Worried about what'd happen.

It was so fun yet so scary.

It was exhilarating.

Your vibes made my sensors beep.

If I quit now, I'd only be halfway to my goal.

I was pondering on what acting was about.

Ready?

- I guess. - I'm nervous too.

Okay.

[Rie Miyazawa X Ruri Mito]

When we try to start to express something,

we don't use only words to do it.

How do we let out and use the energy we have?

Without using words.

There was some sort of common language.

When we met for the first time on day one,

I felt something deep within.

I wouldn't describe it as ambition.

But if there was such a category,

it'd probably be in the same group.

That was how I felt.

Thank you.

You're too kind.

I would say...

There was a part of me

that was putting up a front.

I had an earnest attitude.

My first thought was I have to do this.

That was how it was.

But when I got to meet you,

that just came apart instantly.

I could say what I wanted to say.

It was easy to talk to you.

Yes, like what I mentioned before,

I went home happy that day.

It was amazing.

- I'm glad. - Yes.

Now, I feel like we were destined to meet.

I kind of sensed we're pretty similar.

In terms of the driving force of our way of expression.

Like what I told you during your makeup time just now.

That anger and sadness?

I think we have that in common.

How should I put it?

When I act,

I don't go all shiny and positive and say "Come, let's go!"

It's like magma.

That thing.

I don't know if it's anger or sadness.

But I want to go to a place that's not here.

I want to keep on questioning

the current me.

Words like anger, sadness, and despair, are certainly not positive expressions.

Starting from there and passing through many places.

Those experiences are linked to the movement of my body.

When I first met you...

- You felt that? - Yes.

You were smiling and you were kind when you spoke.

But I just knew something wasn't right.

I knew it from the start.

- Oops. - Yeah.

It was so obvious.

But that's what made me trust you.

Knowing that you're a reliable person

gave me a strong sense of security.

Even after the shoot ended, I was still thinking about it.

We do have that in common.

I somewhat sensed it.

I had the impression you were definitely nothing like me.

Why?

It just felt odd.

You know, right?

Yes, but...

I had no idea what you were carrying inside when we first met,

but I just knew there was a burden.

You didn't say anything,

but I could tell from your vibes.

My sensors were beeping.

Really? Beeping?

It's the best way to describe it.

When I was young as a biracial kid,

I looked different from others.

There weren't many biracial kids around.

It may be surprising, but I was bullied.

Yes, my heart was closed to the world then.

At that time,

someone approached me to do modeling for the first time.

I didn't model because it was my dream.

I did it because I wanted to escape from my situation.

With that, I went to the studio to take pictures for documents.

It wasn't much, but I put on makeup for the first time.

The makeup artist told me my hair was very pretty.

My mom and relatives praised my hair before,

but I never had a stranger said they like my hair.

I think I was 10 or 11 then.

At that moment,

I remember even now how my heart just bloomed.

Then I stood in front of the camera and had my ID kind of picture taken.

When they shined the light on me and took my picture,

everybody was telling me how beautiful and wonderful I looked.

Those words became a part of me.

Letting others know my presence.

That's still relevant today and it's a driving force in my life.

It's the core.

For me,

I got into dance because my teacher in preschool said my body is flexible

and suggested that I try out dancing.

So I visited a nearby dance school.

Apparently, I said I wanted to do it immediately.

That's how it all started.

After that, it became my everything.

That's the only way to describe it.

In elementary school, I wrote that my dream was to be a dancer.

I see.

I didn't think of anything else but that.

It's not like I couldn't, but I just didn't think about it.

I just went to my dance lessons.

I guess I was determined to be a dancer.

I continued until now

without giving it much thought.

To put it in a cool way,

I was born to dance.

But...

I can't say for sure.

I think I was probably just not interested in anything else.

When this project was first announced,

things were really vague when we started.

We were asked to give ideas.

Since I was taking part in this piece of work,

I had thoughts about how I wanted to present some parts.

As more ideas were gathered,

parts of me surfaced during the meeting.

Both the good and bad parts.

The emotions within me

and the conversation that was going on internally.

Those things don't often come out in acting.

Since I was doing this with you, I had the idea to bring them out.

There are many facets to humans.

In Japan, we tend to treat the description "two-faced person"

as a bad thing.

But there's no limit to the number of faces humans have.

When I was acting,

I tried my best to search for

the "face" that best suit the role.

I nurtured it.

So it's not like it's someone else completely.

It fused with the "face" in me and permeated my being.

It may sound weird to say that it's similar.

There's no role to it,

but there's a small "face" in me that resembled a beast.

It became bigger although you're the one who's actually doing it.

So it may sound odd to say we're the same.

Even before we met,

it was like starting from zero and I didn't know what to say.

I was at home thinking about what should I talk to you about.

"What is she like and what's different about her?"

"What do we have in common?"

I was pondering on what acting was about.

I wrote it all down and now after hearing what you said,

I think it's all good.

Nothing was decided.

Yes.

I remember saying

that we won't need to rehearse.

Exactly.

I don't know who said it first.

But it didn't seem necessary.

Usually, I'm very detailed and would want to do rehearsals.

We talked and you said you wanted to rehearse too.

And I felt at that meeting,

"Okay, let's go this way."

Until the day we began filming,

I was thinking about it every day.

You and I in that limited time frame.

To the maximum.

I was thinking about what we can do.

But at the end of the day, if I didn't express myself adequately,

I'd feel like I lost.

Though I'm not competitive.

I desired to reach the same heights as you.

"Should it be done this or that way?"

"Is this way or that way better?"

These were my thoughts.

I wondered about the outcome every day.

I did say we won't need rehearsals,

but I was worried about what'd happen.

It was so fun yet so scary.

It was exhilarating.

I want to be able to better express myself.

I want to improve my acting.

This is how I feel.

If I quit now, I'd only be halfway to my goal.

In that sense, if I'm asked where that goal is,

it may be at the point when I die. As you said.

But at the end of the day,

I do think of not expressing as a good thing too.

But people's memories build up as they live on.

The sceneries we saw as a kid, the music we heard,

the fragrances we smelled, and the plays we saw.

A person's memories.

They're all connected to life.

Something that'd cling to a person's memory.

If I can appear in a piece of work like that,

it'd be very precious.

I mean, not everyone can do it.

Yes.

I have nothing but thankfulness in my heart

to be in a place where I can do that.

I'm alive now.

And it's not about what's right or wrong about it.

There's no reason for me to quit.

This is me after all.

That's it.

It's not an answer, is it?

It is.

It's an apt answer.

I love how you overflow.

As I look at you now.

As I talk to you, I can sense the overflow.

Whether you cry, smile, or get angry,

you go all out for everything.

That's a life that's overflowing.

I think that's something I don't want to lose as I age.

I can lose my youthfulness,

but not this.

I never want to lose this.