Name: America is Not my Home. (Story 5)
Uploaded: 2022-03-22T18:00:10.000Z
Duration: 17 min 15 s
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2020 has made me feel emotional from abroad.

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I wake up getting dressed to go nowhere, learning to be my own boss.

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As I go through this transition of working from home and no matter if you're off social media or not, news gets to you one way or another it's heels.

But one thing stays the same days into a watercolor blow.

Missing home has been a big thing, worried about family and friends, their health and if they can keep their jobs, the debates are happening now and anxiety is running high.

So this video is sponsored by box suit, which is actually a japanese snack subscription box.

The people that created this box work with 100 year old companies, family owned companies to bring you the very gourmet japanese snacks and I haven't had a japanese subscription box in a really long time.

So we're going to open the one that I got because I'm excited to see what's inside.

Just a quick look with my husband and a little bit of a taste test boxer delivers to you the taste of japan since the world is in quarantine.

This might be the perfect box for you, especially if you can't travel.

It has japanese snacks and tea pairings and every month you get a theme box and the first time customers get the seasons of japan boxes so you can taste every season of japan and their go to snacks.

I loved how the pamphlet mentioned all the snacks in the box where they came from and allergy information, which is great for me.

So let's quickly find out what's inside before we move on with this video that's going to be in my stomach.

I lived in five different places in Japan.

So a lot of these snacks were super nostalgic for me because they came from everywhere in Japan.

So I was extremely excited don't mind me.

Looking at the origin of each snack and where it came from.

It was really fun for us and I loved how they had the allergy information.

Unfortunately I couldn't eat everything but my husband was super happy To eat a lot of these snacks and have them in the house because we don't usually buy too many snacks.

So he's going to eat all of them and I'm going to probably drink the tea and each some of the sugary snacks.

But other than that this box was full of amazing foods.

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You see the bigger picture, Oh no, come back.

You know when I was growing up social media wasn't a thing.

But now that it is, our voices are heard much louder than before.

It's a good thing in order to make a change.

A storm happens before the comets necessary.

Witnessing it from the outside can be harsh, but I'm grateful.

I can stay connected to my family during this tough time with the use of technology were at sky tree right now.

There's a shopping center called Solo and we're actually looking for a place to eat.

We're talking about the situation of the coronavirus right now.

And that was telling, Well, I kind of agree though because there's no restrictions here.

They're not even doing social distancing anymore places rarely.

Like I actually noticed it's not really reinforced.

There's actually like zero restrictions here.

I mean, even look at Halloween, Halloween was chaos.

There were no costume, Nobody was wearing a single costume.

There may be a few people that were costumes, but everybody was just about to be out.

As for the recent strong emotions, I've been feeling out of nowhere.

It goes deeper than just the virus and debates, which I will get to in this video in a moment.

But when it comes to feeling strong emotions like sadness or fear, that's okay, it comes in waves living abroad.

And the pandemic is I think making us all feel a little off.

I need some fresh air and we need to explore.

I like walking and seeing new things and I think that that'll help my mood a little bit.

They tell us important information in order to make shifts in our lives, so don't suppress them listen to them.

Would you like a grilled eggplant key chain?

How about ginger, This is why you can't lose weight in Japan.

I used to model these face masks sold worldwide during my time in Nagoya.

They still seem to use my face in every single ad and I still have footage from those days and it was a fun experience, but really, really exhausting and tedious.

They had to cut the masks because my face was way too small and I had to stand very, very still.

It wasn't a typical modeling job, but it was my first one.

So I did it for the experience and guess what?

The masks are still everywhere in Japan and a very good gift for friends and family.

I realized that the other day Japan is not my home either.

When I feel homesick, I question that this is even homesickness or not because it's so confusing.

You see when you live in another country for so so long, you build a life and that life becomes your home, but it's not really your home or is it confusing.

I know recently I've been itching to visit friends and family back home, but I can't and I think that the restriction of that brings about this homesickness feeling which does happen from time to time for every foreigner that lives here, it's no new feeling.

But what I mean is the last time I went back home I felt anxious and I felt far from home meaning Japan, I felt homesick for Japan, I'd wake up in my own bed and I'd panic, where am I?

So what I'm saying is I didn't even know which home was my home moment of truth.

I blame 2020, it's all your fault, it's all your fault doing it one more time.

This is probably taboo, but it was his money.

So this time it's mine that won't come out, this is a bad sign, it's not coming out Jonah, good fortune.

The universe heard me and I did it a second time and because I did that and didn't give up, I wasn't accepting the bad fortune, I was like no I can't accept this in my life and it happened.

You gotta believe in yourself, here's what I concluded home is your relationship with yourself when you know and understand yourself and who you are home can be anywhere.

And once I reminded myself this, I felt a sense of peace and homesickness doesn't mean you don't know who you are or you want to go home necessarily.

It means we have a need, the feeling of homesickness is telling us we have a need for connection.

I realize my lack of connection and spending time with friends here and the family I built in Japan has led me to feel this way.

So this sunday I scheduled time with friends and with that shift, the feeling of homesickness and not feeling like I belong anywhere will slowly begin to fade.

What an amazing husband, we are going to a cafe to work and get some stuff done because today is a public holiday, it's probably gonna be so busy, but it's a rainy cloudy day, so we'll see what happens.

Whoa, this is the first time that I'm working in a cafe in a really long time and I'm really excited and I feel like I'm gonna get a lot of work done, getting out of the house, getting ready has been tough for me.

Once I get into a flow with my projects, I forget to take breaks because well I don't want to, I'm gonna flow and having too much fun and this new life of working from home is very different from me and I'm still learning, but reality is my health part of my life by is a little bit out of balance and being aware of what's out of balance is going to allow me to take action.

This is what I talked about in my current program that I have been working on for quite a while now.

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America is Not my Home. (Story 5)

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