Name: 【TEDx】Dying to be me! Anita Moorjani at TEDxBayArea
Uploaded: 2018-01-06T18:17:47.000Z
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You know, one of the biggest reasons that I'm happy to be here

That was supposed to be my last day here, in this physical life,

because on that day, the doctors had told my husband and my family

that I only had a few more hours to live.

which is a form of cancer of the lymph nodes.

I had struggled with cancer for four years up to that point.

For four years, this disease had devoured my body.

It had traveled through my lymphatic system.

and then, it spread throughout my lymphatic system

and by that point, by the end of four years,

I had tumors, some of them the size of lemons

that had spread from the base of my skull

under my arms, and all the way to my abdomen.

By that point also, even before I had gone into the coma,

I looked like just a skeleton with skin on.

I had these big gaping-opened skin lesions

where the toxins were oozing out of my body.

I couldn't walk, because my muscles had been deteriorated,

so I was constantly just lying down or been taken around in a wheel chair.

I was connected to an oxygen tank all the time.

I couldn't breathe without the aid of oxygen.

And on that morning, on February, 2, 2006,

The doctors had said these were my final hours

so my family were told that if there was anybody that had to see me before I died,

Unbeknownst to everyone around me though,

even though it appeared that I was in a coma,

I was aware of everything that was going on

I was aware of my husband who was distressed,

I was aware of everything the doctors were doing:

they were removing fluid from my lungs so that I could breathe easier.

I was aware of every single thing that was happening.

It felt as though I had a 360-degree peripheral vision.

I could see everything happening all around my body.

But not just in the room where my body was, but even beyond.

And it was as if I had expanded out of my body.

I could see it, lying there on that hospital bed,

but I was no longer attached to that body.

It felt as though I could be everywhere at the same time.

It was like wherever I put my awareness, there I was.

I was aware of my brother, who was in India.

and was rushing to get on a plane to come and see me.

He wanted to see me before I took my last breath.

I felt as though I was with him. I saw him on the plane.

And then I also became aware of my father and my best friend,

But I became aware of their presence with me,

as though they were guiding me and communicating with me.

One thing that I felt in this amazing expansive state,

I felt I was in like a realm of clarity, where I understood everything.

in fact all of us are much greater and more powerful than we realize

I also felt as if I was connected to everybody,

like all the doctors that were treating me, the nurses,

and everybody, I felt as though we all shared the same consciousness.

I felt as though I could feel what they were feeling,

I could feel the distress they were feeling,

I could feel the resignation of the doctors.

But at the same time, I didn't get emotionally sucked into the drama,

but yet, I understood what they were feeling.

It's like we all share the same consciousness,

it's like when we're not expressing in our physical bodies,

you, and I, and all of us, we're all expressions of the same consciousness.

I felt as though my father was trying to communicate with me

that it wasn't my time, that I needed to go back into my body.

because I still felt as though I had a choice,

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