Name: I Jumped Off The Golden Gate Bridge
Uploaded: 2017-05-04T05:34:21.000Z
Duration: 5 min 8 s
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- [Voiceover] We have lost far too many lives

I feel lucky to be alive every single day.

Of the thousands that have died off the Golden Gate Bridge,

and then I bounced around from home to home.

Nobody wanted to keep me because I was sick.

I landed in the home of Patrick and Debra Hines.

I thought growing up that everything's gonna be great.

And then at 17, it all came crashing down.

If you can imagine feeling that everyone around you

From the extreme paranoia, I exhibited symptoms of mania.

And so with that and the bipolar disorder,

I vividly remember writing my suicide note.

People don't get it, like I thought I was a burden

to everyone who loved me, because that's what my brain

told me, because that's how powerful your brain is.

I walked slowly down the walkway of the Golden Gate Bridge.

People rode by me, drove by me, walked by me.

It was that moment I just said, "Nobody cares."

What I'm about to say is the exact same thing

that 19 Golden Gate Bridge jump survivors have also said.

And I remember thinking, "No one's gonna know

In four seconds I fell 75 miles an hour, 25 stories.

I was in the most physical pain I had ever experienced,

He was just so freaked out that I was alive

that he just dove in and brought me on board.

"we pull out of this water that are already dead?"

And I said, "No, and I don't wanna know."

The guy put his hand on my forehead, said,

My father took one step into the hospital room

And if you think about it, both of our immediate reactions

were guilt, guilt that didn't belong to either of us.

And even though I didn't die, I caused people

I asked my father if he still feared my death by suicide.

So after the jump, the road to recovery was pretty long.

I had seven psych ward stays in the next 11 years.

I still have all the symptoms I ever had:

mania, depression, psychosis, hallucinations,

I built a support network over these years

of treatment so that I wouldn't be fighting this alone.

It's not okay not to ask for someone to back you up.

To the families who live with the loss or losses

of loved ones, they didn't do that to hurt you

They took their lives because they were struggling

and in a great deal of emotional, mental pain.

Suicide, mental illness, and addiction are the only diseases

that we blame the person for perpetually.

But people die from suicide just like they die

Today, no matter the pain I'm in, no matter the struggles

I experience, I do believe that life is the greatest gift

don't wait like I did, sitting in denial for so long.

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I Jumped Off The Golden Gate Bridge

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