I believe in not settling for someone just because they're close to you.

If your person is out there somewhere in the world and they're meant for you, you will end up together.

I have always been the one to leave the relationship because I know when to quit and when my heart can't take anymore, I'm going through a lot and I can't really talk about everything because I feel like there's some things that are just kind of like personal, you just keep to yourself.

I don't really know what to say to the camera anymore to me, distance doesn't matter how you meet someone, doesn't matter the pace in which you fall in love doesn't matter.

But how you choose to love someone does matter.

A relationship is two people who love each other just the same.

To love is not a chore to love is effortless.

Mhm Good morning everybody.

So today is a sunny, warm day.

It's becoming spring.

I have a lot to get done today, but I thought I'd vlog because I have a lot on my mind and I just want to talk about these things because a lot of people are probably going through some similar things last night I worked, finished off what I was doing for my boyfriend.

It wasn't really originally a valentine's Day gift, but it was more Like an appreciation gift of how he's been towards me throughout the past couple of months or a few months, so I wrote 20 letters, I forgot to film the actual letters because I was just so like focused on it and then I packed it up right away because I was just so excited and I packed up some snacks and ramen and curry and pasta sauces that he wanted for himself because he misses those things in Japan, so I'm sending those things to him today and I'm really excited about it in three weeks, we're going to see each other for the first time and it's really exciting.

Now we have a mutual friend and I failed to mention that in past videos, I have to say that we have been so talkative with each other, we're communicating every day.

We have a Skype date today, it's just nonstop, like 24 7, we are never too busy for each other and I feel like if you're in a long distance relationship you can't be too busy for your significant other.

Always been in relationships where one person loves the other more than the other and I feel like I've always been that girl that has put in so much love and effort into a relationship and I've never gotten really much in return and I've noticed that about this relationship, how we're on the same page and on the same level, he's so supportive, he encourages me every day, he watches all my videos and he just loves me no matter what happens or what I do or how I am.

He loves all my flaws and I think that's so important when you find somebody and I just, I have zero doubts.

So yeah, I'm going to go and send this and go to the grocery store and come back.

I will see you guys in a second.

So I totally forgot to show the letters in my video, but I just Packaged up a bunch of things like Curry and Ramen.

I put 20 letters in here that I wrote him, I just wrote the letters and I put open and then open when you are feeling lonely or open when you can't sleep open when you wake up.

So every time he's feeling a certain way he can open a letter.

Okay, so that basically took forever.

I was in there for like an hour trying to send the package and the lady was confused about cup ramen because they don't say cup ramen here.

They say instant noodles.

So like they weren't sure if they were gonna like stop the package or not.

So I don't know like exactly what happened, but hopefully it'll get to him what I learned through long distance relationships is to look to live in the present moment to keep your sanity, even though I know it's hard, don't focus on the future, focus on yourself and well being communicate with each other often make each other laugh as often as possible and think about how that makes you feel.

Currently things will fall into place eventually.

So tiny.

Oh my God and why are they so expensive?

I want and I just get one I swear to God like I'm trying to eat less sugar and this place is taunting me.

Oh my God, these are my favorites american soft one way and L.

D.

R.

Will fail is if you care too much about what other people think and someone else's fears for your own relationship.

Don't do that.

I got this aroma humidifier.

It is so nice.

Oh my God I love the lights but you can put it on for one hour, three hours or six hours and it smells so good.

Oh my God.

So today's meal.

This amazing delicious bento.

I get it at this supermarket called day and it has like everything, it has like tomato, yaki, it has some chicken fish, black beans, this is ginger, a bunch of vegetables and japanese potatoes and then this is like purple rice, it's supposed to be a little bit more nutritious than white rice.

And then I usually eat this with NATO.

Um A lot of stress happened this past couple of weeks and I got sick again, I got a cold and I think I just get sick from stress.

Mostly my immune system just dies when I'm stressed and I work with kids.

So But also I didn't have pneumonia um that long ago.

So, I honestly, I don't think I'm completely better because I still am coughing up some stuff.

Past couple weeks have been so long.

I took on a lot of jobs, a lot of social media jobs.

So I'm just really busy.

It does get overwhelming after a while because of deadlines and things like that.

I think I'm also getting anxious because I'm going to meet my boyfriend for the first time.

And that's really strange to say because I feel like I know him already.

But yeah, I don't know, I'm just nervous.

Like there's so much going through my head like what is he going to think of me?

Like am I going to be, is he gonna like me any different when we meet in person?

How are we going to be together in person physically?

So it's it's exciting because we're so in love and I love that about us that we just click I don't know, I'm just really, I'm feeling like these mix of emotions but they're not necessarily bad.

I don't know how to explain them but I think it's just anxious nous and getting there and but I'm excited and nervous at the same time.

I just want to plan out something so I'm gonna lesson plan and plan out my meals for the next three weeks I think.

Mm hmm.

Mhm Do you miss Japan?

I missed Japan.

Yeah.

What do you miss about Japan food?

Yeah.

I feel like the food is way better here.

I think so too.

Everything is like it tastes way better.

Like if I go to a family restaurant.

Yeah.

I think in Japan ties area.

Yes.

Everything is like size area and just are like american western style restaurant.

What are you going to miss when you leave?

L.

A.

Yeah.

Um not tropic.

What are you gonna miss?

Yeah, I know.

I know.

Um I'm thinking nothing because your life is better here.

Um There are like a lot of creative people here.

So it's not a creative people in Japan.

I'm sure you know you don't even know anymore.

I'm excited to like see your reaction to everything again.

Yeah.

I'm gonna get excited about everything.

Just like me when I'm in the States.

Watch me freak out at a supermarket.

Yes, I'll take it to the supermarket.

I'm gonna be holding the camera and I'm gonna be filming your whole, I'm gonna be going crazy.

Alright.

I'm super behind on life right now.

I haven't started editing the video that the deadline.

Is this coming saturday I believe for my next series.

So that's what I'm gonna be doing the rest of the night.

I'm just going to eat.

Get my pajamas.

Get all cozy and just work?

Work work.

I have a little bit of organic frozen broccoli.

So I'm gonna heat this up to add to the chili and and an IRB.

I got medium spicy Amy's chili, black bean chili.

I'm gonna just cook this up really quick and we're gonna make it with the broccoli and the pasta and I have some whole wheat crackers to eat with it.

And that's gonna be my dinner for tonight.

The chili cooking in the pot and this is my pasta, brown rice pasta that I made.

I'm not going to eat all of this, but I'm gonna put like a cup of it in another cup, crackers, broccoli in this and that's my meal.

It's the finished product.

So we have the chili and the Broccoli, the brown rice pasta and I'm gonna add some crackers, one package 90 calories.

And these are like whole wheat crackers or whatever.

So these are the ones that I'm gonna be eating with my meal.

Have goals, Make sure when you're with someone long distance you won't be in one forever.

This is how you're going to have to be in my videos for the next six months.

I'm sorry.

I like it.

It looks nice.

I'm just showing off my new camera strap.

Is that your new camera.

Wait, is that your, is that your new camera?

Yeah, you never showed it to me.

I think I did.

You didn't show it to me on.

Oh FM to buy, How much was it?

$300 decent film cameras.

It's like $100 with lens but this one I have to pay more because it's like It's got the shadow speed of 4000.

How fancy you are Became with 24 mm 2.8, which is a decent lens.

I'm 28 years old now and I have learned quite a lot about relationships like this one, here's what I learned and what you need to know.

Hey guys, so it's a couple of days later and I just didn't get a chance to film an ending for this.

But today when I was shopping, we were just texting each other all day.

We're calling each other.

He had the day off today.

He wasn't working even on his workdays.

He answers my text messages and he calls me when he wants to and he reads my messages.

It it just, that's how it should be because my last relationship, as you saw in the beginning of this video, it was so toxic and I wouldn't hear from my boyfriend for a couple of days, my last relationship long distance and it was just frustrating and I remember I told my ex boyfriend how I felt and that I was like, I can't keep going with this if you're not going to respect the relationship and you're not going to make time for me because long distance is hard.

You can't physically touch each other.

You can't physically be there there for each other.

So you have to really work hard in the relationship harder than normal?

It was just very upsetting.

I was depressed every day, I was sad, I didn't feel like he cared and he, even though he said I do care, but there's just things that you need to do when you're with somebody that you love and if you want to keep it going, if you want to keep the long distance relationship strong, and I didn't believe in the things that he felt, maybe some people can do that.

Maybe some people can go days without talking to somebody, but I personally cannot and I, I wanted his time and he wasn't giving it to me and he would make excuses and he would say, you don't need to know everything that I'm doing, which is one thing if, if a guy says that to you in a long distance relationship, you don't need to know everything that I'm doing and it's true, you don't need to know every single little thing that you're doing and that's not what I mean, that's not what he meant by it and it's true, you don't need to know like when he's eating or when he's going to the bathroom, like that's not important, but if someone fails to tell you things like, oh I'm going on a camping trip this weekend, I kind of asked him what he was doing and he got upset about it and then he's like, I'm going on a camping trip and I'm like, since when were you going on this camping trip?

I had no idea about it and I'm talking about long distance, I'm not talking about in the same area, in the same city, whatever, but when someone gets mad at you, if you ask some questions, if you call them and they don't want to talk to you, like if you call them and they pick up and they say, why are you calling me?

Why are you calling me?

I'm busy.

That's a red flag.

It just, there's just so many things that you really need to look out for when you do start a long distance relationship and I've learned that.

So hopefully anybody that's out there that's in one now, I can help you understand what to do at this point.

If you're feeling down all the time, if you're feeling bad, it's just not a good sign is it just means that you're not a good match, your values and your priorities just aren't matching up.

And if that's the case, then it's just something that you need to end.

But I'm really lucky to have my boyfriend, I worry a lot.

I have anxiety.

My boyfriend has always made me feel so calm and he'll call me and text me within the a couple of hours or whatever.

If he's busy at work or something and that's how it should be thinking about my last long distance versus this one, I just know and understand what's what should be happening and what shouldn't be happening.

I feel like we're in this together and that's the most important thing and I'm just so happy and I feel like myself and I feel like I'm the best version of myself anyway.

I hope you guys enjoyed this, I'm sorry if there's too much talking in it, but I just want to help anybody out there who is in a long distance relationship as well and if they're struggling with, should I stay with this person or not know what's right and what's wrong and the red flags and I'm sure your heart will guide you.

I think that's the most important thing and I have been through bad relationships but I know when to quit and that's when, what you need to learn and it can be hard, Don't forget to hit the like button if you want more videos like this, subscribe to this channel if you want to see more Japan related videos as well as life tips and lifestyle type things.