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  • One of the odder features of self-hatred is that the affliction may escape our notice for the greater part of our lives.

  • We may simply not be aware that we don't like ourselves very mucheven as the sickness of self-hatred wreaks its havoc across a range of psychological situations and opportunities.

  • Though we are relentless scrutinisers of others, we seldom pause to give a unitary verdict on what we make of our own characters.

  • We may recognise our approval or distaste of ourselves in relation to specific actions; we will know when we arefor examplecross about being slow to complete a task or when we are pleased to have won a colleague's approval, but we are on the whole uninclined to step far back and consider ourselves in totality, as we might a stranger.

  • We are too involved with ourselves on an ongoing basis to assess the sharper outlines of our own characters.

  • There are few occasions when we are summoned to ask whether we essentially like the person we are.

  • As a result, our self-suspicion tends to linger in undiagnosed forms.

  • We miss the extent to which we can suffer from endemic self-loathingand how a once acceptable and perhaps invigorating form of self-questioning has turned into a lacerating sequence of attacks on everything we are and do.

  • We mayparadoxicallybe at once highly depressed about ourselvesand oblivious that we are so.

  • In order to know what we are up against, we should take a measure of our sense of self.

  • For this, there may be no better move than to resort to that clumsiest but simple and most helpful of psychological tools, the questionnaire.

  • We can ask to what extent we might agree with the following sentences on a scale of one to ten, ten meaning very much, zero indicating not at all.

  • If people knew who I really was, they would be horrified.

  • The inside of me is appalling.

  • Often, I can't bear who I am.

  • I'm disgusting. I'm shameful. I'm weak.

  • Others have a good cause to hate and harm me.

  • It's only a matter of time before terrible things happen to me, given who I am.

  • I'm sexually revolting.

  • I am physically repulsive.

  • I am unworthy of being forgiven.

  • I am a fitting target for ridicule.

  • I am bound to fail.

  • I don't deserve much sympathy.

  • People often see me in the street and feel contempt.

  • I have acted badly across my whole life.

  • There is something fundamentally wrong with me.

  • We don't need to do careful sums to arrive at an indicative picture at speed.

  • Some of us will be reaching for tens on pretty much every occasion; others - blessedly - will be puzzled by the whole exercise. This book is not for them.

  • If we find ourselves reaching for high numbers, we may be tempted to come to a powerful yet entirely mistaken conclusion: that we are terrible people.

  • The reality is at once less personally damning and far more redemptive: we aren't so terrible at all, we are just very ill.

  • The questionnaire is telling us about an affliction, not about our past or what we deserve or who we really are.

  • The very extremity of our answers should signal that something is afoot that far exceeds what any human is ever owed.

  • We aren't intolerably wicked; we are in the grip of a cruel sickness which systematically destroys any confidence or generosity we might feel towards ourselves.

  • We are treating ourselves with a violence and pitilessness we wouldn't think of bestowing upon our worst enemies.

  • We have, somehow, unbeknownst to us, ended up considering the person we have to accompany through life with an unparalleled degree of coldness and disdain.

  • It is time to come to terms with our sufferingand to refuse the delusion and meanness of self-hatred.

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One of the odder features of self-hatred is that the affliction may escape our notice for the greater part of our lives.

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A Self-hatred Questionnaire

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    Summer posted on 2021/09/28
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