Placeholder Image

Subtitles section Play video

  • - I accidentally became a meme

  • And this is that story.

  • My name is Laina Morris,

  • but you may know me as overly attached girlfriend.

  • This all started in 2012.

  • I was 20 years old in school to become a teacher.

  • I had actually just taken a break

  • and I was working part-time at a place

  • called Pack and Mail.

  • Just living with my college roommates,

  • going to work, life is pretty normal.

  • In the back of my mind,

  • like if I could have done anything,

  • I would have moved to L.A. and done acting

  • or writing or something like that.

  • But I wasn't confident enough

  • in that happening for me to really take that leap.

  • So I was in my apartment

  • looking online at just like,

  • you know, the daily Justin Bieber news as you do.

  • And I came across a contest that Justin Bieber was having.

  • He had a hit song at the time called "Boyfriend"

  • and he was releasing a new fragrance called Girlfriend.

  • So he asked fans to make a parody song

  • from the girlfriend's perspective.

  • So I got really excited

  • and started writing lyrics right away.

  • I wasn't Justin Bieber fan.

  • I mean keep in mind, I was 20 years old

  • and Justin Bieber was like a teenager.

  • I wasn't really like obsessed with him.

  • I think it was kind of fun,

  • like silly music that I enjoyed,

  • but it wasn't like a real obsession

  • like of people may think it was.

  • When it came up to the lyrics of the song,

  • I knew that I wanted it to be funny.

  • His original lyrics, I think are, I'll never let you go.

  • And so I just kind of took that and made it to the extreme

  • and that kind of took off from there.

  • ♪ If I was your girlfriend, I'd drive you up the wall ♪

  • ♪ Question who you're with ♪

  • ♪ Yeah, I'd always call and call ♪

  • I wasn't actually speaking from experience.

  • The creepy face was definitely like a last minute decision.

  • So I was on like my fourth take of this song

  • and I realized that there's this really long

  • instrumental period of time at the beginning of the song

  • where I was just sitting there and not doing anything.

  • So I just sort of decided to stare straight into my webcam

  • and make the creepiest face I could make.

  • I had no idea how profoundly this would affect my life.

  • I posted the video to YouTube for the contest

  • the night of June 6th

  • and then I think like right after that,

  • I shared it to my Facebook page.

  • It was before I went to bed that night

  • that I knew people that I didn't know in real life

  • were watching it.

  • I remember my roommates and I were staying up

  • watching the numbers come in

  • and there was like 52 comments at one point.

  • And I knew that I didn't know 52 people

  • that would take the time to watch

  • and especially comment on the video.

  • And then I went to bed and then I woke up

  • and it was a lot bigger than it was the night before.

  • My first memory of that day

  • is walking out into my living room

  • and my roommate turning their computers toward me

  • and saying, "You're a meme."

  • And that's when I realized my face was everywhere.

  • All day, I was just getting like texts from my friends

  • and seeing comments online and I couldn't get online

  • without seeing my own creepy face

  • staring back at me.

  • Well, like my friends and I had thought

  • it was mostly just funny.

  • Like I feel like I'm really lucky that I was in on the joke.

  • I know that's not the case for a lot of other people

  • that kind of wake up and realize their face

  • is all over the internet and they've become a meme,

  • but there was no negativity at first.

  • It was just like all really, really cool, positive,

  • like what's happening?

  • This is crazy.

  • At the time, "Call Me Maybe" by Carly Rae Jepsen

  • was really popular.

  • And so people were asking

  • for that very specific parody for me to do.

  • And I wasn't sure like if I should keep it going

  • or just like, let it be what it was.

  • I didn't want to milk it for too long.

  • I decided to go ahead and do it

  • and the second video blew up

  • and then the number one and number two top spots on YouTube

  • were both my videos.

  • That is kind of when I realized like,

  • okay, maybe I should kind of ride this wave

  • and go along with this, make it into something.

  • I was on YouTube.

  • Then I did a bunch of different like sketches,

  • interview type things and blogs.

  • I got to be on the red carpet at the American Music Awards.

  • I also got to go to Singapore

  • where I had a staring contest

  • on stage with Jessica Alba,

  • which is like simultaneously one of the coolest

  • and weirdest things that's ever happened to me.

  • I lost during the rehearsal, but I won the real thing.

  • And Jeremy Piven was playing a drum,

  • an important side note there.

  • I got asked by Delta to be in an airline safety video.

  • I was on set with all of these like meme

  • and internet people.

  • I think all of us were kind of thinking like, why?

  • Like why us, why this concept?

  • And after the video was posted,

  • I think for the entire internet

  • kind of wonder the exact same thing,

  • but it didn't take away from the fact that it was so fun.

  • But it was a cool experience to meet other people

  • that had kind of gone through similar things.

  • Anyone who's like become a viral meme,

  • we all have a very similar story

  • while also being like vastly, vastly different.

  • All of these like really cool opportunities were happening

  • and I was on YouTube and things were going really well,

  • but it did get to the point

  • after maybe about a year of doing this,

  • where I started to feel just like a ton of pressure

  • to figure out what the end goal was.

  • Did I want to pursue acting or stand up?

  • Did I want to write, did I need to move to Los Angeles?

  • I felt like really overwhelmed and stressed

  • if I didn't have a video idea,

  • then I would just be like beating myself up about it

  • every day, all day

  • and it was still really fun,

  • which I think is part

  • of why it was so difficult and confusing.

  • I know now looking back that I sort of landed myself

  • in this depression around like 2014,

  • especially is when it got really bad,

  • but I didn't know it at the time.

  • You know, like I kind of thought,

  • well, I have all these great opportunities

  • and I have this great life and I'm making money

  • and like, I am not depressed.

  • It's just, I'm stuck or I'm lazy or I'm not,

  • I can't find the motivation.

  • I was in therapy for about nine months

  • before I made the decision to try medication.

  • I had a tough time with it.

  • I remember when I first picked up my prescription,

  • I cried in the parking lot of the pharmacy

  • 'cause I just didn't want to need it.

  • I didn't want to have to like rely on this pill

  • going into my body to feel better.

  • But at the end of the day,

  • like I knew that anything was better

  • than how I was feeling then.

  • And it worked for me.

  • And so it's important for me

  • to kind of get that message out there

  • that it does work for some and it doesn't work for others

  • and I think if that's something

  • that you need to do for yourself,

  • that it's really, really important that you remember

  • that all you're doing is taking care of you.

  • I kind of knew that if I ever walked away,

  • if I ever officially decided like,

  • okay, I'm done with YouTube.

  • I didn't want to leave without a goodbye video.