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  • (drum music)

  • - This is Conbody, you in prison right now, let's go.

  • This ain't a beach, you ain't free yet, c'mon

  • run, run, like the po-po is coming.

  • You dyin' on me, don't sue me, sue Buzzfeed.

  • - This sucks, I'm tired, I'm trying to survive.

  • - [Coss] You over here praying?

  • God ain't gonna help you, let's go!

  • - Sit down!

  • (crowd counting)

  • - I am at California City State Prison.

  • - We're in the Mojave Desert so it's a serious desert.

  • - I rode in here last night and it was nothingness,

  • just desert and sand and sun.

  • I'm here to work out with inmates and get in shape.

  • Hopefully I get swole, hopefully I survive.

  • - I don't think it hit me that I was going to prison to

  • do all of this until we actually came to the prison.

  • - I've never been inside a prison before so this is all

  • pretty surreal to me like walking onto the yard, going

  • through those gates, seeing the barbed wires.

  • I always thought I would only see it in movies.

  • - Never been incarcerated.

  • I was in trouble with the law a lot when I was younger.

  • - As I was walking through the hallways I was a little

  • freaked out, I didn't know what to expect!

  • - The rules of the street are different than the rules

  • of prison and I'm a visitor.

  • - I'm gonna try to be respectful and aware of my

  • surroundings as possible.

  • (soft music)

  • I only know as much as I've seen through these windows

  • and what I can tell is it's going to be a struggle man

  • it's like boot camp.

  • I don't even think they rested at all!

  • - I wonder if I'll end up throwing up, passing out...

  • Oh, is he just chillin'?

  • I was gonna say, that's gonna be like me in a half hour.

  • - I'm just so nervous, ugh.

  • So each workout is an hour, hour and a half.

  • I haven't worked out in like two months, I just got

  • back from Vegas.

  • - Right now I am going to the gym twice a day.

  • I do really well with like short bursts of high intensity

  • interval training so I feel like I will do all right.

  • - I'm trying to act hard, I don't wanna be the guy that's

  • like slackin' on the ground, like I wanna be cool, I wanna

  • be like I can hang with these guys.

  • - They might be like "who the fuck are you guys" at first

  • because who the fuck are we?

  • It does feel a little like "I'm here to work out with you

  • with Buzzfeed!"

  • So a little bit I feel like a fuckin' asshole.

  • - As long as I don't suck the most I think I'll be okay

  • after this week. (laughs)

  • - [Coss] All right, we're gonna put your feet together

  • hands by your side, we're gonna start off with a regular

  • jumping jack, don't pass out yet!

  • Sideways, Rocco, let's go.

  • - The guy that's training us this week is Coss.

  • Coss is relentless.

  • - [Coss] Now on the count of ten, you're gonna

  • fuck up today.

  • - He's so understated when he's talking to you.

  • As soon as class gets started, like he's a psycho.

  • - [Coss] That's five laps Rocco, no it ain't don't cheat me!

  • You ain't do five laps.

  • - The ConBody workout is insanity times ten with a

  • prison kick into it.

  • Within five days of this workout they'll probably lose

  • like five to ten pounds.

  • It's all body weight.

  • I should have developed this whole routine in

  • my prison cell.

  • I started selling drugs on a milk crate and I grew it out

  • to a multi million dollar drug business and I was sentenced

  • to seven years in prison.

  • I came up with the idea of ConBody while I was in solitary

  • confinement and now have over 7000 clients.

  • One, two, three!

  • - God, anything bad I ever ate I regret it right now.

  • - [Coss] You ain't even gettin' low, you didn't even

  • get low.

  • - I'm just trying to survive with my breathing.

  • - [Coss] Let's go, all the way back, all the way back,

  • they waitin' for you.

  • - My arms just can't do it, like, this is non-stop.

  • - Bring it back, c'mon, c'mon let's go, all the way back,

  • all the way back, let's go, push it, push it.

  • It's almost over, it's almost over, one lap.

  • Give him a hand, give him a hand, let's go. (applause)

  • Last one hop it, buddy, let's go.

  • - When he's done with his workout sessions,

  • they don't wanna let him go.

  • Here's somebody who came from where they came from

  • who's gone out and became successful.

  • He gives them hope.

  • - It was pretty good, they were really receptive,

  • most of them are pretty fit.

  • Rocco is tougher than what I thought but Eli, man.

  • He almost passed out.

  • - I was in that situation before at one of the gyms

  • I worked at and I was dead last again that time.

  • Once again I was by myself, the coach was pinpointing me

  • like telling me push it, push it, push it, and I didn't get

  • nearly the amount of support I got at my gym that I got

  • with these guys.

  • - I feel like they just build a camaraderie

  • when they work out, like breaking

  • that barrier or breaking that stereotype between different

  • races and gangs and bringing them together.

  • - I didn't expect to be so welcomed, no judgement,

  • no one's sizing anyone up just total encouragement and I've

  • never been in a workout environment like that before.

  • - They appreciate that they get outside people that want to

  • do something with them.

  • Imagine yourself like in a room by yourself and then you get

  • like a toy that comes in and you're like "Oh my god!"

  • you know, you feel like a little kid like people

  • actually care, that's what they appreciate.

  • - Wake up in the morning for day two and I'm not looking

  • forward to this.

  • We're going out into 100 degree great heat and I'm just

  • wanting to survive.

  • I'm nervous for the workout 'cuz I just wanna do well

  • but the anxiety that I had coming in about the people there

  • is totally gone and I'm excited to work out with these guys

  • and get to know them more.

  • - Hi, how you all doin'?

  • My name is Carl Robinson, but I'm currently incarcerated as

  • Dwayne Dixon.

  • I've been incarcerated for about 13 years.

  • I got my first job when I was 12 and it was kind of hard,

  • my family was very poor, I was supplementing that by

  • you know selling drugs and stealing out of stores.

  • As of right now my release date is in October of 2018.

  • I was on the run and using my friend's ID to get some

  • alcohol in the store and I got arrested when I got outside

  • but I had Dwayne Dixon's identification on me so that's

  • how I became Dwayne Dixon but my true name is

  • Carl Robinson.

  • - I don't know actually (laughter),

  • I haven't seen Dwayne since '96.

  • - Frank Sumera, it's almost six years right now for me

  • and I've got about four months left.

  • Had the opportunity to do whatever I really chose.

  • Next thing you know I'm getting charged with possession

  • of a bunch of cocaines!

  • - You don't see a whole lotta people come into the prison.

  • Being in the prison you think that them people on the street

  • well they're kind of soft, they can't do this stuff.

  • To see them get in and do it with us and well they're

  • really cool, they weren't afraid

  • and actually I'd say they kept up pretty good.

  • - Rocco, he's a machine, how much does he weigh?

  • - Eli did great too, he toughed it all the way out.

  • Some people quit and he didn't quit, that's the major thing.

  • - I took this time to really reflect on who I am.

  • It's helped me realize that I really need to do something

  • great with my life.

  • - Started really doing a lot of studying and going

  • within myself, took psychology, got in college.

  • I wanted to figure out what was going wrong with my way

  • of thinking and I figure, okay, if people go to school in

  • eight years and twelve years, I can use this as my

  • university and I can choose to do something more with

  • my life even though I'm behind the walls so that's

  • what I chose to do.

  • - There has to be some reason why you're here,

  • not just to commit crimes.

  • You're here for a purpose so you gotta start realizing

  • how you're gonna do good things for people.

  • - We're driving back from day two of working out.

  • Today was a little bit more difficult emotionally.

  • - Coming back to jail is always strange,

  • seeing the gates open is like, oh, shit,

  • like I don't need to be handcuffed

  • to walk through there anymore.

  • And the smells, the cleaning supplies that they use on

  • the floor, like that, just like brings back memories.

  • It's, uh, I guess, it's traumatizing in some sense.

  • - The effect of prison on a human being, it's a lot weighing

  • on a person, like you're away from your family, you're

  • away from your children, you're away from all the people

  • that love you.

  • It really strips you of your identity.

  • - You know this kind of shit but until you're like

  • in their environment and talking to people who are living

  • with the day to day reality of being, in my opinion,

  • unjustly locked away, I don't know, it's really a different

  • thing to have a conversation one-on-one.

  • - I almost don't want to get to know these guys anymore.

  • I almost, I'm scared as to how I'm gonna feel

  • and how frustrated I'm gonna be

  • learning about them even more.

  • You get excited for them because they have so many

  • big plans for when they get out.

  • - I currently have a business that, uh, LLC,

  • Fresh Out Ventures.

  • - I have this business I'm starting, it's called The Clink.

  • - But you know how hard it is for people that were in

  • the system to get any opportunity and it's just,

  • it makes you soooo, it just makes you just so angry,

  • it makes you just so frustrated.

  • - We're headed back to the prison for dinner

  • with the inmates.

  • - I'm a little nervous cuz

  • we're gonna be around more inmates

  • and we're not in our circle.

  • - And I feel a little nervous to be eating in the prison

  • cafeteria, that same kind of first day of school feeling.

  • Where the fuck am I gonna sit?

  • Are people going to be staring at us?

  • People will stare at us.

  • - People are gonna be like yeah,

  • who the hell are these assholes?

  • - Yeah.

  • - When I was on the streets I ate a lot of good food.

  • - Oh really?

  • - Yeah, like organic food and stuff.

  • - Really?

  • Yeah.

  • - You guys enjoy turnips?

  • - So we had our first dinner with the inmates.

  • The cheeseburger was delicious, I loved the cheeseburger,

  • I ate Rocco's cheeseburger!

  • I didn't really feel uncomfortable, you know we sat down

  • with Frank and Carl and just had a great conversation.

  • - You think when you eat amongst criminals, you're thinking

  • there'll be a lot of stabs, a lot of robbery,

  • a lot of violence but it's not.

  • 13 and a half years and I've never been in a fight.

  • - I've seen more men cry in these places than I've ever

  • imagined, this is super tough.

  • I've seen tears come out some of the people that I would

  • never have guessed.

  • - Yeah, we talked about everything, we talked about issues,

  • we talked about art, we talked about music, we talked

  • about the system, we talked about food.

  • - I've read over probably in this time, well over 300 books.

  • - So you guys have no access to like social media at all.

  • - Nooooo.

  • - Like just the phone calls.

  • - I'll be looking forward to my first selfie.

  • (laughter)

  • I dream about putting on clothes that don't match

  • everyone else's.

  • I have dreams where okay I'm picking out my pants, I'm

  • picking out my shoes.

  • - I haven't had that great of a stimulating

  • conversation in a really long time.

  • They still have this humanistic, positive approach to life

  • and I...it's just inspiring.

  • - A lot of times we feel so alone,

  • like it's just me that's going through this

  • but I want to let them know you're not by yourself,

  • you know what I'm saying, I've been there

  • and here's where I am now and you can be there too.

  • - These are two people who have been locked up for years.

  • It scares me how little America knows about the system and

  • who these people are.

  • (soft music)

  • - Frank is no longer allowed to interview

  • due to political reasons.

  • Unfortunately, when we come into the system,

  • we get classified based upon your race.

  • Certain race groups don't feel

  • like they should be interviewing.

  • You have some people that impose policy

  • on other people who are willing to get violent and you know,

  • he's fixing to go home soon,

  • so you know he don't wanna 'cause any waves.

  • In our class everyone represents a planet

  • and Frank represents the sun,

  • that bright light that shines on you and

  • keeps you going with energy so that's Frank.

  • - This experience is becoming more emotionally taxing

  • than physically taxing.

  • I was a little worried about the workouts

  • but it's not the most difficult aspect.

  • I'd say the most difficult part is getting to know

  • these guys and hearing their stories

  • and just realize that this

  • easily could have been my experience.

  • It's just a lot of luck and circumstance that kept me

  • out of this level of trouble.

  • It just makes me feel helpless,

  • incredibly like heartbreaking too,

  • particularly like Ping's story

  • is really like striking something in me.

  • - So my name's Ping, um, I'm 32.

  • I grew up right here in L.A. in the suburbs, you know

  • normal life, never been in trouble in my life,

  • never had a juvie record,

  • never had any run-ins with the cops.

  • And one day I made a mistake that cost me 13 years,

  • conspiracy to commit robbery.

  • Everybody has these stereotypes

  • that like all these guys that end up in here,

  • they're criminals, they're drug dealers,

  • I mean, I went to private schools

  • and I lived in a good neighborhood

  • like nobody I knew was in gangs or drugs.

  • I'm like, I get it, like, we're doing stuff

  • that we're not supposed to be doing but you know,

  • for something that never played out

  • they added ten years on my sentence for talking about a gun.

  • - So you didn't even commit a crime?

  • - Exactly.

  • Personally, I feel like you get young kids in here,

  • I was nineteen, I was twenty,

  • and for one mistake you get screwed

  • and I don't get out until I'm 33

  • and it's like all the years where you're

  • building your life, you're getting your education,

  • what chances do you have when you get out?

  • You know, I get out in six and a half months

  • and I mean, I'm terrified.

  • I always liked challenging myself and trying to you know,

  • get better, you know set the bar a little higher each time

  • so I'd love to get involved with ConBody and Coss.

  • - I would train with him for sure.

  • I would let him set the pace and then I would just keep up.

  • - I'm scared to be next to Ping but I'm also very excited.

  • - [Rocco] I'm motivated.

  • - Because he's gonna be like top top, on his game,

  • so focused, and he knows I'm like psyching out

  • when he encourages me to keep going.

  • What's the first thing you're gonna do when

  • you get out, dude?

  • Have you thought about the first thing?

  • - As soon as I get home I'm stripping my shirt off

  • and jumping into that swimming pool. (laughter)

  • Can't wait to jump in the swimming pool

  • and get some McDonald's hash browns.

  • I can't wait to get out there

  • and just stand out on that street corner and

  • just take a deep breath and just look around

  • and not see chain link fences and barbed wire

  • like somewhere in my vision.

  • - This entire experience, I know it sounds cliche,

  • but it makes me feel tremendously grateful

  • for the freedom that I do have.

  • - We complain about these really just dumb things

  • like about work or family or life or whatever

  • but at least we're able to go outside

  • and get some hash browns. (laughs)

  • (urban beat music)

  • - Eli and Rocco is, um, they working through it.

  • - I feel weak and tired, if I were at home

  • I would definitely would not be working out today.

  • It feels almost on the verge of unsafe.

  • - That's right.

  • - I don't think I'm gonna finish.

  • It's really frustrating, I don't know what.

  • I'm so fucking behind, I feel like total shit.

  • I just feel terrible.

  • I knew no one was going to judge me but I just didn't

  • want to waste their time and I just got psyched out.

  • I felt so bad because these guys just want to talk to you

  • after you're done working out and I was just so pissed off

  • at myself so, like, ashamed.

  • - Just feeling like emotionally drained and overwhelmed.

  • I'm feeling like we live with an incredibly broken system

  • and that we're just basically sacrificing people's lives

  • instead of giving them a second chance.

  • - I'm learning so much about myself and I'm realizing I'm

  • just really hard on myself and a little too much in

  • my head sometimes.

  • This trip has changed me, opened me up, made me more aware

  • about not only the system and human beings and people

  • and hope, but my health and my well being.

  • - Last day, final day, full body,

  • that's how I feel about it.

  • (clapping and crowd talking)

  • (cheers and applause)

  • - So it's over and these guys did the time

  • and they killed it.

  • They went and pushed through it, they applaud each other,

  • they worked as a team, these guys are straight brotherhood.

  • - The workout just brought us together, like you're going

  • through something together and that brings out the best or

  • worst in people and all I saw was just the best.

  • - A lot of people were very skeptical until they actually

  • seen Coss, for him to come in and help us out, they feel

  • like they have a future ahead of them now and so I think

  • there's a lot more hope.

  • - I can't even put it in words like being dead last and

  • like struggling and like doing all that and people that went

  • through so much shit and still like caring about you and

  • like, it's uh, they're just strangers, it's really, uh,

  • yeah, it's rare even in every day life.

  • - It, um, it's just real.

  • It's a dream that I pictured and it became a reality.

  • They're really hungry and it pushes me to the next level to

  • like, now I've gotta fix a bigger problem and it's gonna

  • really inspire not only, help myself and my family,

  • but help thousands of guys in here

  • and create a huge movement.

  • - This experience has been just intense,

  • physically and emotionally.

  • I don't think that I can translate the impact with language.

  • - I don't know how to say goodbye to these guys.

  • Words cannot express what it felt getting to know them and

  • what they did for me so it's hard to say goodbye.

  • - Seeing all this shit makes you feel helpless too cuz like

  • what can one person do?

  • Then you see someone like Coss who's been through this shit

  • and comes back and who does have an impact.

  • - This week, um, you guys gave us our humanity back.

  • When all this happens it's like you go to court and they

  • strip you down to your charges,

  • you're just a list of charges on a sheet of paper

  • and you go to the county jail

  • and you become a number on a tag and they...I'm sorry

  • and they move you around like inventory,

  • you know, you're like cattle.

  • You come to prison and you become another number,

  • you stay in a cell, you stay in a room,

  • you stay in a dayroom until they let you out.

  • And it gets in your head, you feel like you're nothing.

  • And for all you guys to come in here

  • and you just be cool with us,

  • it's like you guys gave us our humanity back.

  • I feel human again, I feel like, I feel normal, you know so.

  • (light techno music)

  • - Here's your rehabilitated men this on behalf of the men

  • in this room who are trying to rehabilitate themselves

  • and for myself I like to ask society for forgiveness.

  • - Well what would I say to the guys

  • if they're all watching this.

  • I mean you opened my eyes, you opened my heart,

  • you opened my soul, I care about you guys.

  • I hope you guys get everything you want out of life.

  • - And we also give forgiveness

  • to those that have hurt us along the way.

  • And we put all those things behind us,

  • everything is a clean slate.

  • - Thank you for letting me in your space,

  • thank you for being welcoming,

  • thank you for letting me work out with you

  • and thank you for changing my life.

  • - A lot of us here are leaders and we can help

  • those next group of young men

  • and young women not to get to these stoops.

  • - What I suggest is to not give up.

  • It's easy to say but it's harder to do.

  • - And we're not coming back here.

  • This is the last time you're gonna see us

  • in this environment, you know what I'm saying?

  • Therefore, you know what I'm saying, therefore...

  • (applause and soft music)

  • Rocco will rap with me

  • Hey hey say we got what you need,

  • ConBody yup yup doing time

  • Rockin' our cause, yeah, doin' fine

  • Everybody, everybody, what what what

  • Everybody, everybody what what what

  • Everybody, everybody what what what

  • Got get it now, got get it now whoa speed.

  • (laughter)

(drum music)

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