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  • Both: Hello, lovely people! C: Oh, I did it wrong.

  • J: Oh, no!

  • J: You're the one person who should get this right.

  • Both: Hello, lovely people!

  • J: Aw, that was beautiful, thank you.

  • J: If you haven't been here before, I'm Jessica.

  • C: And I'm Claudia.

  • J: And this is the Pride Rewind Tag

  • which we got tagged in, by Annie.

  • C: Ooh, I see. J: Yeah, so we have to do it.

  • J: So we have to answer questions, then we have to tag C: Oh, I get it. Right.

  • J: ...other people C: Someone else.

  • C: Oh, I see. I was a little bit, "What is this?"

  • C: Yeah.

  • J: And we're doing it because it was Pride in London this weekend!

  • C: Woop!

  • C: We didn't go. J: No.

  • C: It was like 31 degrees

  • and England vs Sweden quarterfinal World Cup match was on as well.

  • J: Don't act like you care.

  • C: No! I'm saying it in the sense that it was going to be really busy in London.

  • J: Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah. C: So, yeah, no, we didn't go.

  • C: We are going to celebrate Pride in Brighton, which we do every year.

  • J: We are! On the 4th of August.

  • J: If you're going, let me know in the comments down below

  • because I can look out for you when I am watching...Britney!

  • J: Our Pride is the best Pride.

  • J: It has Britney.

  • C: I wouldn't go see Britney

  • C: ...but I think it's pretty amazing-- J: But you can't miss the opportunity to see Britney.

  • C: Yeah, it's pretty amazing she's going to be playing at Pride.

  • C: And, did you know? (J: What?) She shares my birthday.

  • J: Yes.

  • C: 2nd of December!

  • C: We're like birthday twins. J: And she gives you a birthday card every year.

  • C: Yeah! Last year's was really good.

  • J: Yeah, which...it's in no way sent by our friend Andrea.

  • C: No.

  • J: So, if you're new to our channel, we do various gay things

  • because...

  • J: you know, everything we do is gay. C: Yeah...?

  • J: Because we're gay. C: Where are you going with this?

  • J: Subscribe for gay stuff.

  • J: Also, I do other things

  • Like vintage stuff

  • but also disability and deafness stuff.

  • C: An educational channel.

  • C: Based around Jessica's perception of the world.

  • J: Jessica's fabulous perception.

  • J: Right, number one...

  • C: In terms of my sexuality? J: Well, I assume so!

  • J: You can go with your gender as well, if you like. C: I could go with my general identification.

  • C: I'm a cis-female;

  • I'm homosexual,

  • so I tend to just reference myself as being gay or lesbian;

  • I'm mixed race.

  • I have Chinese-Malaysian heritage, and English;

  • a young professional...

  • and I'm a British/UK citizen.

  • C: That's how I'd identify myself! J: I mean, that was thorough!

  • J: OK! Sure.

  • J: Able-bodied, that's the one that you missed there. C: And able-bodied! Yeah.

  • C: I was Christened, but I don't practice the Christian faith.

  • I would say I'm probably agnostic

  • but don't follow a particular religious order.

  • J: I am a cis-gender woman

  • (although I don't like really calling myself a woman because it makes me sound very adult,

  • so I just say female);

  • I am super gay.

  • Like 100%, all the way gay.

  • White.

  • I'm a Quaker, which is a religion

  • - you can Google it! No, I'm going to make a video about it, because everyone keeps asking.

  • C: And you're a British citizen J: I'm a British citizen!

  • J: Oh, I'm also deaf and disabled and I have a chronic illness.

  • J: And if you're wondering how I understand Claudia throughout this video, because many people ask that,

  • even though I have a video that tells you how I do this,

  • I lip read her.

  • C: Well, yeah, there's a screen that she-- J: There's also a screen.

  • C: There's a screen that we can watch.

  • J: Or a mirror when we're doing live streams.

  • C: Also, she is wearing a hearing aid, which helps undulation of the noise.

  • J: It does. It helps me know when you're talking.

  • J: But generally I just stare at you. C: Yeah.

  • J: Oh, we're married? Did we say that already?

  • C: That's not an identifi--is that an identification?

  • J: I identify as your wife. C: All right.

  • J: Like sometimes we say we're wifesexual.

  • J: OK, this is excellent.

  • J: Number two...

  • J: Marrying you.

  • J: I plastered one entire wall of my bedroom

  • with pictures of Eliza Dushku.

  • Some of which involved her in not a lot of clothing.

  • I was about ten.

  • J: My parents just had to go with it.

  • C: I had a similar sort of thing, I guess, with like

  • I didn't really realise this, but up until the age of my mid-twenties before I came out,

  • I had pictures of, like, nude women...

  • Painted nude women, not like, you know, Playboy pictures.

  • Like, tasteful...art work.

  • C: around my room-- J: Tasteful nudes!

  • C: Around my room, and I just thought it was because I was artsy and liked the female form.

  • C: But, yeah, looking back, people probably came into my room and were like, "Woah."

  • J: Yeah, she also watched The L Word obsessively. C: I also watched...yeah.

  • C: No, but I hid that from everyone because that would be too obvious.

  • C: From earlier on, when I was a teenager,

  • I got really obsessed with the girl

  • in the sixth form, who's like, you know, four years older than me

  • playing Henry Higgins from 'My Fair Lady'

  • J: Because...

  • J: It was a girl's school, if that wasn't obvious enough. C: Yeah, it was an all girl's school.

  • C: So, you know, when this girl who was pretty hot dressed up as a man, I was like

  • C: "Woah." J: "Yes."

  • C: "I feel things...down there."

  • C: I saw this play three times.

  • C: My sister went up to her and said, "My sister's obsessed with you

  • in My Fair Lady," and she was like, "Aw, that's so cute!"

  • C: And I was like, "Nooo!" J: That's not helpful!

  • J: There is always that older girl in school, isn't there?

  • J: Who you get obsessed with.

  • C: I can't even remember this girl's name; it was just Henry Higgins to me.

  • J: I have always been gay

  • but I didn't know that that was what being a lesbian was.

  • So when I was in primary school

  • I had incredibly intense feelings for some girls

  • in my class

  • and I just thought that was how you felt about a best friend, 'cause that's what everyone told me

  • and then there were some boys in the year that I mildly didn't dislike

  • J: So I was like, "I must fancy them, then."

  • I didn't realise that I was actually super gay

  • and that the word was "lesbian" for what I was feeling

  • until I saw an accidental video

  • that my parents had recorded late at night.

  • C: What was it? J: No, wait, that sounds terrible!

  • J: My parents had recorded this movie for me

  • and you know like on the old VCR players

  • you start it recording and then you just go to bed?

  • J: So it had recorded the movie and then it had recorded

  • the start of a show that was after it.

  • C: Oh, right, yeah. J: ...which had something to do with lesbians

  • C: Oooh. J: ...and involved two scantily clad women

  • J: ...in bed, and I was like "..."

  • C: How old were you? J: Still in primary school.

  • C: Oh, OK. I was trying to think what Drama that would've been, because there weren't that many Dramas on TV

  • C: that had lesbians. J: No, no, there weren't!

  • J: But I do--I do very clearly remember that

  • these two women were doing this and then one of their husbands walked in

  • and it was (obviously, obviously)

  • and it was all kind of brushed over.

  • J: Like this thing that had happened. C: Yeah, yeah, yeah.

  • J: They weren't really lesbians! It was fine!

  • C: They were just sexually frustrated because their husbands had been so distracted with the receptionist.

  • J: Yeah, her husband had been away! So she was like...

  • "Oh well, here's my best friend"

  • J: And then she actually said, "Oh, I'm not a lesbian"

  • J: Oh, but I am!

  • C: I don't know, I probably lived a lot of my, like...

  • you know, up until the age of like twenty in denial.

  • C: Because I was... J: I've seen pictures of you!

  • C: Yeah, I was a tomboy, so I liked playing with boys, but I was just like, "Well, I just like playing with boys

  • because they're more interesting - that doesn't make you gay."

  • C: And then, um... J: It doesn't make you gay, by the way.

  • C: But then we used to play role-plays in primary school. J: Who was the she?

  • C: Yeah. We used to play mummies and daddies, but privately in our own rooms

  • like at home, when we went round to each other's houses.

  • C: And I would put things down my pants so I had a bulge

  • and then we would hump - like dry hump each other.

  • C: We were only like eight-years-old!

  • C: But I was just like--oh, no, I did it with my other school friend as well.

  • Like, we always used to get quite sexy

  • and I'd always be the boy role -- there were boys in our school, but for some reason I did this.

  • And I guess maybe that was a bit like--I never really thought much of it, but I knew I wasn't like the other girls

  • All the other girls didn't wanna be the boy; they wanted to be the girl and they wanted to be the mummy,

  • whereas I was like stuffing things in my pants

  • and, like, dry racing against them.

  • J: Yeah... C: So I guess that was probably

  • C: ...something that I should have-- J: But that's also really interesting

  • C: But at the time I just kind of thought it was like

  • my normal development, you know?

  • J: Yeah. But then did you ever question your gender?

  • C: No. J: I think young lesbian girls

  • J: ...sometimes think, "Oh!"

  • J: You get--you kind of start thinking, "Wait, am I a boy?"

  • J: Because we get shown... C: No--yeah, yeah.

  • C: I never personally felt that I was in the wrong body or anything.

  • J: I think it's just because we see so many images of men and women

  • together that you think, "Oh, I fancy a girl"

  • "So in order to kiss a girl, I have to dress up like a boy"

  • C: When I was a bit more early secondary school, like Year 7 and 8,

  • I used to have some best friends, you know,

  • but also girls that I admired, but they weren't really like my best friends;

  • they were kind of like--occasionally, they'd be like,

  • "Do you wanna sit next to me in Biology?" and I'd be like, "Yeah!"

  • C: And then they'd sit next to me and they'd be like,

  • "Oh, can I borrow your gel pens?" and I'd be like, "...Yeah."

  • J: "Take them all." C: And then they'd borrow it and I would feel like

  • all these weird tingly feelings

  • watching them use my pen.

  • C: I probably should've caught on at this point.

  • C: I wasn't upset by it.

  • It didn't haunt me to the point that I had to question who I was.

  • C: And then I just followed the trend and went... J: Get a boyfriend.

  • C: "Oh, I'm gonna go out with boys now" and then...

  • You know, so then it wasn't until I got to sort of university age where I realised my sexuality.

  • J: I think what really helped me is that I had a gay aunt.

  • C: Yeah. J: So I knew that women could be together.

  • J: My Barbies would always be married to each other

  • and they would always be dating each other.

  • They'd always have the babies together.

  • J: So I think it really helps to have those representations.

  • C: Mm, I didn't have any gay role models

  • and I don't think I even really knew about gay people

  • as a child

  • because, you know, we're born in the 80s, Jessica and I,

  • it was condemned still.

  • J: Yeah!

  • C: And Margaret Thatcher was really quite aggressive towards it. J: Section 28!

  • C: So...

  • C: Your dad was best friends with, um... J: Yeah, my godfather was gay.

  • C: Yeah. Whereas my dad...

  • is a bit older

  • and my mum's from Malaysia, where it's still illegal.

  • So I think they were very closed.

  • C: Not--they're not homophobic, but, like,

  • it wasn't on the radar.

  • I don't think they even felt they needed to educate me and my sister about that.

  • J: And also I grew up in Quaker spaces, which are really

  • open and...

  • you see people of all different types.

  • C: Also, your parents are artists.

  • J: Yeah.

  • C: And there's always been a tradition of like

  • gender fluidity and sexual fluidity within the artist world.

  • J: I mean, I don't like when people say,

  • "Oh, the older generation. It's too much for them."

  • "This gayness." It's like...

  • there has always been gay people.

  • C: Yeah! Like the Bloomsbury Group J: It's ridiculous.

  • C: Yeah, exactly.

  • C: There's always gay people around.

  • C: Oscar Wilde?

  • J: Oo, the gays; we're everywhere, really.

  • J: Number four...

  • J: Did we just cover that?

  • C: Well, you've answered that already as well.

  • J: I mean... C: Eliza Dushku!

  • J: Yeah. Rogue. Animated Rogue from the X-Men.

  • C: Animated Rogue!

  • J: Yes. I was four. I told my parents that I loved her and I was gonna marry her.

  • J: Although I suppose we could just - let's just throw in all of our queer celebrity crushes.

  • C: Oh, OK, er... J: Piper Perabo.

  • J: She mentioned my name on Twitter the other day. C: Well...

  • C: When I first actually admitted it

  • would be, um...oh, what's her name?

  • C: Keeley Hawes, from 'Tipping the Velvet.' J: Oh, yeah.

  • C: Dana from 'The L Word.' I don't even know what her real name is.

  • J: But did you like her s a person or did you just like Dana?

  • C: I just liked Dana!

  • J: Any red-head in Hollywood. C: Well now I like--now I like any red-head, yeah.

  • C: Now I've realised I like all the red-heads.

  • C: It's like...Emily Blunt...

  • J: Julianne Moore. C: Julianne Moore, yeah.

  • J: Oh! We've reached the end. Number six...

  • J: Zoe Anne, you are tagged.

  • J: Allie and Sam. C: Oh yeah.

  • J: Rachel, HotPinkSun.

  • J: Who we just had the most amazing time with.

  • J: At VidCon.

  • J: And number four is Rowan Ellis!

  • C: Anyway, I hope we answered your questions!

  • C: Satisfactorily. J: I hope you have enjoyed this video.

  • C: Hope we didn't waffle on too much.

  • J: Oh, no, I think we did well. C: Oh, OK, good.

  • J: We're gonna have a barbeque because it's so nice and hot.

  • C: Yeah, I'm gonna go make some burgers.

  • J: So I hope you've enjoyed this video.

  • J: If you are new here, please subscribe to our channel

  • because it's great!

  • And I love meeting new people.

  • C: If you are a regular and you also love supporting the channel,

  • then why not think about becoming a sponsor?

  • J: Oh, yes! Or "channel member," as YouTube have now decided to call it.

  • C: Oh, is that what it is?

  • C: The Kellgren-Fozard Club!

  • J: Yes, which is us.

  • J: The Kellgren-Fozards.

  • C: Where we release extra special footage

  • C: and... J: Yeah, a new video every month!

  • Both: Bye!

Both: Hello, lovely people! C: Oh, I did it wrong.

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