the smallest amount

of what it's like in my brain.

[WHEN THE PARTY'S OVER PLAYING]

♪ I could lie Say I like it like that

♪ Like it like that ♪

[CROWD SCREAMING]

[SINGING YOU SHOULD SEE ME IN A CROWN]

WOMAN: My Invisalign has...

MAN: I have taken out my Invisalign...

WOMAN: I have taken out my Invisalign

and this is the album.

[BOTH LAUGHING]

♪ I could lie Say I like it like that♪

WOMAN: ...to really relate to our generation.

Anytime I'm creating anything, I'm thinking

about the video, I'm thinking about the artwork

and about the colors and about the way that it's gonna feel

and the way it's gonna look

and how people are going to perceive it.

I grew up as a dancer,

and as someone who just wanted

to make a movie out of every single thing I saw

and everything I heard.

And the fact that, like, people do that

to my art is just insane to me.

♪ Quiet when I'm coming home ♪

I think visually, first, with everything I do.

And also I have synesthesia,

so everything that I make,

I already am thinking of what color it is,

and what texture it is,

and what day of the week it is,

and what number it is and what shape.

We both have it and so we think about everything this way.

Bury a Friend is just...

Billie...

BILLIE: ...dark, black, gray, brown.

Everything dark, like anything creepy.

Xanny is smooth and silky, maybe velvet.

MAN: Like smoke?

BILLIE: Yeah, like if you could feel smoke.

Ooh!

Smoke is one of the most beautiful things in the world.

CROWD: Billie! Billie! Billie!

[UPBEAT MUSIC PLAYING]

I remember I went through a phase

where I just would watch music videos without the sound

so that I could just see the art of the video

and not actually listen

to whether the song was good or bad.

So, I just was surfing YouTube

when I just was watching videos as I do.

I watch music videos... Whenever I have time,

I just watch everybody,

like random-ass artists that I've never heard of

with 100 views or whatever music videos.

And I found this one,

and I didn't have the sound on.

So, I couldn't hear what the f...[BLEEP] the song was about.

I couldn't hear what it sounded like,

what kind of song it was, anything at all.

And I'd never heard of the artist before.

So it was super.

I was just completely blind to it

and it was like one of the sickest videos

I've ever seen in my life.

It was this video called Nasty.

It was a song called Nasty by this artist, Parris.

But the thing is, I just feel like

you should be able to watch a video without the sound

and have it be just as touching.

I feel that way with songs and production, too.

I say this all the time, which is that,

if you were to play a song acoustically,

without any of the production,

and you can't make it sound good,

it's not, like, a song.

It's fun to move to and dance to,

but it's like, sometimes, I feel like production can make a song.

The only reason a song is good is because the beat is good.

[UPBEAT MUSIC PLAYING]

When I have a crazy dream,

or if I just have a thought in the middle of the night...

I will sit up,

whether the light is on or whether the light is off.

I'll sit up

and I'll just write whatever I'm thinking or whatever I just dreamt about.

That's a whole series of thoughts.

This is all just things I've thought about. These are designs.

This is like the way I feel like my brain looks is that.

Like this whole world, I guess.

And so, I'll wake up in the dark.

I've literally written things and drawn things in the dark

in the middle of night.

'Cause I'll just sit up and grab that and just go

because it'll fade.

And it's the same with this notebook.

Anything I think...

Sometimes I'll have a dream

where it's just like, I can't explain it

so, I just draw exactly what I'm thinking.

So, whatever that is,

that was just me drawing the way that my brain felt.

With Bury a Friend,

this is just a hotel hall, and that's the angle I wanted.

And I couldn't...

I didn't know how to describe that angle to anyone.

So, I just drew what I wanted the camera to see.

That's the only way I can communicate,

is with visuals.

Billie's showing me a video of eels eating a pizza.

[LAUGHING]

[LOUD MUSIC PLAYING]

[CROWD CHEERING]

I just...

I don't know.

I just need people to know how important this s...[BLEEP] is to me.

All of it. The videos are so, so important to me.

I work really f...[BLEEP] hard on the videos,

and the treatments and the ideas, and the days of shooting.

[UPBEAT MUSIC PLAYING]

The most important to me is just everything. [LAUGHS]

And like everything goes together,

so, it's not like videos is one random thing

and then this music is the other random thing.

They have to go together, they have to be one.

[TAPE REWINDING]

Lord.

[I LIKE WHEN YOU GET MAD PLAYING]

♪ I like when you get mad

♪ I guess I'm pretty glad that you're alone

♪ You said she's scared of me?

♪ I mean, I don't see what she sees

♪ But maybe it's 'cause I'm wearing your cologne

♪ I'm a bad guy

♪ I'm a bad guy

♪ Bad guy, bad guy

♪ I'm a bad ♪