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  • I'm so sorry.

  • It's been such a long time since I've uploaded a video.

  • I'm sure some of you guys were worried about us

  • wondering if we were coming back or not.

  • But here we are.

  • As many of you may know

  • we returned to Japan from Malaysiain early April

  • and we received lots of criticism on our decision to do so.

  • Some of the comments were hateful

  • and it has taken me a while to digest it all.

  • Today, I wanted to let you know that we'll be uploading videos again

  • but also share with you what I've been feeling the last 4 months.

  • In June, I entered my 10th year on YouTube.

  • I've been doing this for quite some time,

  • but it's my first time experiencing anything like this

  • and I honestly didn't know how to deal with it or respond to it.

  • But this experience has made me

  • think deeply about what we do as creators in the public eye

  • having a lifestyle with no clear line between our professional and personal life.

  • We realize there are changes we need to make.

  • Looking back,

  • our decision to come back to Japan at that time was not an easy one to make.

  • and we discussed it thoroughly as a family.

  • We were in lockdown for almost a month in Malaysia,

  • but to avoid any risk during our travel

  • we were extremely cautious.

  • Luckily, there weren't many people in either of the airports

  • and we were able to maintain social distance throughout out trip.

  • But regardless, we wore our face shields and put on our windbreakers/rain jackets at the airport,

  • clothing that we could easily get out of

  • and too necessary safety measures.

  • After getting tested for COVID-19 at Narita Airport,

  • we avoided public transportation, and rented a car to get back home.

  • We received our test results via email. We tested negative.

  • And we spent the 2 week quarantine period at home.

  • We made sure to follow the rules and did all that we could to be safe

  • but as COVID-19 was starting to become serious in Japan

  • we knew we would receive some criticism.

  • But as a single human being

  • it was hard to take in the opinions of tens of thousands of people.

  • Some of the comments included things like

  • Don't you bring the virus here! People are dying because of you!

  • comments that made us feel like criminals.

  • Others told us to die, that they'd kill us, that we should be careful when we're out at night

  • comments that made us feel unsafe.

  • Some creators made hurtful videos about us.

  • Some people started making things up about us.

  • Attacking us with accusations with no grounds whatsoever.

  • It was hard.

  • I honestly didn't know how to go about sorting out my feelings,

  • but as I was battling all of my emotions, I came across this quote.

  • Open-minded people don't care to be right.

  • They care to understand.

  • Everything is about understanding.

  • What this quote made me realize

  • is that, in order to move on

  • I can't just keep defending what I think is right

  • but need to try to understand where people are coming from.

  • In the comments that we received

  • there were people who were genuinely worried about us

  • suggesting we stay in Malaysia for our own safety.

  • Some people objected because they cared.

  • Because it was such a hard decision for us

  • Because it was such a hard decision for us

  • we felt like we had to defend ourselves.

  • I'm sorry that we didn't have the emotional capacity at the time

  • to try to understand your situation or your feelings

  • or to try to consider why some of you might have said what you said.

  • I think that we came off as only caring about ourselves

  • and we feel terrible if we made any of you feel that way.

  • It was hard confronting all the different opinions we received

  • It was a scarring experience.

  • but it also made us realize the things that we need to work on going forth.

  • We will be going back to our regular uploads starting with the next video.

  • And this was also a difficult decision

  • but we've decided to turn off the comment section for the time being.

  • It's because of your supportive comments that I've come this far on YouTube

  • and because of your feedback that I've been able to grow as a creator.

  • So it was truly a hard decision to make,

  • but because of this incident we've been receiving lots of hate

  • and are being attacked for things we haven't even done.

  • It was really hard to read some of the comments

  • scary even.

  • I couldn't get myself to open my socials,

  • I couldn't even open YouTube.

  • I think these comments may have made some of you Chikatomos feel upset as well.

  • Furthermore, viewers began attacking each other

  • and it was no longer people expressing opinions, but expressing hate.

  • Seeing what's been happening

  • it's not safe nor healthy. and we felt we needed to do something about it.

  • so we've decided to close the comment section.

  • But that doesn't mean I don't want to hear from you!

  • Please send us your messages via the form linked in the description.

  • Please send us your messages via the form linked in the description.

  • Please send us your messages via the form linked in the description.

  • It's not as easy as commenting on YouTube

  • and it might be a bit of a hassle

  • but I hope to continue hearing from you there!

  • With so many different perspectives,

  • opinions and expectations,

  • I can't answer to it all.

  • In a world where you can't make everyone happy

  • what can you do?

  • You can believe in yourself.

  • I believe there's more I have to do

  • more I want to do

  • I believe there are people are waiting for our videos

  • and with that, we have to move forward.

  • We've been receiving messages of encouragement and support every single day.

  • Thank you guys so much for that!

  • We also want to thank those of you who showed us support for our decision

  • you really helped us get through a tough time.

  • Some of you have been asking about Pudding.

  • She is doing very well.

  • Watching her grow every single day has been extremely energizing

  • but exhausting at the same time lol I've been having a hard time keeping up.

  • No matter what situation you're in, kids are so joyful to watch

  • they make you smile

  • and bring so much laughter to your life.

  • To all of the Chikatomos around the world,

  • There's not a single person who hasn't been affected by what's been happening

  • Not just COVID-19, but natural disasters around the world,

  • problems of racism in our society,

  • tense international affairs,

  • Life is a lot to handle as is

  • and we've got these gigantic issues we're faced with.

  • Our situations and our problems, the scale of our problems may vary

  • but the one thing we have in common

  • is the importance of being positive

  • and creative.

  • We'll be uploading fun English videos for you guys again

  • and once the time comes, we hope to share our travels with you guys as well.

  • We will be uploading a new video soon!

  • Alright guys, thank you guys so much for watching!

  • The last little bit, I wanna share with you in English.

  • It's a difficult time for everyone all around the world.

  • Obviously, our problems and the size of our problems

  • vary among all of us.

  • But I think the one thing that we can agree on

  • is the importance of staying positive and being creative.

  • I think it's hard to see

  • what the future holds for us

  • with so many uncertainties right now.

  • But when you can't see the light

  • at the end of the tunnel,

  • you have to create one yourself

  • and light your way through the darkness.

  • I know that no matter what I say,

  • I can't make everyone happy

  • and there are always going to be varying opinions,

  • so all I can really do is to trust myself

  • and work towards the things that I believe in.

  • and that really is your light at the end of the tunnel.

  • What you believe in.

  • In a time when you are exposed to

  • so many different opinions

  • and so many voices,

  • it's so important to have your own voice

  • and trust that voice and move yourself forward.

  • Alright guys, thank you so much for watching!

  • So sorry that I haven't been able to

  • update you on my socials

  • and I know a lot of you were worried.

  • But we are back

  • and we're ready to start uploading videos

  • for you guys again.

  • We will have a new video coming out for you very soon.

  • Thank you guys so much for watching

  • and I will see you guys again soon.

  • Bye!

I'm so sorry.

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