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You made it.

I made it.

Okay, I'm literally the only thing that's keeping it from drinking beer.

So bear with me.

Ah, In fact, I'm here with some friends from work there.

Were there okay.

And we seize the opportunity.

Since we're here in Buda Passion, It's a pretty cool place.

We kind of Ah, through our friend a small bachelor party on Jews Say that was pretty fun.

Ah, we drink some pot.

Linker said the name.

Okay, that shit is dangerous.

Uh uh, Yeah.

I mean, we basically just ended up with this bar.

And next thing I know, I'm, like, upstairs in the bar and some creepy dude starts like chatting me up.

And then he just fucking asked me for my email.

It was like, what?

The absolutely easa sexy server at hotmail dot com s o.

Obviously, I gave him a fake email.

I thought about giving him, like, some Yahoo email, but I thought that that wasn't gonna be believable enough.

Um, our friend is already married.

By the way.

This is what happens when you delay projects in your real life.

Um, yeah, So I'm gonna talk about failures, which is something that I think it's really interesting for us to start making peace with and and just creating a more natural relationship with.

Since in our industry, we really like to have these heroes and cultivate these success stories or how we shift this amazing project.

And how did we get our team to be the best team in the world?

But you only got there basically by screwing up a lot, and this is what I'm going to talk about.

So what is your horse Fear?

I mean, the one that really keeps you up at night.

Well, when I was, uh, this Caesar, which was a lot of time ago, I used to, ah, work in the university that you used to do computer science in Brazil, and it was basically like the integrated system of all the university.

And that meant, like the same system to track, like students being enrolled in subjects, or like the professors and which classes they were giving and even employees, because there was a lot of like research projects and people needed to, like control money flow.

So it was a pretty big system we kidded for, Ah, more than 67,000 students.

Ah, and ah, around 50,000 employees.

I was pretty huge.

And basically it was pretty cool because, like while we were students, we we just had the opportunity of touching basically everything in that stack, and that is like, front and back and database develops.

So it was really school.

And there was this one day that I was taking a look at all the tables like the our database wasn't pretty fast.

So I just, um, remember that we had a table for employees and, ah, usually we we added the employees before they actually started that their job just to keep the records there and make sure that everything was okay for for when they started.

And we usually registered those employees with the salary equals zero.

And then we would update.

And but the thing is that some of these employees never actually made it in for some reason.

Um, so what I was going to do is just to perform this very simple query, um, to remove all these like employees there were in sexual real employees.

But as I was doing that, I typed the first line, and someone called me and asked something else.

It was like a Yeah, that's how you do it.

No, no, no.

I'll take you there.

Go boom.

Then Then I came back and hit.

Enter.

That was not cool.

Ah, because well, you know what happens if you do this and you don't special fire.

Where is that?

You drop the table.

And of course, I wasn't doing anything that allowed for ah, rollbacks or anything.

So that was all lost.

Eso around 15,000 records for all the employees in the universities were completely gone, Um, and that included names, bank account information.

And that one was specifically important because the way that the university would pay them is that we would do a query in the database every month and get their banking information transfer money.

And I must add that this day where this happened, where one day before payday.

Yeah, it's a great story.

Um, so that was all Go on.

No, it's all gone.

And honestly, that was a moment that first of all, I refused to believe that that was actually happened, so I tried to look for the table over and over and over again, and I couldn't find it.

Obviously it was gone.

Ah, And at that time I just looked, stared at the void close on my computer, and honestly, a tear fell down my my face and basically looked like this.

Ah, puppet monkey.

Um, so that was, uh, that stuff, you know, stuff.

But that wasn't there.

Ah, that wasn't the end of me.

That wasn't the end of my career.

It certainly felt so at the time.

And But that made me into I am today.

That made me into the developer and the professional that I am today.

And I'm really thankful that that happened.

It taught me so much after that, we obviously did a lot more things to make sure that this would never happen again.

We did backups.

We did.

Um well, we couldn't like Joffe anything because we did the sort of chance Ah, transition through that made you, like, allowed you to roll back operations.

So that also made our product way better.

Um, of course, learning by paying, but but still, it was pretty good.

And if you take a look at these free gentlemen, they do share one thing in common, which is the fact that they all have failed horribly in their lives.

And probably that also made it into who they are.

So that's pretty cool.

I'm gonna talk about their stories, uh, in the following his line.

So bear with me.

I am easa.

You can call me.

It's Isabella, But please call me Za Ah I'ma Mozilla Tech speaker.

And as, um, Paul said, I work it.

I settle in Stockholm original from Brazil and I love karaoke.

And one really cool fact that I find out it by myself last week is that I'm the lost twin of the impulsive brew.

Ah, mean, guy, that was pretty cool.

Ah, it was actually pretty fun because that picture was thumbnail of, ah, critical video of an interview that I did with my yuko a while ago.

And it was really interesting because as we took this picture, I didn't actually see it.

I just asked like, Hey, how's that picture?

She's great.

The picture came out great.

It was like awesome.

So yeah, this is what happens when you ask your friend if the picture is great, your friend is great.

You're not, uh, but that's it.

This picture is gonna be immortalized in the Internet for no one.

But you should totally watch the interview.

It's also okay.

So why do we fear failing?

Why?

Why is it so hard and so crippling?

Scare Lee Insanely the threatening to fail.

Um, I I give it some thought a while ago.

Like why?

Why is it so daunting?

And my conclusion is that basically, we're just afraid of shame.

We don't want people to discover that in fact, we're not as good as we Ah, strike us to be.

And that is not really nice, right?

Because, um, shame is a toxic emotion.

It's it's not like you're you're, like, afraid or you're concerned about what you did, which would be guilt, or you're not concerned about your intentions, which would be like, uh, no regrets.

Uh, shame is fundamentally feeling bad about who you are.

This is not cool.

Ah, and being afraid of shame gets you to do it.

But very set of very concerning and horrible behaviors such as self sabotage.

Who here has, uh, never procrastinated to do something that you're really not sure if you can do it or or perhaps like took insanely long to two.

Make a task that would be simple.

Otherwise, if you just take a stab at it are or even just refusing to try something because you think you're gonna fail Ah, news for you.

This is self sabotage.

Like I've done this time and time again.

I still do, Um, And it is really hard because it basically keeps you from really being good at something.

You're learning something or not being afraid to try new things.

And also another, another way that this manifests itself is a thing that we I think we're all very familiar.

Called before so syndrome.

Um, I think everybody here has felt at least once in their lives that holy shit.

Look at all these people in conferences.

There is so much better than I am.

Look at all these things that I don't know that I have to learn.

And this seems like a really scary It seems like you deserve you don't deserve to be where you are.

And that's another manifestation of what shame and those emotions feel like.

Um, but it is.

It is very, very concerning, because if you if you do feel this way, if you do feel like you don't belong there or that you can never learn, there would be a good as other people.

Then you're never gonna learn anything in the first place.

Because if you're if you're too afraid of actually trying something and failing, well, you're not gonna learn because the main way that we learn things is by doing eyes white practice.

Actually, there's, ah, pretty cool paper about the psychology of learning that says that Well, basically 80% of learning is just doing by practice.

Uh, 20% is like the actual lectures, But fundamentally, you just learned something by by trying it, and you're probably gonna fail.

I'm sorry if you don't know something and something is, like, completely new to you, then odds are you're gonna be great at fruits or you're gonna fail it something.

So that's ah, that's really shape that we don't have these kind of things.

Well, you're also not gonna involve.

You know, you're not gonna grow, because if you're stagnating at a place and you're kind of like afraid to take the actual step, because fuck, what if I'm not good What if I can never get there?

What if I try and I fail in front of everyone?

And what are people gonna say?

Well, then you're not gonna grow.

I'm sorry.

Um, it's just not gonna happen.

Most importantly, and I think it's a very contradictory thing, since it's such a buzz word.

And companies and tech conferences nowadays, you have no innovation, which is something that, well, we know that every company nowadays has its the Innovation team and global Blau Wie du machine learning shit.

Um, well, the way they learn machine learning is by trying and failing.

And honestly, I can say by experience, because I try I do missing under myself because I think it's super cool and interesting.

And it is a really, really frustrating thing to to learn, because there's so many things that you don't get straight taught out of the box because it is a very like academic and theory heavy thing.

So it is very texting.

And if you're you're afraid of make maybe not making it or not understanding machine learning, Well, you're not gonna know machine learning.

Um, so these air pretty important three things that we will be missing out if we are just too afraid to fail and which was a failure.

It was one of the things that will happen to Bill Gates.

Not sure if you guys know, but before Microsoft, he had another company called the Truffle Data.

If I'm not mistaken, ah, the whole just of the companies that they would like collect traffic data from local authorities to try and predict how the traffic was gonna be.

That was, like, especially important for trucks and frights, things and shipments.

And that that was critical idea.

But it turns out it didn't really work.

Um, there's actually this thing at, ah, Computer Museum of Something.

Ah, and I found the text in this little plaque here.

Pretty interesting.

Is this Poland Bill Gates partner said that Well, basically, truffle data wasn't a huge success, but it was essential.

Ah, for them to actually be able to have Microsoft in for Microsoft to be as successful as it is, it wouldn't have happened if they hadn't failed First, that's something else and tried something again.

They really learned from it.

So that's that's how Microsoft was built.

So there's a few perks in one failing failing horribly at life.

Um, the 1st 1 is that it improves confidence.

After you try something, you fail and you realize that Well, you know what?

I fucking survived.

That's awesome.

I can try this again, or I can try different things.

So it really makes a few more confident at your own ability to solve problems.

Your own ability to recover crisis.

Ah, your own ability to manage, um, and unpredictable things.

So it is really good to just get yourself out there and try things for the first time because it gets you more used to this way of thinking because honestly, ultimately, it is a way of thinking.

Second thing is that it just gives you tons of new things that you learned about like, Well, when you tried something for the first time, that didn't happen.

So yeah, I learned that next time I'm gonna do it differently.

So most of these things that we learn about programming your about tech and about talking and dealing to people usually just get it.

You understand that by trying something and realizing what's the outcome, and most times the outcome is not gonna be great.