Name: We Broke Up.
Uploaded: 2020-03-07T00:06:45.000Z
Duration: 17 min 16 s
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hey guys.. I don't even know how to do this intro. I never thought the day would

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come where I'd be sitting here talking about this.. we've tried to film this ten

times now and I've cried every single time and.. we are a few weeks in of me and

don't even know where to begin there's no easy way to say this but we did break

up. I've used a lot of this time of silence to just try to heal you know

we're both in a state of shock I'm devastated I'm so sad and the love

of my life is no longer wait I don't I don't wake up to him anymore he's no

longer here every morning and my routines have changed and I'm just in a

state of shock right now we both are but I really wanted to take some time

for myself I was really emotional there was so many things happening in my head

and you know this isn't like an Internet fight this isn't drama

this isn't T this is my real life and me and my soul mate are really going

through it and we're both we've both been through so much the last few years

so I know a lot of you are really shocked I'm shocked and I feel like I

only want an explanation because Nathan and I have grown with each other in

front of all of you and I can't believe he's not here right now but I do want to

share what's been going on and I do want to talk to you guys first of all I know

I've been radio silent on social media I want to say thank you to every single

person that has sent me well wishes not knowing what's going on now the Internet

is brutal and I've learned a lot from not being on my phone the last few weeks

this this is hard to say my soulmate is no longer with me and it's been so hard

the last thing I ever wanted to do was stay on camera but me and him have

filmed so many videos together we've traveled the world together I and I just

want to put this on record that nathan is the only man that I've ever been in

love with and I know he's not here today but he wanted to say hi and sent his

look to everyone it's been difficult because Nathan never wanted to be in the

spotlight right we fell for each other when we met how we felt for each other

so hard and I'm grateful for him and I'll be grateful until the day I die

because this was the only man that was ever confident enough to love me

publicly to love me for me fully all my flaws no make up waking up in bed to

full-on like you know what I mean like he never cared about any of it and he

just loved me for me and no man has ever had those feelings I don't think for me

and I've never loved someone like I've loved him and I've talked about this

before but people used to always keep me the secret ten years ago you guys it was

not how it is today there was so many people afraid there was dude Zach would

be in love with me but they were afraid what their families would say or people

in their life and I would always get shut out and shut

down and when Nathan entered my life I was jaded I was angry I was just hurting

my company and I was on a whole new journey and life God whatever you guys

want to call it or believe in out there put him in my life for a reason and he

changed me he changed me for the better and that's why I'm so appreciative of

him because he showed me how to love myself he showed me how to love people

in my life better just for loving me for who I am

and I had never had that before I was always the secret and he changed my

world so the fact that we're no longer together I know it's really shocking to

a lot of you I want to say thank you to every single person that has reached out

I checked social media here and there but it was really rough and I got to say

that it's been insane people trying to get information okay like this sounds so

horrible but imagine you're breaking up with someone anyone out there watching

this if you've lost the love of your life if you've broken up with someone if

you've had a divorce if you've had a nasty breakup if you've had a calm

normal breakup but you lost someone that you were really in love with then you

know what I'm going through I do want to say that my mother is okay right now but

there was a fake story that she passed away and my mom was calling me like what

the hell imagine your own mother wakes up to say

a news article that she's not no longer with us I

on top of going through this stuff with Nathan my mom is okay but she's not

great right she's she lives in this beautiful home now so happy that a lot

of my family are with me and I'm gonna spend every day with her until it's her

laughs so I don't know what is gonna happen with my mom this year it's very

touch-and-go she's okay right now but um it was scary to see people just make

stuff up also my grandmother okay 102 years old grandma Mary's not doing

well at all and I need to see her soon before it's too late so there's already

all that stuff going on and then Oh sex part really kills me to say but we've

had family try to reach out to the media to make money off of me and Nathan's

breakup I don't even how to process that we're

over here heartbroken dealing with our emotions dealing with things behind the

scenes and off camera and there's family trying to tell the media fake stories

get money out of it there's people that I haven't spoken to in years even before

meeting Nathan that are trying to talk about us how can you talk about someone

you've never met it's been a lot so I want to say this it's 20/20 okay we're

gonna start things off fresh I'm starting this year off alone and I can't

even believe I'm saying that I'm so devastated but I'm strong and you guys

know that me and Nate had been through so much together and there's no crazy

gossip there's no tea this is actually really important and I don't think that

enough celebrities influencers people with a platform talk about and that's

mental health a few years ago Nathan lost his grandfather in a very tragic

we lost two dogs last year and we lost diamond on the fifth in the summer and

daddy on October 6 so this week has been horrible the fifth and the sixth are

always really really tough for us and daddy only passed away three months ago

diamonds been seven eight months and we still haven't even fully processed that

you know he hasn't even processed his grandfather yet we haven't processed our

dogs fully because this lifestyle is so crazy and we're always on to the next

thing filming the next thing me and him have never just sat down and processed

our emotions we're both broken and we were both so busy being there for each

other that we forgot to be here for ourselves and that's what 20/20 is is

focusing on our own selves me and Nathan are friends I feel like I need to say

that because I flick the internet spirals and create so many false stories

me and Nathan will be friends forever I will always have love for him are we in

love with each other no but we love each other and he will always be in my life

he know I know a lot of you were like Geoffrey you just uploaded in a house

tour and I know a lot of you were like Nathan seemed kind of off in the videos

you guys Nathan never loved being on camera you can replay all of our videos

he loved being behind the scenes he never wanted to be famous he never

wanted to be in the spotlight he never wanted attention but he loved and

believed in everything I was doing and was a part of it because I asked him to

so you know he deleted all this social media a month or two ago and a lot of

people wanted to make stuff about like you know stuff up about that you guys

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