This is something that we really need to highlight is there are a lot of women out there that are trying to have kids being in my thirties, I've had the sense of settling down, accepting what is thinking more about the future, allowing myself to change my mind and make small changes in my life.

But that doesn't come without challenges, struggling with weight gain, mustering up the courage to go outside on my own more since quarantining most days for the past two years, you know, just getting used to it all again and getting back into it slowly.

Living in japan has become very comfortable for me and I'm in a very good place in my life but there's so much more than I need to think about.

So I'm making gluten free.

This is so hard to find um bob's red mill, red or rolled oats, whole grain and I'm going to be making it with this organic vanilla extract that I got, I can't speak on amazon and I usually put like some cinnamon inside of it and cook it that way and then kind of stir it up and then add some berries on top and like I just, just might go to breakfast.

So some tea.

Um Prince of Wales.

It's all good and velvety.

This is actually a really good one.

It's a combination of black tea and green tea together.

It tastes so good.

Another huge discovery this week is an american sushi restaurant that had opened up and I'm super excited because this is the hit of nostalgia that I really, really needed.

Look, they have a rainbow roll.

You guys imitation crab cucumber, avocado tuna.

That sounds great.

Where's my spicy tuna?

Yes.

Yes.

Yeah, picking myself in the butt.

Because last time I came here to get sushi where we came here to get sushi and we realized it was downstairs and not upstairs.

Very dumb blonde.

Yes, luckily we had some guidance today.

Otherwise we would have left again.

I know.

Oh my gosh.

It's in my way suck with are dead.

They're all dead nah.

A lot of people are like, what's the difference between american sushi and like japanese sushi And I'm like, there's a whole lot of difference.

It's mostly like California rules that we have the philadelphia roll or like the spicy tuna roll.

Like there's so many different things that aren't here.

So, oh my God, I'm so excited.

I got mine.

All right.

Here we go, spicy tuna, spicy salmon.

Oh my God.

This looks freaking amazing.

This looks so freaking amazing.

It comes with the salad.

This is a duty he got.

Oh, that looks good.

It's like a rainbow roll.

So it's like different.

You can get this in the States and then I don't know, philadelphia roll.

He got philadelphia roll.

So that one looks good.

This one looks good.

America.

All right.

So we don't have a tripod or anything.

So bear with me.

Mm hmm.

I'm making my salad is blowing away.

Spicy tuna.

It doesn't look like the spicy tuna that I would get back home.

It looks like that.

Okay.

Mm hmm.

She's going to cry.

Oh my God, it tastes just like that.

Oh my God, it's so good.

Michael.

Oh my God.

Oh go.

I got spicy things because I wanted to get very american things, but it's huge.

Like I can't even eat all this.

It has spicy mayo, which is very hard to find in Japan tastes like America.

If America was a taste, this would be it.

Mm hmm.

Oh my God.

The next day I had this sudden urge to clean our entire apartment.

Japanese apartments are quite challenging to clean and organize.

Not only do they have a lack of storage space, but the place can get cluttered, dusty and even moldy easily.

Hello, everyone yesterday we went to get sushi with Alyssa and it was american.

Sushi, believe it or not.

American.

Sushi is very different from japanese sushi not super different, but the taste is different in the way that they, it's basically California rolls and that's exactly what the place is called.

So we went to get that yesterday and we did a lot of walking and just like walking around.

My husband's out.

He like went shopping somewhere today.

Just to kind of get out of the house again.

Um, and that's fine.

because I'm just gonna reset today.

Yeah I'm gonna just kind of share with you what I do for like a reset for the rest of the week.

Welcome to my kitchen.

I think I'm going to do that thing when I was a kid where I used to like put everything in like a pile and then just kind of put it where it needs to go to someone who has like A.

D.

H.

D.

I want to talk more openly about this because I was diagnosed by a psychiatrist and when I was 22 A.

D.

H.

D.

And like if everything's kind of dispersed everywhere it's hard for me to like I think okay I need to like put this away over here and then I get distracted with something else.

This is like such a good tip.

I used to do this as a kid all the time when you put everything in the middle of the room and then you clean it up that way it's so much easier to get rid of clutter because then you can pick up an item and be like okay where does this go, put this away instead of looking around the room for things to clean up so that's what I'm going to do.

Hopefully I can get all this done in an hour, let's get cleaning.

What I've found while living here is that you actually have to clean more regularly than you do american homes or apartments.

So I was determined to make this space feel new again if my environment is chaos, my mind is chaos.

Okay so behind this couch are all the things that we want to throw away including our christmas tree.

We want to get a smaller one just because it's just there's nowhere to put it in this apartment and we just want to get a tinier one that we can store like all of this stuff, we don't even play anymore.

We got like some of these cheap games and stuff, I don't know, we might keep a couple of the games but like the other stuff just needs to go like I have a new crock pot, I don't need that and we could potentially sell it, but it just takes so long and then we have to you know get on someone else's schedule and like meet them and like it's just it's not worth it, it's, we might as well throw it away.

But I just want to say the reason why like I even have, we have this old carpet that we don't need, we got a new one, all of this stuff, it takes so long to get rid of it because we have to call the company, we have to have them pick it up, we have to pay to throw this stuff away unfortunately.

And so there's this long drawn out process in Japan where you have to like actually called to have them pick up the big garbage like you can't just throw it out like in America like they have to pick it up and you have to pay for it.

We have stuff upstairs that needs to be thrown away.

And like this table, we're getting rid of this table.

Yeah, we're trying to get rid of this table because we never use it.

We use our co Tatsu to eat together.

And Tatsu means heated table for those of you who don't know.

But um we're getting rid of this and we're putting like a little counter over here with like coffee and like it's going to be a breakfast station.

We're going to put our toaster oven on the, the table is just gonna be a little breakfast set up with some flowers and things like that.

We want to make it look super nice to find a place like this big with stairs and like an upstairs.

It's very hard to find.

So we're very lucky to even be in this place.

We just need to spruce things up and organize it a little bit better throwing things away you guys.

It's so hard.

Mm hmm, mm hmm.

Mhm mhm, mm hmm.

Mhm.

My office actually works as a bedroom and we actually sleep up in a loft where you can see the ladder.

Um just because we wanted both of our own spaces since we are always together 24/7, we wanted to have separate offices and not just a bedroom and we didn't want to work downstairs or anything.

So it's important that we both had our own place.

I'm staging my office, I do that every single week and now I am cleaning the stairs.

Mhm Okay, it's dark right now because I like to have moody light in our kitchen and our living room by I got like two things of garbage here and I put on my little bandana thing because I'm gonna do ring fit workout was so excited.

I need to like, I mean I've been cleaning all day but I need to move my body a little bit and my husband's bringing home some ingredients to make tacos um and he went um grocery shopping for me so I don't have to, so thank you.

Luigi is the best husband in the world.

Um But yeah, I'm gonna work out, I'm going to finish cleaning the floors a little bit and then I didn't think this was gonna take all day.

Mhm mm hmm.

Mhm.

What do you mean, yep, mm hmm, mm hmm, mm hmm, mm hmm.

Oh, okay.

Okay, mm hmm.

Alright, so I'm having a really stressful day today and I left a little late but I'm going to go to the mall.

Yeah, retail therapy never hurts.

I've been overthinking lately, therefore I needed a break.

So I took a couple of days off to do some retail therapy, but I was so hesitant to go because I had to face the fact that I went up two pants sizes over the past couple of years, so I'm having some insecurities with that, especially shopping in Japan, a lot of the clothes fit so different.

I had a rough time in the dressing rooms, but I managed to find a few things for the summer in the end.

Okay, so it is the next day and I went on a huge shopping spree, which I never do.

So I'm Grateful that I was able to do it because first of all, I don't fit in anything um summer wise, so I feel like when you're 30 you do gain some weight and um you know, that's pretty natural.

Um I am still over the weight that I should be, and so I am having a lot of insecurities and struggles with that and I do want to address something um and I don't normally address any negative comments and things like that because like whatever, who has time for that, I feel like this is kind of important to address and this is something that happened to me a long time ago when I was dealing with SIBO, which is small intestinal bacterial disorder.

So I have a lot of bloating, I still have a lot of bloating, I still have a lot of I B.

S.

I still have a lot of inflammation um with food intolerances and things like that.

Someone was like oh are you pregnant and all this stuff and I'm just kind of like I can't really wrap my head around it like do you actually walk up to somebody and like look at their stomach and say oh my gosh are you pregnant?

Like anyone can be bloated or have gained weight or something like that, don't you worry about ever offending somebody?

Like I feel like that's that's a bloat, especially to people who are trying to conceive or get pregnant and we have to address this and I'm gonna put this comment here because this person said it right like this is this is something that we really need to highlight that there are a lot of women out there that are trying to have um kids.

And then when someone asks how are you pregnant, it can really be a very sensitive topic.

I feel like a lot of people aren't told that it's rude I think growing up or have never been told and um I get it and some people are really young.

I don't know, should never ask that without someone actually announcing if they're pregnant or not.

I think that's the right thing to do because it is very offensive for people who are gaining weight or do have stomach problems or can't conceive.

I just wanted to say that.

Be careful what you say to people.

I know some people didn't have that intention but like I promise you guys, I will tell you when I'm pregnant and I will tell you when it happens.

We have to have this conversation 1000% for all the women out there.

Anyway, I'm going to quickly share with you some of the stuff that I got on my shopping spree.

I got some really good stuff actually and I'm really excited to share them with you.

I'm not going to share with you everything because I got a ton of stuff.

This one is from Munich low, I think floral prints are in.

So we have a little hall here.

Um but I got this skirt.

This is from Munich Lo I love it so much.

It's like a blueprinted flowered shirt and it can go with like a casual t shirts.

I got this plain blue shirt with some shorts.

Guys, I went up to pant sizes.

But here's the thing when I went to certain stores, some of this the clothes fit small and some of them ran really big.

So like places like the gap ran really big.

So I fit in a small, yeah.

So I got some high waisted shorts for the summer because I don't fit.

My other ones.

Got these ones, These are super cute.

Super casual goes with lots of nice t shirts.

I got a couple t shirts here.

I just pulled it all of this.

But you know, whatever.

I got this cute thing from the gap.

It's like a sort of, I don't know if you guys can see this, but it's like a long t shirt, These are in like, this is this I've seen everywhere, this was from the Gap and it's really good quality, very breathable material, which is what I was looking for.