Another wave of anxiety and a visit from the Untrue scenario wizard in my head.

Oh, and look self doubt came for the party to luckily this quote saved the day for me.

It was in one of my oracle card booklets and it said if life does something that causes a disturbance inside of you, instead of pulling away, let it pass through you like the wind.

If you want to be free, you have to learn to stop fighting all these human feelings.

And this couldn't have came at a better time, even if you don't believe in oracle cards, but they really make you question some of the things that you're doing and allows you to make shifts in your life that just don't align with you.

So even if you don't believe, I feel like these cards are a great resource for you to connect with yourself.

Oh yeah, and I bought some candles the other day.

I haven't bought anything for myself in actually like two years.

So it's kind of weird investing in myself because I've invested so much in other things, but it also feels pretty good.

So basically this is my weeks, I didn't do so well this week, so I'm going to probably move this stuff around.

Obviously I don't get everything uploaded and done in a week.

Sometimes I get creatively stuck, but this week seems to be a creative week for me and I think, and I'm praying that I can get all this done in a week.

I'm not going to sugarcoat anything, I have those days to even as a mindset coach And for that I get you, I've been there, there's nobody out there that has never felt this way in their lives.

A lot of the thoughts that go through my head are 80% invalid and untrue.

We have two minds, we have the thinking mind and the observing mind, but thinking mind is a monkey mind.

We have to use our observing line to really think is this true?

Do I know this for sure and just call out the bs?

So before I start work I'm actually picking out where I want to go for my sponsor because they told me that I can choose anything from these lists.

So it's really hard to do because everything looks so much fun, like so many ninja type things and that's kind of like what the video is about.

I'd like to dive a little bit deeper into the mindset of a ninja during this video and ask them, you know what sort of focused they needed and training they needed and meditation and all of that stuff.

So okay, so now it is lunchtime and I'm making my favorite coconut curry.

Let me know if you guys really like this behind the scenes sort of day in the life, boring stuff.

I think it's kind of boring but maybe you guys don't just let me know in the comments down below.

I got the walk around like yo yo yeah, just something you get used to.

What are you doing?

Do you want some mistake here is my dinner today gave me some of his beer kimchi and rice cake and mushrooms and salad salad.

A nice and warm underneath.

It's heated.

This evening we sat around Arco Tatsu, which is our heated table and watch the japanese bachelorette, which I don't like so much, but my husband loves it.

There's zero kissing, zero touching and then they get engaged.

Yuji told me to be quiet so we can watch the Bachelor go into mm hmm.

Mhm.

After calling up the Bs in my head, it's time for a cleanse another do nothing day where I follow my intuition.

My intuition was telling me to explore somewhere I've never explored before.

I'm the type of person who really doesn't enjoy going to the same place more than once.

I actively search for a new experience because it inspires me.

It breathes new life into me.

What's the one thing you do to inspire yourself?

That's where your happy place will be During times of self sabotage and doubt Prince Club.

It's a mascot.

We didn't realize on this particular day there was a baseball game during a pandemic and it was extremely unnecessarily grounded.

The team was the Lions, which reminded me of the Lions football team back home where I'm from except their mascot was so anime.

Anyway, we headed towards the woods?

Totoro Forest, yep.

Miyazaki uses forest as inspiration for the film.

My neighbor Totoro, he himself used to take walks for creative ideas in this rural portion of Tokyo and it was so beautiful and peaceful just as I had hoped.

Okay my makeup is coming off because my eyes are watering, it's kind of cold but like not at the same time.

So we're going to total forest, which is where Hayao Miyazaki used to live and used to walk through the forest and this forest was the inspiration for total.

So we're gonna go and check it out.

Just enjoy the nature today because sometimes you just need to schedule in a break and a way to just connect with yourself and I think this is such a good opportunity to do that.

So look at the bamboo trees, look at the bamboo, yeah, so beautiful.

Look at that forest over there, look at the scarecrow, little did we know Totoro forest would be lined with love hotels.

There's like love hotels lining all of these streets.

It's so crazy.

This one looks nice.

I think we counted about 10 on our magical journey to visit Totoro.

Love hotel number seven no longer in Toto's forest.

We're in like love hotel for us now there's one over there but don't worry we found the forest eventually and we were able to live our studio jubilee dreams.

The Cicada is born then they're in the ground and then they come out, they mate and then they die?

They basically have sex and then they die.

Honestly, you might be wondering how do you do all that you do every single day with the content creation, the coaching, traveling, having free time and do nothing days.

I know it looks like a lot, but honestly my dreams are what fuels me.

No days are perfect.

I hit walls, but I bounced back.

Life is a beautiful process of unlearning all that.

We were told that we would amount to and take that leap to learning who we truly are.

My dreams are claimed by me.

I don't think about whether they will work out or not.

If I lose everything, I still have purpose and that is to inspire others and myself, Even if there's a hiccup or a detour that I have to take on my journey or a roadblock, I'll get back somehow one way or another because I made my dreams mine, I have so many paths I can take that will allow me to be happy because I know my purpose.

It's on my side and that's what I hope to teach others.

It's my mission, my passion.

It's everything that drives me every single day.

And don't think for a second that you can't have that too.

It's your power.

You need to claim it.

And really no one's going to give you a map, you have to walk your own path.

What a gorgeous house right there.

So I feel like when you come to the countryside you can see how hard people work.

You get the food on your table.

I think it's very like there's such a process for everything.

When you have a problem with creative confidence.

It's good to kind of see the process in between.

Instead of seeing the final product and then you can gain that motivation and that confidence to do start a project or to cook something or to become something or to make something coming into the countryside like this.

You can see that process.

I don't think it's really interesting.

Wow.

What a beautiful home.

Little countryside.

Japanese town.

It's so beautiful.

My husband decided to take us on a detour through the Japanese countryside neighborhoods and it was full of farms, beautiful fruit and vegetables and just emptiness away from the craziness of Tokyo and the weather is so nice in Japan.

They usually like layout there, They put their eggs out or they're like vegetables and they trust you to pay right?

So like in America people would just steal like in Japan they just lay everything out.

They trust you with their stuff that you'll pay the price right?

We walked and walked to our destination and found that the place we wanted to go was closed due to the coronavirus.

We should have checked.

We walked all the way to the total house and I guess it is closed.

So I'm really bummed out.

We should have checked.

But I guess.

um yeah, I'm so bummed out.

We'll have to come back though.

But I'll insert some pictures and photos here of Totoro deep in the woods.

You can find Carlos Kay's house, which has a lot of jubilee memorabilia and it's basically the city center so you can meet totoro and see other things related to the jubilee movies.

And I was really bummed out.

But we'll come back again soon.

Mm hmm.

We had a small snack from the convenience store after walking back and I think the one thing I got out of this day is the fact that I got in a lot of exercise and really absorbed nature's energy, a much needed quest.

And after a long day we went to the mall because that's what you do after a long day.

So we're in the diva now because we just wanted to end the day doing something else.

I've shown this place so many times in my video.

So we're just going to see a little bit of some snippets of the radio.

Yes.

Look how cute he is.

What's the one thing you could do right now to change the way you're living for the better.

It could be the smallest step.

That's all it took for me.

Is it sitting at your desk, turning off the tv going for a short walk or maybe something simple like applying for that job you always wanted and ignoring all those lies in your head.

I love you.

Self doubt and self sabotage is just that monkey mind in our head and our mind can be our biggest liar.

Tell it to chill out.

Oh my God, it looks so real and my camera looks real.

These are pretty dang.

It's become fashion now is for winter.

This is great for winter.

The reality is you choose your reality.

We have 100% control over our actions, not our emotions and our actions are what truly matters in the end, comment below if this resonates with you.

Oh my God, that's so cool though.

It's an arm wrestling thing.

This game.

You actually, yeah, you have to like push, push, push, push, push, push, push, push and then this will like go either way.

It was time to head home for real after a long day and I didn't regret it for a second.

No day is ever wasted.

Way right.