and anyone can watch it at anytime,

it makes me feel sick.

I had met this guy online on a band's page.

His name was Chris.

I was 16 at the time and he was 19.

We started chatting because obviously, like, we were into the same music.

We started off just sending pictures to each other.

Just sort of like smiley faces, or just like...

But he started asking for sexual pictures of me.

I really didn't want to send them, like, I hadn't done anything like that before and it felt really weird.

He just kept saying to me 'look it wasn't a big deal' and 'everyone was doing it',

and he would stop talking to me if I didn't.

I just kind of, yeah, I did it in the end.

He wanted to meet up with me.

So we went out and then he took me to his place.

We, erm, we had sex that night actually.

The next time his tone changed.

He was quite scary and controlling.

He started then saying he wanted to film us having sex.

Yeah, I let him film us.

One of my best friends came to me and he said that he had seen a video of me and Chris having sex online.

That was the worst.

Chris uploaded it to a porn website I think.

It was all so difficult I just couldn't even make it into college.

I felt so embarrassed and ashamed and so alone because I didn't know who else had ever been through something like that.

The police got involved after my parents found out.

But it was horrible because I didn't want anything to do with it anymore I wanted it to be over.

But they wanted to press charges 'cause what Chris had done was illegal 'cause I was under 18 at that time he filmed me and uploaded it.

They said that everyone else that would've seen the video online had broken the law as well.

Chris is now on the Sex Offenders' Register.

I feel really angry about what he did to me.

I trusted him.

And I feel really angry towards the other guys as well 'cause they may as well have been in the room at the time.

It's taken me a lot of counselling to try and get over what's happened.

And no matter what I do that video is always gonna be online.

And I just hate that I can't get it back.