher] Yeah.

  • - Hmm.

  • - And he'll want to marry you.

  • Why wouldn't he?

  • - Lots of reasons.

  • Gonna see all these pictures I have of you everywhere.

  • - No, no, no. He'll wanna marry you.

  • - I honestly don't-

  • - Just listen for a second.

  • I'm okay with it.

  • - Really?

  • - Yeah.

  • - How can you say that?

  • - Because I love you. (sniffles)

  • And...

  • (soft music)

  • I know you love me.

  • And I know that our life,

  • our love will go on forever.

  • How, I don't know. I just know that it will.

  • how could it not?

  • And I want you to be happy.

  • I want you to have joy in this life.

  • And when you find that someone,

  • and you fall in love...

  • (Grace sighs)

  • (Grace sniffles)

  • - You really do love me, don't you?

  • - Yeah.

  • (Grace sighs)

  • Yeah.

  • - I love you.

  • (soft music)

  • - It's a pretty cool bike.

  • - Thanks.

  • - I guess we're at that point

  • where I tell you I had a really good time.

  • - And I say thank you for the Chinese.

  • - Right. Oh, right.

  • Yeah, the food, and fun conversation.

  • - And the picnic.

  • - Yeah, the picnic was very fun.

  • I like your shoes.

  • - Thanks.

  • I actually have a pair at home just like 'em.

  • Go figure.

  • - I gotta tell you, I really had a good time.

  • - You already told me that.

  • - I guess I did.

  • Right.

  • Anyway, do you think you might like to-

  • - Anthony?

  • My mother told me to never do this on a first date.

  • - What?

  • - Gimme your phone.

  • - Why?

  • - Just give me your phone.

  • - Okay.

  • - Dialing 911?

  • (Zoe laughs)

  • - Cute.

  • No, now you have my number.

  • And my roommates told me to never do this.

  • (Zoe and Anthony kissing)

  • (both chuckle)

  • Okay.

  • (Anthony chuckles)

  • (bike rattling)

  • (no audio)

  • - Well, it has been a rather intriguing evening,

  • celebrating the forgettable number 13.

  • (Rachel chuckles)

  • - Thank you for the necklace. It's perfect.

  • - Thank you for the watch. It's very beautiful.

  • - You know I had it engraved?

  • - I noticed.

  • - And the years haven't all been forgettable, Kevin.

  • There's been some good times too.

  • - Yeah, our summer trips to the lake

  • have been rather memorable.

  • - Yes, and Christmas has always been quite adventure.

  • - Not always in keeping with the holiday spirit, but.

  • - No, no.

  • There's been some good times,

  • just not enough and not lately.

  • - Yeah?

  • How would you define lately?

  • - I don't know.

  • Six years or so.

  • - Okay.

  • I think I would've said three or four, but.

  • So do we wanna keep doing this, or?

  • I could flip a coin.

  • Heads, yes. Tails, no.

  • (Rachel chuckles)

  • - No.

  • No, I don't wanna keep doing this, but

  • I do want you.

  • - We're like a couple of fish, Rachel,

  • swimming in separate bowls.

  • - Hey, we can see each other.

  • - But we don't touch.

  • - Might be nice to swim in the same bowl.

  • - We do have a fairly large fish bowl at home.

  • And my mom has the kids for the night.

  • - What are you suggesting?

  • - We could go home, curl up on the couch,

  • watch a romantic movie...

  • (thunder rumbles)

  • followed by a midnight swim in the rain.

  • - What movie do you have in mind?

  • - Maybe "Love Actually."

  • (Rachel laughs)

  • - You hate that movie.

  • - Yes, I do. But you love it.

  • - Okay.

  • (Kevin and Rachel kiss)

  • (car door opens)

  • (no audio)

  • (Kevin and Rachel kissing)

  • I'll see you at home.

  • (car door shuts)

  • (car starts)

  • (car leaving)

  • (no audio)

  • - You know, it's kind of strange, but...

  • I mean, it's an odd feeling actually.

  • I'm not gonna be around much longer.

  • - Well there's always forever.

  • - Yeah, I'm grateful for that.

  • (Christopher chuckles)

  • This has been a really fun ride with your, Grace.

  • - Honey, what do you think about when you're alone,

  • like when you're in the car and you're driving

  • or you're having breakfast early in the morning?

  • - When we're lying in bed and you're fast asleep

  • and I'm still wide awake?

  • (Grace laughs)

  • - Yeah, then.

  • - You know...

  • (thunder rumbles)

  • Well, like you say,

  • I have a tendency to overthink things, so.

  • No, but I wonder about

  • that last Sunday night dinner with the family.

  • I wonder what that'll be like.

  • I really love that tradition.

  • A what'll be the last word I'll ever say,

  • the last song I'll ever hear?

  • What'll I say in my last prayer?

  • Our last kiss.

  • Our last "I love you".

  • - I think those will probably be the last words you say.

  • - Yeah. And the last words I'll hear.

  • - Mm.

  • Ah, Christopher,

  • why can't life just be like a movie

  • and we fast forward to the end?

  • (Christopher chuckles)

  • - Yeah, you really wanna do that?

  • - No. (chuckles)

  • No, I guess not.

  • (Christopher exhales)

  • (both chuckle)

  • (Christopher breathes deeply)

  • (car approaching)

  • (car shuts off)

  • (car doors shut)

  • - Hey! - Hey.

  • - Hey, guys,

  • - [Rachel] Cool bike.

  • - Yeah.

  • - Hi! - How are you?

  • - How are you guys? - How was your ride?

  • Was it good?

  • - It was really warm, actually.

  • - Oh, was it?

  • (group chattering)

  • A little slushy?

  • Hey!

  • (overlapping chatter)

  • - Yay! - Good to see you guys.

  • - I'm so glad you're here. Hi!

  • (overlapping chatter)

  • - Hi, honey. How are you?

  • Hungry?

  • There she is. (laughing)

  • Come on in, Zoe.

  • - Hey, Zoe, where's your friend Anthony?

  • - [Zoe] He's got a lot of homework.

  • - Oh, okay.

  • And where's your mom and dad today?

  • They went to my other grandparents' house.

  • - Yes. (laughing)

  • - Got a soccer team.

  • - Soccer.

  • - You're the.

  • - Come on, let's go dye your hair crazy colors.

  • You're mom would love it. (Grace laughs)

  • - Oh.

  • You.

  • - Hi.

  • - I'm so glad you're here.

  • - How's Christopher?

  • - Today. Today's a pretty good day.

  • - And we love being here.

  • - Okay. (claps)

  • Hey, let's everybody get together.

  • All right?

  • Everybody get together.

  • Yeah, the food is in the kitchen.

  • So what have you prepared for us tonight, honey?

  • - Well, I was feeling so thankful that I decided

  • let's do another Thanksgiving.

  • So I made another turkey.

  • (Christopher laughs)

  • (Grace laughs)

  • - Well that's great.

  • And Sean and Emily and their kids, as usual,

  • will be a little late tonight.

  • And Sarah and Adam,

  • they are at Adam's parents' house tonight,

  • so they can't be with us,

  • but it's just us then, or for the moment,

  • and I'm really grateful, grateful to have all of you here.

  • I love it when you guys come over

  • and join us for Sunday dinner.

  • So.

  • Anyway, Kevin, would you say grace for us please?

  • - [Christopher] Sure, Dad. Yeah.

  • - Thank you.

  • - God is good. God is great.

  • And we thank Him for this food.

  • By His hands we all are fed.

  • We thank you, Lord, for daily bread.

  • And please bless our family.

  • And especially grandpa at this time.

  • Amen.

  • - [All] Amen.

  • - Thanks, Kevin. - Yeah.

  • - Okay, let's go eat.

  • - Excellent.

  • - All into the kitchen.

  • - [Grace] And you, keep your fingers out of the pie.

  • (all laughing)

  • ♪ Sunny days are better with you ♪

  • ♪ Your love is freedom ♪

  • ♪ Your lips hang over mine ♪

  • ♪ Pinch me if I'm dreaming ♪

  • ♪ Can we get away together ♪

  • ♪ Let's run to the hills ♪

  • ♪ Where fields are green ♪

  • ♪ Let's follow the path ♪

  • ♪ Of sweetness and ease ♪

  • ♪ If just for a moment ♪

  • ♪ We can breathe in the roses ♪

  • ♪ Let's run to the hills ♪

  • ♪ Just you and me ♪

  • (gentle piano music)

  • ♪ Rainy clouds replace blue skies ♪

  • ♪ Our feet get dirty ♪

  • ♪ This is part of our lives ♪

  • ♪ Let's get back to the basics ♪

  • ♪ Can we get away together ♪

  • ♪ Let's run to the hills ♪

  • ♪ Where fields are green ♪

  • ♪ Let's follow the path ♪

  • ♪ Of sweetness and ease ♪

  • ♪ If just for a moment ♪

  • ♪ We can breathe in the roses ♪

  • ♪ Let's run to the hills ♪

  • ♪ Just you and me ♪

  • ♪ Stay here for another moment ♪

  • ♪ Heartache can't find us now ♪

  • ♪ Enjoy this sweet aroma ♪

  • ♪ That lifts us off the ground ♪

  • ♪ Can we get away together ♪

  • ♪ Let's run to the hills ♪

  • ♪ Where fields are green ♪

  • ♪ Let's follow the path ♪

  • ♪ Of sweetness and ease ♪

  • ♪ If just for a moment ♪

  • ♪ We can breathe in the roses ♪

  • ♪ Let's run to the hills ♪

  • ♪ Where fields are green ♪

  • ♪ Let's follow the path ♪

  • ♪ Of sweetness and ease ♪

  • ♪ If just for a moment ♪

  • ♪ We can breathe in the roses ♪

  • ♪ Let's run to the hills ♪

  • ♪ Just you and me ♪

  • (gentle piano music)

  • (music fades)

(thunder booms)

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