But then I was also actually intrigued by the fact that you could have two patients who had the same illness saw the same doctor, got the same treatment and had completely different outcomes.

One could survive, one could die.

And in between, there was a wide range of outcomes.

And it did give me the insight that are normal.

Everyday experience of what we call reality is the hypnosis of social conditioning that actually reality shifts as your consciousness shifts right.

A correlation is not a causation.

As we know, If the rooster crows in the morning and the sun rises at the same time, we don't assume that the rooster cause the sun to rise.

Okay, But they're correlated.

So your mind, your brain and the physical world are correlated experiences in a deeper realm of existence which is not in space or time.

The purpose off all healers and ultimately of all physicians, should be to alleviate suffering.

Now, we've done a pretty good job with alleviating what we call suffering that occurs from acute illness.

You break your leg, get an orthopedic surgeon to fix it.

You get pneumonia, you taken antibiotic.

So we've done a good job on what we call the physical ist level for acute illness.

But then there's something called chronic illness.

Diabetes type two inflammation.

Cancer, heart disease, autoimmune illness, accelerated aging, propensity to infections.

And we haven't done a good job there because what we're realizing right now that only 5% of disease related gene mutations are fully penetrate, which means that guarantee the disease 95% of gene mutations that cause illness are related to lifestyle.

Sleep, managing stress on whether you meditate or not, you exercise or not.

Maybe you do yoga or not.

Breathing techniques.

The quality of your emotions.

Nutrition, personal relationships, social interactions, environment, connection with nature.

Influence your gene activity.

We call it epi Genetics.

Let's say you got rid of all chronic illness and acute illness.

Would humans still suffer?

And the answer is yes, because unlike other species, we have something which is actually quite bizarre.

It's called existentially suffering.

We wonder why we exist.

We wonder why we get old and can we prevent that?

We wonder why we get infirm and lose our memories as we get old.

Can we prevent that?

But we also are afraid of death.

Okay, Can we prevent that?

Answer is biological death is based on a false premise, which is You are your biology and you are your body and your mind.

You're not your body.

You're not your mind.

You're not the experience of the world.

You're the consciousness in which all this experience of girls to observe a thought is to know that you're not a thought to observe an emotion is to know that you're not the emotion to observe the body is to know that you're not this bundle of sensations and perceptions.

So who are you?

What is it that knows a thought?

What is it that knows the perception?

The color red?

Is there a color red anywhere in the physical universe?

Or is it just an experience?

I guarantee.

You know, scientists can tell you that the color red exists as a physical entity in the universe.

It's an experience in human consciousness, not in the consciousness of a bat who doesn't see colors but experiences the echo of ultrasound.

So what is the color red to a bad when you realize that everything you thought was really is not really when you also realize that who you think you are is not really.

But when you realize that all your name, your form and everything you see is provisional.

Two things happen to some people.

They have immediate what we could only metaphorically called the dark night of the soul.

They go into a deep depression because everything they thought was really is no longer really including their own name, form, body and mind.

Some people cross that threshold and discover nirvana or enlightenment, and they said, Wow, I thought I was I was squeezed into the volume of a body in the span of a lifetime.

But I'm a timeless being that can morph myself into any experience, including the human experience, which is amazing.

But the human experience is also that which causes existentially depression.

So the causes of human suffering since you brought it up are brought up in Eastern wisdom traditions.

As number one you suffer because you don't know who you are.

You confuse yourself with your body mind experience.

Number two, you grasp and cling at experiences which are evanescent and transitory and dream like you say what happened to your childhood?

It's over.

What happened to yesterday?

It's over.

What happened to five minutes ago?

It's over.

What happens to these words?

By the time you hear them, they don't exist.

So you know, Wittgenstein, the German philosopher, said, We are asleep.

Our life is a dream.

But once in a while we wake up enough to know that we're dreaming.

So what do you wake up to when you cross this threshold?

You wake up to your true self, which is not body your mind, but the awareness in which that experience is happening.

So grasping and clinging at a dream is the second cause off human suffering.

The third is being afraid off anything that's unpleasant pain, abandonment being treated by someone, not respectfully.

So that's, you know there's a version to certain experiences.

Third, cause of suffering.

Fourth is identifying, which is related to with your ego identity.

And fifth is the fear of death.

Now they're all connected.

They're all the same fear, and they are not doing who you are.

This is the biggest question that humans or everybody should be asking.

Who am I?

What am I?

Um, I the changing experience of this body, which is a perceptual activity.

Um, I the experience of the changing mind or the changing personality because you don't have the same personality when you were a kid or maybe even 10 years ago or what is it at the basis of this, when you start that reflective self inquiry, ask yourself, Who am I?

What do I want?

What is my purpose?

What am I grateful for?

Go into the stillness of meditation.

You have what wisdom traditions have called.

Revelation revealed truth.

Now, you know, that sounds very grand.

I would say Just call it insight, you know, meditation, mindfulness awareness of body awareness of mind awareness, off mental space, awareness of the web of relationship awareness with that which we call the universe.

It leads you ultimately to the awareness off awareness.

And when you discover that that's a Tirana, is there anything behind consciousness?

No.

Now, everyday experience is modified.

Consciousness is right.

Now, what we're experiencing is what we call the waking state of consciousness.

Okay.

What do you mean by that?

The awareness that I'm aware.

No.

The awareness that is experiencing a physical body in the physical world with eyes open is called breaking state of consciousness.

Okay, okay.

So awareness is modifying itself every time you open your eyes into this experience, right?

And you call it the physical world.

Now, if you close your eyes, you have another state of consciousness where you don't actually experience the physical world.

You experience sensations, images, thoughts, emotions, stories.

It's like a dream.

As soon as you close your eyes you're experiencing, you might call it daydreaming.

But there's no difference between dreaming what you dream at night.

The physical world has disappeared.

There's only a mental world.

Then you go deeper at night.

Even the mental world disappears in what we call deep sleep.

Now that is the highest intelligence, by the way, because in deep sleep there's unconscious processing going on.

There's creativity going on there, correlations being made, their toxins being removed.

There's a whole resetting off your memories and consolidation of that.

So in deep sleep, even though there is no experience of a physical or mental world, it's a very intelligent, highly highly correlated state in which unconscious processing is occurring.

Get rid of the idea that the world is physical.

What we call of the world as physical.

Even your physical body is a perceptual activity on that perceptual activity.

For you and me is a human perceptual activity through human consciousness, not through bad consciousness, not through mosquito consciousness, not through plant consciousness.

Go beyond that.

There is only one consciousness that is differentiating undifferentiated consciousness, differentiating into these different species of consciousness that form of matrix off conscious beings that are collectively projecting this universe.

If I ask you what is this you say it's a cup, right?

Well, if you were a baby, you wouldn't know this.

The cup.

This is a shape.

This is a color.

This is a form.

This is sensation.

This is days on its noise.

The rest is a story.

It's a human story we created, just like we created money on Wall Street on nation states or colonial empires.

We take that for reality.

So when when you have time to be still question your habitual certainties, you'll realize that actually we know nothing.

Nothing.

Everything we know is made up.

It's a human construct.

And once we are embedded in that human concept, we call it reality.

We don't question what is the source of this experience.

So taking retreats, practicing mindful awareness of body of mind, off mental space, off the web of relationship, the mystery of existence, it takes you slowly, deeper to your true self.

As Rumi said, God's languages silence.

Everything else is poor.

Translation, Yeah.