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  • Hi, lovely people! And oh my goodness, yes,

  • I've actually made a requested video.

  • You'll have to excuse me if I seem a bit nervy today.

  • I was just reading some more back issues of the Dark Phoenix saga

  • and now I'm really emotional

  • because apparently the X-Men are my life sometimes.

  • You may also have to excuse me if I keep checking my phone, which is on my lap,

  • which I will keep doing a lot

  • because I am waiting!

  • I am waiting for a very important text

  • because I could become an auntie at any moment.

  • No, OK, well - I'll get the text saying she's gone into labour

  • but that's something. Yes. If you didn't know, Claudia's sister

  • is pregnant.

  • We're going to be aunties.

  • Now we've got all of the excuses out of the way, let's get onto the actual meat of this video

  • and that's giving you an update on my diet

  • situation

  • and telling you about the supplements that I am currently taking.

  • Let's begin with a little history lesson

  • in the food that Jessica put in her mouth

  • and whether or not that was a good idea.

  • My parents very much had a policy when I was a child

  • (to be fair, they still have that policy now)

  • that you just eat everything - whatever's put on your plate, you eat it.

  • There's always one thing on your plate that she knows you don't like

  • to make you eat it and make you try it so that you're trying new things.

  • It's a great idea; I'd probably do it with my own children

  • but it wasn't a great idea for me.

  • See, I'm quite happy to eat anything;

  • there aren't many foods that I choose not to eat.

  • Even - like, I hate olives.

  • I hate olives; they are so disgusting.

  • And yet

  • if there are olives

  • at a party

  • handed around or something, I will eat them

  • because I feel like I need to train myself to like them.

  • Even when I was a tiny baby

  • and all I had to eat

  • (eat?)

  • (Drink, I suppose)

  • was my mother's milk,

  • still there was something very wrong with my insides

  • Which I now know is because I have a connective tissue problem

  • and ergo

  • my whole organs...they just don't work so well.

  • They just don't work so well.

  • But as a child, no one knew that.

  • So I would be eating dinner every night, and about twenty minutes after we'd finished,

  • every night I would get horrific

  • stomach pains; really bad cramping.

  • I'd be on the floor like [moans in agony].

  • Doing my homework.

  • "And then the Romans did this - owww."

  • Then, when I was seventeen - as everyone knows;

  • everyone who watches this channel knows, but, hey, you might be new; you might not know -

  • when I was seventeen, I paralysed both of my arms for a year and a half,

  • and the doctors thought that I might have some kind of a brain tumour,

  • so they did various tests on me, one of which went wrong,

  • and all of my spinal fluid leaked out

  • and I was incredibly, incredibly ill.

  • Very, very unwell.

  • And I couldn't eat anything because I was just vomiting - basically, my body just rejected everything.

  • I also got pumped with a lot of drugs.

  • I don't even know what drugs were given to me, largely because I was a child

  • and nobody...

  • Nobody tells you anything.

  • Yeah, seventeen.

  • You're still on the children's ward - believe me, I looked really strange.

  • I was about five times the size of everyone else there.

  • I'm 5'9" and a half.

  • The nurses were probably about 5'2", 5'3".

  • They'd need at least three of them to get me anywhere.

  • But basically, all of the drugs that went through my body

  • stripped me of all the good bacteria that lives in your stomach and in your guts.

  • So my ability to eat got worse and worse and worse,

  • even as I was getting better from this.

  • I - every night -

  • would be vomiting, just...

  • An hour, even. I couldn't--I just couldn't stop it.

  • My body would reject everything.

  • Because I wasn't digesting anything, either; it just sort of sat in my stomach all day long.

  • I'm definitely going to put some kind of warning about vomiting

  • at the start of this video.

  • Warning! now, if you missed that as well.

  • And the sickness seemed, instead of getting a bit better, it just seemed to get worse

  • and worse and worse, and it got down to the point where I was being sick after drinking water

  • and I was getting weaker - and something I now notice is that when I'm tired or weak,

  • obviously my ability to eat gets worse, and the less you eat, the weaker you get;

  • the weaker I am, the sicker I get.

  • So you just tend to spiral, and I still have to watch that; be very careful about that.

  • And at the time, I...I was obviously still a minor

  • and some stuff happened in hospital.

  • Mainly that there were certain doctors who thought that I had an eating disorder.

  • Purely because I was a teenage girl.

  • Like, thanks, guys. Thanks.

  • Not gonna research what's wrong with my stomach? No?

  • Just gonna...

  • just gonna put me on the psych ward.

  • I will say at the time that I definitely

  • I definitely panicked

  • quite a lot

  • when it came to food

  • because so many things were making me ill

  • I kind of developed like "safe foods"

  • that I knew wouldn't make me so sick.

  • Third vomit warning.

  • Third vomit warning.

  • The safe foods were actually

  • probably less about what didn't make me sick

  • and more about what wasn't awful when you saw it for a second time.

  • So, things like rice pudding,

  • and ice cream.

  • But don't--you know, there are certain things you don't want to eat. I mean, a curry, for instance.

  • That's not fun.

  • And anything involving wasabi.

  • It comes back straight through your nose.

  • So, yeah, having

  • having the safe foods probably didn't

  • help much.

  • So I had the dietitians at the hospital who were putting me on all of these different diets,

  • which were so much worse, and

  • my stomach felt like it was getting more out of control.

  • Some of which helped a bit.

  • And at the same time, I was trying to find ways to protect my stomach

  • essentially.

  • And I was still being pumped with loads and loads of drugs, and I also had this other group of doctors,

  • who were...talking over me

  • and telling my parents that it was essentially my fault

  • that this was happening to me.

  • Anyway. It's a kind of period in my life that is awful and hard, and I guess I don't talk about it

  • that much, because if I think about it too much,

  • I cry like you wouldn't believe.

  • If I one day write a book about my life,

  • um...it will probably feature, and I will tell you everything

  • in that, but maybe it's not something I can discuss.

  • Listen to your kids. There you go.

  • Moral for the day.

  • Eventually, though: adult

  • I got to do some adulting

  • and tell those particular doctors to shove off

  • out of my life.

  • No, no, no.

  • I was like, "No, I'm gonna take control."

  • "I'm gonna find the thing that helps my stomach and save myself."

  • I think it was my hospital's dietitian, who suggested to me the ketogenic diet

  • which is where you

  • have absolutely no carbs or

  • any kind of starches.

  • All you have are fats and proteins, and in fact it's mainly fats.

  • Mainly fats and a little bit of protein. It's something that body builders do quite a lot.

  • And it really works for children who have epilepsy,

  • and it's been shown to help people who have neurological problems.

  • Neurological and neuropathic problems - so, issues with their nerves.

  • Well, hey. That's this girl.

  • So I started that, and it did almost feel kind of magical.

  • The change.

  • The way that it happened. Suddenly I had lots of energy - well,

  • energy compared to what I'd had before;

  • I wasn't being sick all the time.

  • Didn't feel so weak.

  • I felt like I was finally beginning to get my body back on track; I was putting on a bit of muscle,

  • which was really nice.

  • I say "body back on track;" that's because my body

  • looked like this.

  • That's my brother

  • by the way.

  • So, there you go, ketogenic diet. But the problems with the ketogenic diet are that you have to eat

  • constantly.

  • [Quietly] Constantly.

  • So I'd be eating like eight times a day

  • and...it's really expensive, because all you're eating are fats and proteins.