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  • Recording by Elizabeth Klett Jane Eyre by Charlotte BRONTË Chapter Five

  • Five o'clock had hardly struck on the morning of the 19th of January,

  • when Bessie brought a candle into my closet and found me already up and

  • nearly dressed.

  • I had risen half-an-hour before her entrance, and had

  • washed my face, and put on my clothes by the light of a half-moon just

  • setting, whose rays streamed through the narrow window near my crib.

  • I was to leave Gateshead that day by a coach

  • which passed the lodge gates at six a.m.

  • Bessie was the only person yet risen; she had lit a fire in

  • the nursery, where she now proceeded to make my breakfast.

  • Few children can eat when excited with the thoughts of

  • a journey; nor could I. Bessie, having pressed me in vain to take a few spoonfuls

  • of the boiled milk and bread she had prepared for me, wrapped up

  • some biscuits in a paper and put them into my bag; then she helped me on

  • with my pelisse and bonnet, and wrapping herself in a shawl, she and I

  • left the nursery.

  • As we passed Mrs. Reed's bedroom, she said, "Will

  • you go in and bid Missis good- bye?"

  • "No, Bessie: she came to my crib last night when you were gone down to

  • supper, and said I need not disturb her in the morning, or my cousins

  • either; and she told me to remember that she had always been my best

  • friend, and to speak of her and be grateful to her accordingly."

  • "What did you say, Miss?"

  • "Nothing: I covered my face with the bedclothes, and turned from her to

  • the wall."

  • "That was wrong, Miss Jane."

  • "It was quite right, Bessie.

  • Your Missis has not been my friend: she has been my foe."

  • "O Miss Jane!

  • don't say so!"

  • "Good-bye to Gateshead!"

  • cried I, as we passed through the hall and went

  • out at the front door.

  • The moon was set, and it was very dark; Bessie carried a lantern, whose

  • light glanced on wet steps and gravel road sodden by a recent thaw.

  • Raw and chill was the winter morning: my teeth

  • chattered as I hastened down the drive.

  • There was a light in the porter's lodge: when we reached it,

  • we found the porter's wife just kindling her fire: my trunk, which had

  • been carried down the evening before, stood corded at the door.

  • It wanted but a few minutes of six, and shortly

  • after that hour had struck, the distant roll of wheels announced the coming

  • coach; I went to the door and watched its lamps approach rapidly through

  • the gloom.

  • "Is she going by herself?" asked the porter's wife.

  • "Yes."

  • "And how far is it?"

  • "Fifty miles."

  • "What a long way!

  • I wonder Mrs. Reed is not afraid to trust her so far

  • alone."

  • The coach drew up; there it was at the gates with its four horses and its

  • top laden with passengers: the guard and coachman loudly urged haste; my

  • trunk was hoisted up; I was taken from Bessie's neck, to which I clung

  • with kisses.

  • "Be sure and take good care of her," cried she to the guard, as he lifted

  • me into the inside.

  • "Ay, ay!"

  • was the answer: the door was slapped to, a voice exclaimed "All

  • right," and on we drove.

  • Thus was I severed from Bessie and Gateshead; thus whirled away to unknown, and, as I then

  • deemed, remote and mysterious regions.

  • I remember but little of the journey; I only know that the day seemed to

  • me of a preternatural length, and that we appeared to travel over

  • hundreds of miles of road.

  • We passed through several towns, and in one, a very large one, the coach stopped; the horses

  • were taken out, and the passengers alighted to dine.

  • I was carried into an inn, where the guard wanted me to have some dinner; but, as I had

  • no appetite, he left me in an immense room with a fireplace at each end,

  • a chandelier pendent from the ceiling, and a little red gallery high

  • up against the wall filled with musical instruments.

  • Here I walked about for a long time, feeling very strange, and mortally apprehensive of

  • some one coming in and kidnapping me; for I believed in kidnappers,

  • their exploits having frequently figured in Bessie's fireside chronicles.

  • At last the guard returned; once more I was stowed away in the

  • coach, my protector mounted his own seat, sounded his hollow horn, and

  • away we rattled over the "stony street" of L-.

  • The afternoon came on wet and somewhat misty: as it waned into dusk, I

  • began to feel that we were getting very far indeed from Gateshead: we

  • ceased to pass through towns; the country changed; great grey hills

  • heaved up round the horizon: as twilight deepened, we descended a valley,

  • dark with wood, and long after night had overclouded the prospect, I

  • heard a wild wind rushing amongst trees.

  • Lulled by the sound, I at last dropped asleep; I had not long slumbered

  • when the sudden cessation of motion awoke me; the coach-door was open,

  • and a person like a servant was standing at it: I saw her face and dress

  • by the light of the lamps.

  • "Is there a little girl called Jane Eyre here?"

  • she asked.

  • I answered "Yes," and was then lifted out; my trunk was

  • handed down, and the coach instantly drove away.

  • I was stiff with long sitting, and bewildered with the noise and motion

  • of the coach: Gathering my faculties, I looked about me.

  • Rain, wind, and darkness filled the air; nevertheless, I dimly

  • discerned a wall before me and a door open in it; through this door I

  • passed with my new guide: she shut and locked it behind her.

  • There was now visible a house or houses--for the building spread far--with

  • many windows, and lights burning in some; we went up a broad pebbly

  • path, splashing wet, and were admitted at a door; then the servant led me

  • through a passage into a room with a fire, where she left me alone.

  • I stood and warmed my numbed fingers over the blaze, then I looked round;

  • there was no candle, but the uncertain light from the hearth showed, by

  • intervals, papered walls, carpet, curtains, shining mahogany furniture:

  • it was a parlour, not so spacious or splendid as the drawing-room at

  • Gateshead, but comfortable enough.

  • I was puzzling to make out the subject of a picture on the wall, when the

  • door opened, and an individual carrying a light entered; another followed

  • close behind.

  • The first was a tall lady with dark hair, dark eyes, and a pale and large

  • forehead; her figure was partly enveloped in a shawl, her countenance was

  • grave, her bearing erect.

  • "The child is very young to be sent alone," said she, putting her candle

  • down on the table.

  • She considered me attentively for a minute or two,

  • then further added--

  • "She had better be put to bed soon; she looks tired: are you tired?"

  • she asked, placing her hand on my shoulder.

  • "A little, ma'am."

  • "And hungry too, no doubt: let her have some supper before she goes to

  • bed, Miss Miller.

  • Is this the first time you have left your parents to

  • come to school, my little girl?"

  • I explained to her that I had no parents.

  • She inquired how long they had been dead: then how old I was, what was my

  • name, whether I could read, write, and sew a little: then she touched

  • my cheek gently with her forefinger, and saying, "She hoped I should

  • be a good child," dismissed me along with Miss Miller.

  • The lady I had left might be about twenty-nine; the one who went with me

  • appeared some years younger: the first impressed me by her voice, look,

  • and air.

  • Miss Miller was more ordinary; ruddy in complexion, though of a

  • careworn countenance; hurried in gait and action, like one who had always

  • a multiplicity of tasks on hand: she looked, indeed, what I afterwards

  • found she really was, an under-teacher.

  • Led by her, I passed from compartment to compartment, from passage to

  • passage, of a large and irregular building; till, emerging from the

  • total and somewhat dreary silence pervading that portion of the house

  • we had traversed, we came upon the hum of many voices, and presently

  • entered a wide, long room, with great deal tables, two at each end, on

  • each of which burnt a pair of candles, and seated all round on benches,

  • a congregation of girls of every age, from nine or ten to twenty.

  • Seen by the dim light of the dips, their number to me appeared countless,

  • though not in reality exceeding eighty; they were uniformly dressed

  • in brown stuff frocks of quaint fashion, and long holland pinafores.

  • It was the hour of study; they were engaged in conning over their to-morrow's

  • task, and the hum I had heard was the combined result of their

  • whispered repetitions.

  • Miss Miller signed to me to sit on a bench near the door, then walking up

  • to the top of the long room she cried out--

  • "Monitors, collect the lesson-books and put them away!"

  • Four tall girls arose from different tables, and going round, gathered

  • the books and removed them.

  • Miss Miller again gave the word of command--

  • "Monitors, fetch the supper-trays!"

  • The tall girls went out and returned presently, each bearing a tray, with

  • portions of something, I knew not what, arranged thereon, and a pitcher

  • of water and mug in the middle of each tray.

  • The portions were handed round; those who liked took a draught of the

  • water, the mug being common to all.

  • When it came to my turn, I drank, for I was thirsty, but did not

  • touch the food, excitement and fatigue rendering me incapable of eating:

  • I now saw, however, that it was a thin oaten cake shared into fragments.

  • The meal over, prayers were read by Miss Miller, and the classes filed

  • off, two and two, upstairs.

  • Overpowered by this time with weariness, I scarcely noticed what sort of a place the

  • bedroom was, except that, like the schoolroom, I saw it was very long.

  • To-night I was to be Miss Miller's bed-fellow; she helped me to undress:

  • when laid down I glanced at the long rows of beds, each of which was

  • quickly filled with two occupants; in ten minutes the single light

  • was extinguished, and amidst silence and complete darkness I fell asleep.

  • The night passed rapidly.

  • I was too tired even to dream; I only once awoke to hear the wind rave in furious gusts,

  • and the rain fall in torrents, and to be sensible that Miss Miller

  • had taken her place by my side.

  • When I again unclosed my eyes, a loud bell was ringing; the girls

  • were up and dressing; day had not yet begun to dawn, and a rushlight or

  • two burned in the room.

  • I too rose reluctantly; it was bitter cold, and

  • I dressed as well as I could for shivering, and washed when there was a

  • basin at liberty, which did not occur soon, as there was but one basin to

  • six girls, on the stands down the middle of the room.

  • Again the bell rang: all formed in file, two and two, and

  • in that order descended the stairs and entered the cold and dimly lit

  • schoolroom: here prayers were read by Miss Miller; afterwards she called

  • out--

  • "Form classes!"

  • A great tumult succeeded for some minutes, during which Miss Miller

  • repeatedly exclaimed, "Silence!" and "Order!"

  • When it subsided, I saw them all drawn up in four semicircles, before

  • four chairs, placed at the four tables; all held books in their hands,

  • and a great book, like a Bible, lay on each table, before the vacant

  • seat.

  • A pause of some seconds succeeded, filled up by the low, vague

  • hum of numbers; Miss Miller walked from class to class, hushing

  • this indefinite sound.

  • A distant bell tinkled: immediately three ladies entered the room, each

  • walked to a table and took her seat.

  • Miss Miller assumed the fourth vacant chair, which was that nearest the door,

  • and around which the smallest of the children were assembled: to

  • this inferior class I was called, and placed at the bottom of it.

  • Business now began, the day's Collect was repeated, then certain texts of

  • Scripture were said, and to these succeeded a protracted reading of

  • chapters in the Bible, which lasted an hour.

  • By the time that exercise was terminated, day had fully dawned.

  • The indefatigable bell now sounded for the fourth time: the classes were marshalled

  • and marched into another room to breakfast: how glad I was to behold

  • a prospect of getting something to eat!

  • I was now nearly sick from inanition, having taken so

  • little the day before.

  • The refectory was a great, low-ceiled, gloomy room; on two long tables

  • smoked basins of something hot, which, however, to my dismay, sent forth

  • an odour far from inviting.

  • I saw a universal manifestation of discontent when the fumes of the repast met

  • the nostrils of those destined to swallow it; from the van of the

  • procession, the tall girls of the first class, rose the whispered words--

  • "Disgusting!

  • The porridge is burnt again!"

  • "Silence!"

  • ejaculated a voice; not that of Miss Miller, but one of the

  • upper teachers, a little and dark personage, smartly dressed, but of

  • somewhat morose aspect, who installed herself at the top of one table,

  • while a more buxom lady presided at the other.

  • I looked in vain for her I had first seen the night before; she was

  • not visible: Miss Miller occupied the foot of the table where I sat,

  • and a strange, foreign-looking, elderly lady, the French

  • teacher, as I afterwards found, took the corresponding seat at the other board.

  • A long grace was said and a hymn sung; then a servant brought in

  • some tea for the teachers, and the meal began.

  • Ravenous, and now very faint, I devoured a spoonful or two of my portion

  • without thinking of its taste; but the first edge of hunger blunted, I

  • perceived I had got in hand a nauseous mess; burnt porridge is almost as

  • bad as rotten potatoes; famine itself soon sickens over it.

  • The spoons were moved slowly: I saw each girl taste her

  • food and try to swallow it; but in most cases the effort was soon relinquished.

  • Breakfast was over, and none had breakfasted.

  • Thanks being returned for what we had not got,

  • and a second hymn chanted, the refectory was evacuated for the

  • schoolroom.

  • I was one of the last to go out, and in passing the tables,

  • I saw one teacher take a basin of the porridge and taste it; she looked

  • at the others; all their countenances expressed displeasure, and one of

  • them, the stout one, whispered--

  • "Abominable stuff!

  • How shameful!"

  • A quarter of an hour passed before lessons again began, during which the

  • schoolroom was in a glorious tumult; for that space of time it seemed to

  • be permitted to talk loud and more freely, and they used their privilege.

  • The whole conversation ran on the breakfast, which one and all abused

  • roundly.

  • Poor things!

  • it was the sole consolation they had.

  • Miss Miller was now the only teacher in the room: a group

  • of great girls standing about her spoke with serious and sullen gestures.

  • I heard the name of Mr. Brocklehurst pronounced by some lips;

  • at which Miss Miller shook her head disapprovingly; but she made no great

  • effort to check the general wrath; doubtless she shared in it.

  • A clock in the schoolroom struck nine; Miss Miller left her circle, and

  • standing in the middle of the room, cried--

  • "Silence!

  • To your seats!"

  • Discipline prevailed: in five minutes the confused throng was resolved

  • into order, and comparative silence quelled the Babel clamour of tongues.

  • The upper teachers now punctually resumed their posts: but still, all

  • seemed to wait.

  • Ranged on benches down the sides of the room, the eighty

  • girls sat motionless and erect; a quaint assemblage they appeared, all

  • with plain locks combed from their faces, not a curl visible; in brown

  • dresses, made high and surrounded by a narrow tucker about the throat,

  • with little pockets of holland (shaped something like a Highlander's

  • purse) tied in front of their frocks, and destined to serve the purpose

  • of a work-bag: all, too, wearing woollen stockings and country-made

  • shoes, fastened with brass buckles.

  • Above twenty of those clad in this costume were full-grown girls, or rather young

  • women; it suited them ill, and gave an air of oddity even to the prettiest.

  • I was still looking at them, and also at intervals examining the

  • teachers--none of whom precisely pleased me; for the stout one was a

  • little coarse, the dark one not a little fierce, the foreigner harsh and

  • grotesque, and Miss Miller, poor thing!

  • looked purple, weather-beaten, and over-worked--when, as my eye wandered

  • from face to face, the whole school rose simultaneously, as if moved by

  • a common spring.

  • What was the matter?

  • I had heard no order given: I was puzzled.

  • Ere I had gathered my wits, the classes were again

  • seated: but as all eyes were now turned to one point, mine followed the

  • general direction, and encountered the personage who had received

  • me last night.

  • She stood at the bottom of the long room, on the hearth;

  • for there was a fire at each end; she surveyed the two rows of girls silently

  • and gravely.

  • Miss Miller approaching, seemed to ask her a question,

  • and having received her answer, went back to her place, and said aloud--

  • "Monitor of the first class, fetch the globes!"

  • While the direction was being executed, the lady consulted moved slowly

  • up the room.

  • I suppose I have a considerable organ of veneration, for I

  • retain yet the sense of admiring awe with which my eyes traced her steps.

  • Seen now, in broad daylight, she looked tall, fair, and shapely; brown

  • eyes with a benignant light in their irids, and a fine pencilling of long

  • lashes round, relieved the whiteness of her large front; on each of her

  • temples her hair, of a very dark brown, was clustered in round curls,

  • according to the fashion of those times, when neither smooth bands nor

  • long ringlets were in vogue; her dress, also in the mode of the day, was

  • of purple cloth, relieved by a sort of Spanish trimming of black velvet;

  • a gold watch (watches were not so common then as now) shone at her

  • girdle.

  • Let the reader add, to complete the picture, refined features; a

  • complexion, if pale, clear; and a stately air and carriage, and he will

  • have, at least, as clearly as words can give it, a correct idea of the

  • exterior of Miss Temple--Maria Temple, as I afterwards saw the name

  • written in a prayer-book intrusted to me to carry to church.

  • The superintendent of Lowood (for such was this lady) having taken her

  • seat before a pair of globes placed on one of the tables, summoned the

  • first class round her, and commenced giving a lesson on geography; the

  • lower classes were called by the teachers: repetitions in history,

  • grammar, &c., went on for an hour; writing and arithmetic succeeded, and

  • music lessons were given by Miss Temple to some of the elder girls.

  • The duration of each lesson was measured by the

  • clock, which at last struck twelve.

  • The superintendent rose--

  • "I have a word to address to the pupils," said she.

  • The tumult of cessation from lessons was already breaking forth, but it

  • sank at her voice.

  • She went on--

  • "You had this morning a breakfast which you could not eat; you must be

  • hungry:--I have ordered that a lunch of bread and cheese shall be served

  • to all."

  • The teachers looked at her with a sort of surprise.

  • "It is to be done on my responsibility," she added, in an explanatory

  • tone to them, and immediately afterwards left the room.

  • The bread and cheese was presently brought in and distributed, to the

  • high delight and refreshment of the whole school.

  • The order was now given "To the garden!"

  • Each put on a coarse straw bonnet, with strings of coloured calico, and a cloak of grey frieze.

  • I was similarly equipped, and, following the stream, I made

  • my way into the open air.

  • The garden was a wide inclosure, surrounded with walls so high as to

  • exclude every glimpse of prospect; a covered verandah ran down one side,

  • and broad walks bordered a middle space divided into scores of little

  • beds: these beds were assigned as gardens for the pupils to cultivate,

  • and each bed had an owner.

  • When full of flowers they would doubtless look pretty; but now, at the latter end of

  • January, all was wintry blight and brown decay.

  • I shuddered as I stood and looked round me: it was an

  • inclement day for outdoor exercise; not positively rainy, but darkened by

  • a drizzling yellow fog; all under foot was still soaking wet with the

  • floods of yesterday.

  • The stronger among the girls ran about and engaged

  • in active games, but sundry pale and thin ones herded together for

  • shelter and warmth in the verandah; and amongst these, as the dense mist

  • penetrated to their shivering frames, I heard frequently the sound of a

  • hollow cough.

  • As yet I had spoken to no one, nor did anybody seem to take notice of me;

  • I stood lonely enough: but to that feeling of isolation I was accustomed;

  • it did not oppress me much.

  • I leant against a pillar of the verandah, drew my grey mantle close about me, and, trying

  • to forget the cold which nipped me without, and the unsatisfied hunger

  • which gnawed me within, delivered myself up to the employment of watching

  • and thinking.

  • My reflections were too undefined and fragmentary

  • to merit record: I hardly yet knew where I was; Gateshead and my past

  • life seemed floated away to an immeasurable distance; the present was

  • vague and strange, and of the future I could form no conjecture.

  • I looked round the convent-like garden, and then up at the house--a large

  • building, half of which seemed grey and old, the other half quite new.

  • The new part, containing the schoolroom and dormitory, was lit by mullioned

  • and latticed windows, which gave it a church-like aspect; a stone

  • tablet over the door bore this inscription:--

  • "Lowood Institution.--This portion was rebuilt A.D.

  • ---, by Naomi Brocklehurst, of Brocklehurst Hall, in this

  • county."

  • "Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good

  • works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven."--St. Matt.

  • v. 16.

  • I read these words over and over again: I felt that an explanation

  • belonged to them, and was unable fully to penetrate their import.

  • I was still pondering the signification of "Institution,"

  • and endeavouring to make out a connection between the first words

  • and the verse of Scripture, when the sound of a cough close behind me

  • made me turn my head.

  • I saw a girl sitting on a stone bench near; she was

  • bent over a book, on the perusal of which she seemed intent: from where

  • I stood I could see the title--it was "Rasselas;" a name that struck

  • me as strange, and consequently attractive.

  • In turning a leaf she happened to look up, and

  • I said to her directly--

  • "Is your book interesting?"

  • I had already formed the intention of asking her to lend it to me some day.

  • "I like it," she answered, after a pause of a second or two, during which

  • she examined me.

  • "What is it about?"

  • I continued.

  • I hardly know where I found the hardihood thus to open a conversation with

  • a stranger; the step was contrary to my nature and habits: but I think

  • her occupation touched a chord of sympathy somewhere; for I too liked

  • reading, though of a frivolous and childish kind; I could not digest

  • or comprehend the serious or substantial.

  • "You may look at it," replied the girl, offering me the book.

  • I did so; a brief examination convinced me that the contents were less

  • taking than the title: "Rasselas" looked dull to my trifling taste; I saw

  • nothing about fairies, nothing about genii; no bright variety seemed

  • spread over the closely-printed pages.

  • I returned it to her; she received it quietly, and without saying anything

  • she was about to relapse into her former studious mood: again I ventured

  • to disturb her--

  • "Can you tell me what the writing on that stone over the door means?

  • What is Lowood Institution?"

  • "This house where you are come to live."

  • "And why do they call it Institution?

  • Is it in any way different from other schools?"

  • "It is partly a charity-school: you and I, and all the rest of us, are

  • charity-children.

  • I suppose you are an orphan: are not either your

  • father or your mother dead?"

  • "Both died before I can remember."

  • "Well, all the girls here have lost either one or both parents, and this

  • is called an institution for educating orphans."

  • "Do we pay no money?

  • Do they keep us for nothing?"

  • "We pay, or our friends pay, fifteen pounds a year for each."

  • "Then why do they call us charity-children?"

  • "Because fifteen pounds is not enough for board and teaching, and the

  • deficiency is supplied by subscription."

  • "Who subscribes?"

  • "Different benevolent-minded ladies and gentlemen in this neighbourhood

  • and in London."

  • "Who was Naomi Brocklehurst?"

  • "The lady who built the new part of this house as that tablet records,

  • and whose son overlooks and directs everything here."

  • "Why?"

  • "Because he is treasurer and manager of the establishment."

  • "Then this house does not belong to that tall lady who wears a watch, and

  • who said we were to have some bread and cheese?"

  • "To Miss Temple?

  • Oh, no!

  • I wish it did: she has to answer to Mr. Brocklehurst for all she does.

  • Mr. Brocklehurst buys all our food and all our clothes."

  • "Does he live here?"

  • "No--two miles off, at a large hall."

  • "Is he a good man?"

  • "He is a clergyman, and is said to do a great deal of good."

  • "Did you say that tall lady was called Miss Temple?"

  • "Yes."

  • "And what are the other teachers called?"

  • "The one with red cheeks is called Miss Smith; she attends to the work,

  • and cuts out--for we make our own clothes, our frocks, and pelisses, and

  • everything; the little one with black hair is Miss Scatcherd; she teaches

  • history and grammar, and hears the second class repetitions; and the one

  • who wears a shawl, and has a pocket-handkerchief tied to her side with a

  • yellow ribband, is Madame Pierrot: she comes from Lisle, in France, and

  • teaches French."

  • "Do you like the teachers?"

  • "Well enough."

  • "Do you like the little black one, and the Madame ---?--I cannot

  • pronounce her name as you do."

  • "Miss Scatcherd is hasty--you must take care not to offend her; Madame

  • Pierrot is not a bad sort of person."

  • "But Miss Temple is the best--isn't she?"

  • "Miss Temple is very good and very clever; she is above the rest, because

  • she knows far more than they do."

  • "Have you been long here?"

  • "Two years."

  • "Are you an orphan?"

  • "My mother is dead."

  • "Are you happy here?"

  • "You ask rather too many questions.

  • I have given you answers enough for the present: now I want to read."

  • But at that moment the summons sounded for dinner; all re-entered the

  • house.

  • The odour which now filled the refectory was scarcely more

  • appetising than that which had regaled our nostrils at breakfast: the

  • dinner was served in two huge tin-plated vessels, whence rose a strong

  • steam redolent of rancid fat.

  • I found the mess to consist of indifferent potatoes and strange shreds of rusty meat,

  • mixed and cooked together.

  • Of this preparation a tolerably abundant plateful

  • was apportioned to each pupil.

  • I ate what I could, and wondered within myself whether every

  • day's fare would be like this.

  • After dinner, we immediately adjourned to the schoolroom: lessons

  • recommenced, and were continued till five o'clock.

  • The only marked event of the afternoon was, that I saw the girl with whom

  • I had conversed in the verandah dismissed in disgrace by Miss Scatcherd

  • from a history class, and sent to stand in the middle of the large

  • schoolroom.

  • The punishment seemed to me in a high degree ignominious,

  • especially for so great a girl--she looked thirteen or upwards.

  • I expected she would show signs of great distress

  • and shame; but to my surprise she neither wept nor blushed: composed,

  • though grave, she stood, the central mark of all eyes.

  • "How can she bear it so quietly--so firmly?"

  • I asked of myself.

  • "Were I in her place, it seems to me I should wish the earth to open and swallow

  • me up.

  • She looks as if she were thinking of something beyond her punishment--beyond

  • her situation: of something not round her nor before her.

  • I have heard of day-dreams--is she in a day-dream now?

  • Her eyes are fixed on the floor, but I am sure

  • they do not see it--her sight seems turned in, gone down into her heart:

  • she is looking at what she can remember, I believe; not at what is really

  • present.

  • I wonder what sort of a girl she is--whether good or naughty."

  • Soon after five p.m. we had another meal, consisting of a small mug of

  • coffee, and half-a-slice of brown bread.

  • I devoured my bread and drank my coffee with relish; but I should have been

  • glad of as much more--I was still hungry.

  • Half-an-hour's recreation succeeded, then study; then the

  • glass of water and the piece of oat-cake, prayers, and bed.

  • Such was my first day at Lowood.

  • End of Chapter Five

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