have to just like do something else beside thinking about breastfeeding and

my super painful breasts don't have cabbage in them right now and then back

to the milk factory I'm gonna be answering all the burning questions post

if you have any new ones it's 9:00 a.m. guys my weekly vlogs are gonna start

looking really different today number three at home all max is doing is

sleeping pooping and eating all I'm doing is breast feeding pumping sleeping

I would call it sleeping but I try this is a 24-hour job a newborn is we got a

night nurse which is probably the smartest decision I've ever made with my

pregnancies I don't know I never did it with Jake and Ben who would have

literally changed my life she comes to me with the baby when it's time to eat

all that calls me I'd breastfeed him and then she'll burp him change him swaddle

him put him to sleep those tasks that take a lot of time I can use that time

to actually go and rest a little bit or what I usually do is I'll go pump

right after to make sure that I'm draining my breasts because I got a

really really really bad infection from breastfeeding with Jake and Ben that's

something that I'm very scared of so I'm trying to be attentive to my body okay

it's time to feed the baby I know drunk you ready for your second dose the life

of the prince I tell you okay full time our first outing to a doctor's

appointment

this is my days are like now my boobs on fire he was a little fussy I could keep

feeding him this is only day three four but I'm kind of persisting with breast

feeding which is something I haven't done with the other two was very very

difficult for me I went to formula pretty much right after giving birth

with Jake I still pump dating for like two weeks but would been like after four

days it was done I got really really bad infection I really want to keep trying

and be persistent with it and just have a different experience because I didn't

have the breastfeeding experience that a lot of other mothers do I'm feel very

grateful and happy that I have the opportunity the third time to try and

see how it is I feel like this time around it's a little bit different I

have the proper mindset I feel like with Jake I was super anxious at all times

with Ben I was still like very I wasn't calm now I'm just have a different state

of mind and I take it you know one day at a time

one hour at a time I'm kind of going with the changes I'm just trying to let

go of like this schedule and just enjoyed this time because it goes by

really really fast he's napping now I think I have like maybe 40 minutes to an

hour so I'm gonna go down for a nap as well and then back to the milk factory

this is this bomb is blocking it

today I'm making very big move and we're leaving the house because I'm going

crazy I'm gonna go to the office I'm gonna take max with me I have to just

like do something else beside thinking about breastfeeding and my super painful

breasts that have cabbage in them right now coming for you the outside world

laughs is in the case I have to get the conference call

literally dialing where are we park there's no there stairs but there's

nothing I can't bring the stroller so it's raining oh my god

anyways I'm like can someone help me it's how it happened with the stroller

then he's crying now Gary's gonna have a heart attack well I can't wait forever

so I can oh hi I'm Maximus already Oz it's really hustling we're not huh look

at him go Papa's on the call when the baby patrol looks good and look you kind

of match oh sorry jion just got work to do Jen where's your desk

I don't want anyone this is our hangout

by gian they'll be probably so excited to see me

I haven't picked them up from school and forever this is the look of a mom who

woke up 15,000 times last night not because of the newborn because of all of

them I have two videos to shoot today I am a little late with scheduling I was

planning to take two weeks off of work but there's like so much to do and I'm

excited to go back to work like my brain needs it that's the thing it's like I

don't have to but my brain needs it so much I'm hoping that Maxie will

cooperate with me today there's a lights everywhere I think I'm getting sick

because Jake's been sneezing on me good

I found a solution how I can work and still be with Maxie I got this rap wet

Jake and it's basically mimics the way they

were in the womb so he's all closed it up I'm wearing the softest water ever so

he's really enjoying his life right now now I can get back to work I have to do

some research for a video that I want to do I can't shoot the video like this but

hopefully figure something out

Max is down for a nap I was supposed to shoot two videos today but there is no

way I can stay awake one of them was like a beauty video this is not gonna

work I'm gonna shoot one self not self love but self help video hopefully I'll

get to finish it before Maxie gonna wake up left my follow up the mastitis now

we're trying to figure out how to get my map back

yeah I'm gonna go back and try to do more skin to skin and get this baby to

produce not from Mary honestly guys I wish I had more to show you but this was

my day all day today also major fail with milk nothing's coming out I'm like

debating right now if I want to try and get my milk back or if I should just do

the formula and stop torturing myself I'm torn to be honest I want to bond

with him with breastfeeding but I know it's gonna it's gonna be the kids are on

their way back from hip hop I'm gonna bathe maximus tonight with the boys

they'll help us right with Papa and the boys and I'm waiting for Gary to come

back home we'll have dinner and hopefully I'll be done I'll be sleeping

by 9:00 today is probably gonna be the most like active day for this vlog cuz

this whole week I was sitting at home and just staring at the wall and feeling

max first I need to shoot a video that I just couldn't get myself to shoot

yesterday then we have a meeting regarding our new

house and then we're shooting meet the team video which I did a post on

Instagram and ask you if you guys want to hear all about it and you guys are

very interested there was some really really good question oh look at this

bird nest I know that a lot of influencers kind of keep it on the low

this whole business of social media and I would always wonder like how does it

work where does it start who helps them so I wanted to just show that

information to you I kind of don't see a point to keep it all secretive you know

I hope we all succeed we all have room PS I this is my first pair of pants can

I tell you it was an easy fit no I had to go down in my bed

and catch my breath but young master Jake it today got out of going to school

because you said you're not feeling well yeah so you wanna rest

well deserve a day off right my love okay help nori today and I love you

thank you too baby chicken yeah okay make sure they fall off their chairs I

love you bye baby run away to the office just little munchkin who broke out wood

baby acne I'm sorry so Gary yeah you know what I

found yesterday what I found a blog that I used to write my poems in really yeah

it was from 2009 I'm gonna read it to you wait and you're gonna tell me how

you feel about it it was in a very emotional time in my life how are you

yeah guys I'm wearing pins I don't know an invisible area was for you mmm we're

going to do our first outfit of the day

jess is the best thanks honey

good place for the child

Wow the world is a scary place with the new board

back to work back to the daily grind with this little dude yeah and you

forget these stages so bad you're so cute

it's weird to see you with a new baby too

because like I'm so you see with you like with my bed and yeah running around

all the burning questions post if you have any new ones so I posted a post on

Instagram and I asked you I mean if you have any questions about living in

because I feel like throughout our videos people are like who are all these

always common people and why do you need so many employees

and what do you actually do we have nothing to hide

we want to share it with you why don't you start by chatting about why valera

and we started it I started doing YouTube in 2016 and I started in my

kitchen just doing recipes and smoothies and taught myself how to edit that was

an interesting ride and back then I was supposed to maybe like once a week I

really didn't think long term with that I remember my first sponsorship came in

from like this probiotic brand and they offered me with $50.00 and yes I didn't

understand how it all works because again even like me searching for other

youtubers talking about the business you can't find any information especially

the business side of it it's just how I think exactly is this secret thing so I

did a sponsorship about than $50 I ran to Gary I was like look at my

PayPal account about $50 for that he's like OkCupid so when the sponsorships

kept coming I was doing everything by myself and I came to Gary and I was like

hey look I made X amount of money this month and Gary's like oh okay but people

are emailing you there and interest there's something happening

here if you look at all these videos they say you have to be consistent you

have to put content your to good content and I was like getting so frustrated

because I was taking care of the kids and I was also shooting one hour I was

editing eight hours because I'm super slow and editing is like so annoying

having someone like Garry to be like okay you have to focus on your strengths

and your strengths are delivering content and telling a story and you're

the storyteller that's how you get to the next level so that's when we decided

to get Emma we actually started having a conversation about hiring people when I

already had revenue that I could reinvest back in the business I was very

lucky that the money that I was making that wasn't the money that needed to

support me in my personal life I had the luxury of taking the money that I was

making from the business and putting it back and that's when we actually started

valera and Gary's like let's start let's incorporate and we'll make it a business

I decided okay you know what Valera Inc will be a media company a media company

that's basically I'm the media some of me it may be me I am aware as a model I

had agents I had agencies throughout the world and they were taking care of all

the business side you're sitting and waiting for your agencies to pitch you

to brands to do things and I didn't want to be in that situation again and that's

kind of what I liked about started getting into YouTube and Instagram

because all of a sudden I was kind of you know in charge of my own faith when

I started to grow all these MCS and other agencies for influencers started

which you have to me and saying hey let's we want to represent you I knew

that I didn't want to be in the same place so I'm just sitting and waiting

for them to bring opportunities to me so a lot of you guys are asking why do you

need all these people there's so many youtubers that are just like a one-man

show a lot of them are not you just don't see that aspect of their business

a lot of them just don't do the business side

they sang with an agency or a multi-channel network that's it they

just like create the content and the agencies take care of the rest we really