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  • Hey guys, it is Saturday.

  • And I am gonna take myself on a date.

  • Even though I pride myself on being very like

  • independent and good at being alone

  • I realized it's been a really long time

  • since I've just spent some good old-fashioned time with myself.

  • I realized recently that I have this kind of guilt complex

  • around actually spending time doing nice things for myself

  • I feel like I always have to be working towards something else

  • whether that is making videos, taking photos,

  • doing my laundry ...

  • There has to be some like productivity angle to it

  • Or I have to be doing it with somebody else.

  • In the past

  • I've been through my fair share of tinder dates,

  • and honestly, I think part of the reason I found it so fun

  • was that it was an excuse for me to actually relax and treat myself

  • because like "Oh, of course

  • I'm gonna ,you know, spend 15, 20 bucks on dinner."

  • "Of course, I'm gonna take the night off "

  • " Of course, I'm gonna stay up till like 3:00 a.m."

  • Because I'm on a date with somebody.

  • Obviously, of course

  • I enjoy getting to know people too,

  • but I don't know, it gave me this excuse

  • to actually fucking relax for once.

  • Something I've been thinking about recently is,

  • I guess, feeling afraid to lose myself in a relationship.

  • When you spend that much time with somebody,

  • it can be so easy to slip into a pattern of, you know

  • every weekend or every free weeknight

  • It's kind of like reserved for that person

  • At every concert or movie or new restaurant that you want to try out

  • Also feels like it has to be experienced with that person

  • Of course, those things are great to experience with somebody else

  • but sometimes I feel like I've put my life on hold a little bit too much for a relationship

  • and I need to feel confident again doing stuff by myself.

  • Okay. So the first thing I'm gonna do and I'm aware that

  • this is a little bit offbeat, is going to an open house.

  • Do I have the intent of actually buying this house?

  • NO.

  • Do I have the money to afford a real estate in Los Angeles?

  • Absolutely fucking not.

  • But I have this kind of addiction to Zillow and every single morning,

  • I check all of beautiful houses that are available in LA

  • and just like dream about living there

  • So I've never been to open house before.

  • Honestly, I don't know whether it's rude to show up and not actually intend to buy the place but like,

  • I just want to see it because it's a really adorable house

  • and maybe like 50 years from now

  • I'll finally be able to afford to live there.

  • So yeah that's what we're doing now.

  • After circling outside the house for like 15 minutes trying to work up the nerve to actually go inside

  • I finally conquered my fear and checked the place out

  • Turns out I was the only person there,

  • which was what I was afraid of

  • But the real estate agent was actually really nice

  • and even showed me what renovations some of the neighbors had done with their similar houses

  • All of this is probably sounding like the weirdest (?) shit

  • Like, why the hell would you actually spend your Saturday looking at old houses, Ashley?

  • But like, I don't know, it makes me really happy.

  • I like looking at real estate

  • Okay. I just got back from the open house.

  • And honestly, it was kind of a fun time

  • cuz I'm just like a nerd for real estate and I want to learn more about it

  • But yeah, really not as scary as I thought.

  • Next I'm gonna go to a plant store

  • Yes, I have so many fucking plants in my apartment

  • I think I have over 50 at this point,

  • but going to this plant store is like my happy place

  • Sorry! Go ahead !

  • (kewt laugh)

  • This is what I want my apartment to look like one day, by the way.

  • Just pure unadulterated plants.

  • Right now, I am just sitting in a random corner of my favorite plant store.

  • This is Mickey Hargitay plants

  • I believe it's how you call it.

  • This is my favorite little plant shop in Hollywood

  • I stop by here everytime I go to Home Depot

  • because it's on the way

  • and also just other times when I'm not going to Home Depot

  • and I like to indulge my unhealthy obsession with buying plants

  • Even though I love living in LA

  • I think living in a city and not being around nature does end up taking its toll.

  • When I was growing up in Maryland,

  • All I wanted to do was move to a city to be surrounded by buildings.

  • And recently,

  • I went home and realized how much fucking green I was surrounded by my entire childhood

  • There's just forests everywhere where I grew up.

  • So coming here is kinda like a two-in-one :

  • It's my retail therapy and it's also a dose of my little natural, quiet oasis in the city

  • ~ calm music playing ~

  • I've wanted a cactus for my apartment for so long , they're so adorable.

  • But my apartment has one north-facing window and it doesn't get any direct sunlight.

  • So I'm afraid my cactus would shrivel away

  • Honestly, it's probably for the best anyway,

  • because knowing how fucking clumsy I am

  • I would probably like trip and fall

  • and prick myself on my own fucking cactus (relatable)

  • (not gonna lie this joke cracked me up real hard)

  • Okay, what I actually came here to get

  • are some carnivorous plants,

  • because while I was going to New York

  • I think the flies like, bred in my apartment.

  • That is partially or completely my fault

  • for forgetting to wash the dishes before I left for two weeks to go to New York

  • and when I came back,

  • all of the flies were munching on my dishes.

  • Yes. I am incredibly bad at being a real adult (aren't we all, girl don't be so harsh on yourself)

  • So anyways, I'm gonna get some pitcher plants

  • which will hopefully eat all of my flies.

  • - Sorry :'))

  • (Ashley talking to a stranger is so ~kawaii~)

  • - $30.66

  • I always pass this store.

  • I think it's the most absurd thing.

  • It is an entire like 2,000 square foot store

  • that only sells ...

  • food for dogs !

  • Next I headed to The Grove,

  • which is an outdoor shopping mall in LA,

  • so bougie that they play Michael Buble all year round, even when it's not Christmas

  • - Yeah yeah, sure

  • Here's a quick peek into my fashion obsessed brain

  • as I shop around for shoes

  • So I was inspired by the shape of this funky bendy heel

  • I always love a good ankle strap, but I love how this heel also flares out at the bottom

  • Apparently I'm really into cool heel shapes nowadays

  • These shoes would be so cute with like tan or white socks underneath and like a corduroy skirt

  • if they didn't cost like ...

  • EIGHT HUNDRED and FORTY FIVE FUCKING DOLLARS !

  • I love the vintage wallpaper-esque floral lining on these shoes.

  • This is such a cool color combination

  • I love the exaggerated bows on these shoes

  • and oh my gosh this silhouette of these boots

  • I don't even know how to put it into words, but the tight ankle, the chunky heel.

  • I don't know

  • They're just such a cool silhouette.

  • Oh, I didn't see you there.

  • Welcome to my kitchen !

  • It is just about dinnertime

  • and I am one hungry hungry hippo.

  • Originally I was gonna go and take myself to a restaurant

  • because I think it's really stigmatized to eat alone at a sit-down restaurant and

  • I wanted to show you guys that that's totally okay to do

  • but honestly today I just didn't feel like eating out.

  • First of all,

  • I didn't want to spend like $25

  • on a meal in LA at a nice restaurant

  • and second of all, after I go outside for a couple hours

  • I kind of just want to be alone

  • and like recharge in the silence of my apartment.

  • So yeah, I'm gonna get cooking.

  • I'm gonna drink some wine, put on a playlist.

  • I decided to go for my leftover mango champagne from last night

  • Mmm, gourmet.

  • Is that an oaky undertone?

  • *sizzling*

  • *fire alarm goes : "BEEP BEEP" *

  • Hello and welcome to my romantic dinner for one

  • I have this delicious meal of chicken with vegetables

  • That are both just seasoned with salt and pepper

  • and I got real fancy and I threw on

  • one splash of prepackaged lemon juice

  • I would have done more,

  • but I didn't want to embarrass Gordon Ramsay by completely outdoing his chef skills ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

  • Real talk,

  • can we appreciate how much this looks like the stock photo on the menus of Red Robin?

  • I even lit this ...

  • fresh linen candle, for the full effect.

  • Nothing says romance like the smell of laundry.

  • And my wine pairing with this fine, fine meal is