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  • Hey, it's me. Uh, I thought we're gonna talk about a video I made a year ago...

  • It was about happiness. It was about forced positivity...

  • Remember that video? I don't think being happy all the time is something.

  • desirable, at all. Now if you watch my older videos, I might seem a lot happier...

  • I might see a lot chiper a lot more positive and that's because...(susense poods)

  • I faked it.

  • Basically I talked about how a lot of youtubers,

  • had to keep up this sort of facade of happiness

  • and oh look how great everything is, to sort of draw people in and be entertained by you.

  • Cuz no one likes to hear a mopey ass.

  • little (mouthing a word)

  • People... people are generally drawn to, eh,

  • happiness, and, uh, I got really fed up and really tired of keeping this facade that

  • uh

  • Yeah, I'm really enjoying this game. I'm really having a great time playing this game

  • Oh wow, I sure love playing Minecraft every single day for years.

  • (Laughs in Thot)

  • The video prompted a lot of responses and a lot of discussion

  • And I thought it was really interesting and healthy and great thing in general that we brought it up.

  • I remember really just playing games and in the back of my head, I was like: "I'm really hating this game.

  • I'm really not entertained by this", but I sort of had this idea in my head that

  • Well, it's my job and people want me to play it so I should just do it and

  • you know... But it wasn't fulfilling for me, and it wasn't making me happy, and I noticed recently a lot of

  • uh

  • streamers AND YouTubers talking about this...

  • eh

  • sorta saying that they don't feel very happy, or as happy as they used to be; they, they don't feel fulfilled...

  • It's a damn shame.

  • And I see a lot of people in the comments,

  • sort of being like: "well, it's your job. You should just suck it up. It's not that hard. YouTube is not a job."

  • Ehehe!

  • Which is true by the way...

  • It's not a job.

  • But I always feel bad when I see this because I can relate to the entertainer. I can can understand their perspective,

  • and so I thought I would make a video just sort of

  • Explaining that perspective cuz I think I think it's important for-for everyone the-the problem with being a YouTuber

  • or-or...

  • ...or an online entertainer is that you constantly have to outdo yourself.

  • To keep people interested in what you are doing...

  • You have to constantly keep pushing boundaries, and you are essentially....

  • co-competing more or less with other entertainers and other YouTubers for-for-for the audience to give...

  • ...you the time that you want.

  • This is not just to keep up your YouTube channel or whatever. It's also to keep up your livelihood.

  • I-imagine your job or whatever you do being...

  • a competition

  • It's-it's not a healthy thing and I think a lot of people

  • ass

  • Get swept up in that but they have to keep

  • Pushing themselves, and I think it's it's a good reflection of what happened with Logan Paul

  • I know I keep bringing it up and that's not my point here.

  • I don't think Logan necessarily is a bad person.

  • I just think he really got caught up in that idea that he has to keep pushing himself to,

  • get those numbers and if you make videos every single day

  • It's really tough to keep... make people keep being interested and keep coming back.

  • uhhh

  • So I can sort of understand it and I can sort of relate to it in a way

  • For me personally, I was really miserable before YouTube. YouTube is only really just done so many amazing thing to me

  • And I-I don't want to seem like I'm complaining

  • I'm-I'm-I couldn't be happier, but I think I still even though I talked about this a lot

  • I think a lot of people have this illusion in their head that

  • Money and fame is gonna bring them some sort of happiness.

  • And I think a lot of YouTubers and a lot of entertainers when they get this

  • get to the point where ackchyually

  • I have everything I want or thought I wanted, but I don't feel happy

  • and I don't feel fulfilled and that just makes them even more unhappy and less fulfilled and

  • uh

  • It's a very... it can be a very negative thing. Even though it's maybe might be ha-hard to understand as an audience as a

  • as a...

  • As a silent viewer or whatever.

  • A few years ago, all I used to do was YouTube.

  • It was seven days a week...

  • (now I do six days a week)

  • ... I would make videos. I would go... wake up, go to my room, make videos and that was it. I didn't have any hobbies,

  • I didn't have any other interests. I wouldn't hang out with friends

  • and looking back that was an extremely...

  • Unhealthy thing to do.

  • And I would do whatever videos

  • My fans wanted me to do; the fans that I have gotten because I had this very serious approach to YouTube

  • You know it's my job. I have to keep doing this. I am so lucky to be in this position

  • I have to respect it.

  • My

  • personal well-being or health

  • That's number two, but it got to a point for me where I just felt like

  • Enough, this is not making me happy

  • I don't want to keep doing this. I'm either gonna quit it or I'm just gonna say all right well

  • I'm gonna do it my way

  • and if I lose a couple fans in the

  • process then I can afford that. I'm in a position where I can afford doing that

  • and I was really ready for my channel to

  • Just come down crashing, an-and that would be it, but at least then I would be fulfilled, at least I would be happier

  • I w- I was met with a lotta-a lot of criticism a lot of a lot of angry fans, that said "oh you are not playing amnesia...

  • You've really changed, or you're not playing this game anymore. You really changed" but...

  • eventually I...

  • It took some time, but eventually it broke through and all the sudden

  • I had people loving what I was doing because

  • There was actual passion behind it, there was actual

  • things that I enjoyed, that I could share, I...

  • I got hobbies that I really enjoyed and I could share those as well, like whiskey videos something. I enjoy and

  • I started exercising

  • meeting friends and all these things that I used to do and it just

  • It made such a huge difference for me, and it might just seem obvious

  • But when you're so swept up into YouTube

  • It really isn't

  • and it also had the opposite effect that I thought my channel will go down

  • But it it did really well eithe-either way.

  • My advice to a lot of youtubers and entertainers is

  • do what makes YOU happy

  • If you lose some fans in the process - I think in the in the end it will be worth it

  • And I think a lot of us need to stop taking

  • their own personal health

  • eh... after..

  • Whatever it is they're doing.

  • I am really in the the... the best place I ever been

  • and uh...

  • I'm just having a blast with YouTube and everything I'm doing right now

  • And I'm so happy I made that choice

  • And that's sort of why I wanted to share this and I also wanted to give some insight for you guys to understand

  • Yes, YouTube isn't really a job, but it's also if it can also be extremely tough, and it extremely weighing you down

  • It's the easiest and the toughest job I ever done

  • It's not like I don't want people to pat me on the back being like

  • "yeah, it is a really tough..."

  • "... you're doing a great job...."

  • That's not it at all

  • But I you don't deserve to be slapped in the face for it either

  • Be happy be nice to each other and have a good smile everybody for every once in a while make sure

  • To smile and ALSO make sure to leave a like on this video if you found it helpful at all

  • Clap it up everybody. I need an outro if anyone can help me with that... a brofist?

  • ahhh...

  • (sniffle snuffle the fist)

  • mm-

  • There- there you go... there you go (FINALLY)

  • 00:07:38,060 --> 00:07:39,200 Are you happy now? (YES)

  • 'aight...

  • I did it...I did the-... I did the pandering

  • HAHAHAHAHA!

Hey, it's me. Uh, I thought we're gonna talk about a video I made a year ago...

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