Name: Starting Over at 30 | quitting corporate with @TaylorBell, sidequest era, I got a dog ?
Uploaded: 2024-08-18T08:46:47.000Z
Duration: 16 min 43 s
Description: Thousands of YouTube videos with English-Chinese subtitles! Now you can learn to understand native speakers, expand your vocabulary, and improve your pronunciation...

Adverbs of degree

hey y'all it's chloe it's been six months since the corporate apocalypse and life has been the wildest it's ever been in a good way i'd say a little life check-in ever since my product management course was launched i've been pretty busy making sure everything looks good working with the team i've also launched my podcast jomo with my buddy eric thank you for tuning in by the way i know a lot of you nico's are watching and i've been very intentionally deciding how i'm spending my gap year without it letting it slip through my fingers you know i'm also a manager now i have hired people on my team this year has been really interesting because it's a year where i can do anything but i can't do everything and it honestly has thrown me into quite a loop one trait i don't love about myself is that i am greedy as like i want to do it all and it's never realistic and i'm scared i'm never doing enough you know stop i'm scared i'm not doing enough i'm also scared i'm not resting enough and i want a dog on top of it all my therapist tells me that there are two ways to relieve this feeling of not doing enough one is just do more and then that feeling temporarily subsides until it reoccurs the second way is to reassure myself physically and emotionally that i am safe or at least safer than i think i am and that there is no big risk here and i am okay i know a lot of y'all have similar thoughts i see you in my dms and comments and if you could use a little support i'd love to introduce you to someone better help the world's largest therapy service and the sponsor of today's video if you've never tried therapy i highly highly recommend it i've been going for six years now i'd say amongst my friends i give some pretty based advice but all i'm actually doing is regurgitating whatever my therapist tells me i feel like i've developed pretty strong muscles for my emotional and mental health over the last six years but i would say finding the right match for you it's harder than it seems and that is where better help comes in they match you with a licensed professional usually within 48 hours based on your information and if it's not working out you can switch therapist whenever you want however many times you want with no penalties check out betterhelp.com slash chloe she or choose chloe she during sign up they gave us a 10 discount for the very first month thank you better help for sponsoring now on to the video hello y'all we have a special guest today hello it is this one how's it going hey uniqlo's wow how are you turtle gang i thought it would be interesting for us to talk about life after corporate because both of us worked in the corporate world let's talk about it the scene and behind it taylor and i met last year yep when i hosted a discord event and then you saw it and then you registered and i was like no way no way i watched taylor you were the best i remember meeting you in the driveway you were immediately open to me like i watch your content oh hell yeah i love you you're great and then oh i just yeah kind of hit it off since then chloe crushed the event you crushed it you were up to like what 3 a.m the night before putting together the presentation oh my god yeah i want to throw up you did so well like presented to how many people colin and samir and then just like dozens of creators it was a lot taylor was a consultant and then now you're a full-time youtuber yes i am in new york what is your roses thorns and buds and things that you were looking forward to the rose was like being surprised like very pleasantly surprised at how welcoming and like not gatekeeping almost all of the creators that i've met kept as friends are i guess the other side to this that i was really worried about was like not having a community of people who were also like in the business world but also content creators a couple years ago i felt like there weren't that many another major rose is just like feeling like it's worked out where i can wake up at whatever time i want every single day and i make myself work because i love it so it's not it's not hard it's still hard work but it's i love doing it also to have 100 ownership over something versus in consulting i could kind of hide behind my manager and other consultants there's diffused responsibility thorn i think that every youtuber goes through a mini existential crisis every like three months where it's like what are we doing how is this what we do for a living do i suck like what's going on like what did i go to prestigious university for why did i study business there's not as clear of a path which is as exciting as it is stressful do you feel that i think it's a little different because i had a like a quarter-life crisis oh my god what do i do in a fearful way but now it's like oh my god what do i do but in an excitement like a choose your own adventure like which adventure should i choose i hear what you're saying too and in some ways it's also my butt exactly same thing i see three kind of different paths or like opportunities i could jump at next wait is that your only bud i'm sure there are more buds but that is the main one it's like similarly sorry would you ever go back to corporate at most i would join a startup i know so many people say that like i can't work for anybody i don't know after working for myself for like quite a while now a startup is like as close to corporate as i could go back to and still feel excited to wake up what is your creative bucket list like naturally the million subscribers would be really cool thanks that'd be sick but that's no easy task like oh my gosh at the same time it's it's a number at the end of the day the thing that is the most fulfilling is having such a strong audience that love watching me and you know hopefully feel happy with what i make and all that what else merch yeah i absolutely will do merch at some point what about you what are your creative milestones oh uh this year is to do a 30 lessons by 30 before i turn 31 so when you do that when's your birthday november 16th you have some time yeah i want to produce a music video that's right did you write it um my friend wrote it it's a vibe that's sick i'm excited to hear it well thanks for hanging out dude thanks for having me everyone go check her out oh it shocks we're at justin's house recording today i've been recognized oh i've been recognized yeah oh i've been recognized wow that was so cool this is really good we're on our way what do people want?

oh i said what do people see what do people want?

yeah that was good looking on me that was good hello we are now on our way to the offline tv cafe pop up i'm really excited i think there are some friends who are going to be there lena's going to be there eric's going to be there i think i gun drop jamie will go they'll say hi this is the outfit it's a little preppy i love cafe days i'm a sucker i'm a slut for a cute cafe we're at the event and next to me is my pickleball partner yes let me be known as chloe's pickleball partner obviously not anything else not known for anything else i'm peak peak we got a lily pad matcha and then i got a banana milk avocado drink drink hello we're now back home i finished showering put this vitamin c thing on today was really eventful i hung out with lily, lily pichu and her dog temi and temi is actually the cutest dog i've seen i think about her she's so cute she's such a good dog you know that was awesome then steven and i talked a lot i basically pitched him my dream series that i want to do with him i mentioned this on the joma podcast but i really want to produce a show which is basically the office and ted lasso but asian steven he would be in it and i feel like he would be a really great manager and i would be a side character where i'm like the agretsuko type character i'm like really competent and if people ask me for favors i get really angry and savage maybe it might happen, he'd really love the idea we'll see and then i met iman, pokimane and that's the first time i've actually met her we've overlapped in our circles quite a bit and she was so sweet it was awesome talking to her i'm actually friends with her previous agent hannah hannah is taking sabbatical so after the event i called up hannah hannah said a lot of amazing things for me i've been going through it for some reason and putting a lot of anxiety and pressure on myself so it was really nice to have hannah's gut check i'm like hey look you're doing incredible keep doing it i'm feeling my spark reignite from today's experiences and i'm gonna continue to build things that i love this is buddy a.k.a budrick he goes by bud hi buddy hi aww buddy has been acquired hey bud you're gonna go home now oh my god we have a new family member home oh my god we have a new family member home oh my god we have a new family member home hi oh my god here he is here's buddy hi buddy i'm dying hello we are heading out to eric's birthday and then this is the first time we're leaving buddy at home i hope he's gonna be okay i'm so sad to leave him he's barking upstairs but i got eric's gift so we're headed out to dinner let us go okay we have to go for him to grow up we have to go hello i hope you can hear me we just parked and in the greatest plot twist ever i mean i knew it was coming but in the car on the way here i got a text message from the adoption center that someone wants to adopt buddy i know i'm just a foster mom and i know this is the stupidest thing ever but i really love buddy but i just didn't think it would happen this fast i literally went on r slash dogs and then the title was like depressed because my foster dog got adopted and that's me i'm gonna spend a lot of time with buddy tonight what's up justin justin i have something to tell you buddy's getting adopted by you? no by someone else that fast? yeah i just got the text are you okay? i'm emotionally processing it oh chloe i got the text saying someone who wants to adopt him can you send us your report wait could you just send a report that says he sucks? yeah he sucks worst dog ever took a shit on my pillow immediately no oh i like this i don't know what that is why is that robot named Blake found the place what am i doing aw this is so cute a shopping trip with kira and chloe so that i can learn how to dress myself now that you're single again here we go again every year i love each and every one of you it means the world you make life worth living so thank you happy birthday a card happy birthday i just want to remember this happy birthday content i just want to remember it my first birthday party oh i love you eric thank you hi eric just getting some quick footage happy birthday to you i'm now 33 years old not a drop of botox we are back from eric's birthday it is around 1am and for the last 1 or 2 hours kevin and i have been in deep conversation about what to do with buddy i've been emotionally distraught i think the biggest thing holding us back is whether or not i can commit to buddy you know i'm kind of in my grind era i've got a lot of projects i really want to do sometimes i have to leave at a moment's notice just look at him buddy we did a whole pros and cons list the pros are buddy is 1 years old and he is crate trained and potty trained he's also really chill he doesn't really bark and he just loves like hanging out he kind of goes limp likes to curl up and sit right here like a little baby the cons are he has some separation anxiety he can't really stay in a room without us so he's always in the same room and when we leave he does bark we also weren't expecting to have a dog like this he's a really scruffy grandpa budrick i just don't know if i will meet another dog like him like he's just so chill i don't have to go through the 6 months of puppy training he's kind of ugly cute this is just his face, that's it nothing else so i asked a bunch of people at eric's dinner more than half the room said i should adopt him but there are also people who have adopted themselves the other part of the room said don't do it because there will be other dogs that will come this might be the last video you see of buddy but she likes it very much she's shown the capability and she's shown the desire for it as well i don't know, just look at his face dude he knows we're gonna let him go he knows it and i know he's gonna go to a good family okay so i've talked to my mom and my dad my friend justin who has a dog as well my brothers and kevin most importantly and i'm still absurdly torn about buddy so here's what we're gonna do, we're gonna flip a coin this is a chip, one side has tape and one side does not and the side with tape is the one where we're gonna say we're gonna adopt buddy and we see how we feel about it apparently this is a technique where it shows you your true intentions it's on the tape side, which means adopt well how do you feel?

my first thought was oh yes, my second thought is oh no buddy, do you want me as your mama?

okay well i'm going to let you choose one hand has the chip and the other hand does not and you have to decide which hand the one with the chip means that you want me to adopt you okay?

 pick one oh he licked this one buddy i asked the foster contact if i can still adopt him and unfortunately they sent me this message which is i can't because there's a whole wait list and that all they can do is put me on the wait list and it's very likely i won't have him because he's so well behaved i'm pretty sure he'll get adopted buddy will go to a good home i hope you'll miss us, i hope buddy will think of these times fondly no i'm pretty sure buddy will forget but that's okay, that's good you won't feel pain, you will just love your new owner you're the sweetest dog i've ever met in my life kindest, cuddliest, most chillest dog i have been blessed to meet you and i hope you continue to live a great life budrick, his name is sir budrick costumes have arrived for him he's so slow oh you're such a good delivery man hello come on over what's up budsters you're so empty looking how do you feel about buddy leaving us he was a good boy he brings a lot of joy to the house i will miss him my first foster dog thank you for watching i love you