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  • A terrible problem that afflicts many of us is that we are almost permanently anxious,

  • self-critical, self-hating and afflicted by a sense that we don't deserve to exist.

  • We are definitely not good enough. Ever.

  • Psychology points us to a part of the mind termed our conscience, a faculty that

  • keeps an eye on how well we are doing in relation to duty, to the demands of the world and to

  • the regulation of our desires and appetites. Our conscience monitors how much effort we

  • are putting into our work, our ratio of relaxed rest to anxious labour. It's our conscience

  • that tells us when we've probably done enough gaming, dating or eating.

  • However useful this function may sound, for many of us, our conscience has grown very

  • unbalanced. Rather than occasionally gently nudging us towards virtue, it is permanently

  • screaming, denigrating and attacking us for perceived failings: it tells us that nothing

  • we do is ever good enough, that we have no right to take a holiday let alone an afternoon

  • off, that we have no business relaxing or enjoying ourselves - and that the worst is

  • coming to us because of our sinful nature. Anxiety and self-contempt are our default

  • states.

  • It was Freud's simple but brilliant insight that our conscience is formed out

  • of the residue of the voices of our parents, in particular (usually) of our fathers. Freud

  • called the conscience the 'superego', and proposed that this faculty continues to

  • speak within our minds as our father figures once spoke to us.

  • For the lucky ones among us, we had reasonable father figures and therefore our consciences

  • are broadly benign. If we fail today, we can try again next time. If we're unpopular,

  • we can be valuable anyway. We deserve a rest. Sex is allowed. Treats are part of life. We

  • can do nothing for a while. We're OK as we are. But for others among us, our conscience rehearses the worst lines of punitive parental

  • archetypes. When things go wrong, we swiftly conclude that it might be better if we killed

  • ourselves.

  • One of the steps we can take towards greater mental health is to realise, properly realise,

  • that this drama is going on inside us. It sounds strange to say, given the significance,

  • but usually, we have no clue; the self-criticism has become too familiar to be noticeable,

  • it's just how things are and who we are. We can't draw a distinction between the

  • fierce inner critic and any other part of us.

  • A crucial first move is therefore to learn to put some distance between ourselves and

  • our conscience. We should see our conscience as a character. We should tell ourselves:

  • I have a punishing inner critic and it's very unfair to me, it's even trying to kill

  • me. It is speaking to me, within me, but it isn't all I am: it's someone I sucked

  • in from childhood and might learn to expel from my mind in time.

  • We can then start to question the critic. Is it really fair to say that our lives are

  • wholly worthless? We've messed up for sure, but do we really deserve no compassion and

  • no forgiveness? Is nothing about us in any way good? Would we ever think of treating

  • a friend (or even an enemy) the way we're treating ourselves?

  • We had no choice about who we had to listen to when we were little, but we do now

  • have agency. We can retrain our minds, by getting better spotting how they were indoctrinated

  • in the first place. We have picked up some extremely cruel and questionable habits. No

  • one needs to be hounded by a sense that they are excrement; this feeling has a past and

  • it doesn't have to be the future.

  • To retrain ourselves, we need other people: people who can love us and fill our minds

  • with other kinder perspectives. We need to dare to lean on them (not an easy move for

  • people who feel undeserving in the first place) and ask for their help in taming the nasty

  • sound-track inside. We should stop trying to be brave about the inner attacks we host.

  • We might explicitly say to others: 'you are here to help me with my inner critic,

  • and to give me new perspectives on my self-punishment and despair.' We should at times get incensed

  • that we have to live with such a critic, and question why our first impulse is so often

  • to forgive the critic and the parental figure who inspired it and blame ourselves for our

  • stupidity.

  • We need to feel sorry for ourselves and annoyed with those who didn't know how to

  • show us tenderness. Of course, we occasionally need to upbraid ourselves and try harder;

  • but the real achievement is to know how to remain gently and generously on our own side.

A terrible problem that afflicts many of us is that we are almost permanently anxious,

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How to Tame a Pitiless Inner Critic

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