Yeah.

Mm hmm.

Ah yeah.

Come here Congo!

He has a toy.

Bring it here.

Bring it here.

I'm eating my breakfast so you can bring it here.

Mm hmm.

Come here I leave on thursday.

I'm not ready and I'm scared.

It's a long time to be gone.

No Halloween.

No thanksgiving, no support system, completely new city.

I'm grateful.

Like I'm super grateful to be the lead in the netflix film.

That's amazing.

And I loved the script and I think it's gonna be so awesome.

But you know, just also trying to mentally prepare for how it might take a mental toll.

I've also just been so stressed out lately.

I'm so stressed out all the time.

I got to figure out how to make like deep rest and relaxation.

Part of self care.

I'm just so irritable and oddly enough, my sleep isn't being affected, my body is so tired.

It's sleeps as long as I'll allow it.

My, I just feel like up to here all the time, like any minor inconvenience is just gonna send me tumbling over the edge.

It's not a fun place to be, still figuring it out.

You know, I feel like workaholism um burnout and collective stress.

I'm really trying to figure out how to work on all that.

Since I'm leaving for eight weeks, I have to film 10 videos.

I hardly can come up with two ideas before the crew arrives on a weekend.

And I had to write out 10 YouTube videos and film them all.

I know this is a champagne problem but I feel empty of opinions.

I feel like I have no opinions left.

I miss leisure time.

I miss reading.

I miss like when you were a kid and you were bored like these days I don't feel like there's much time for boredom.

We're all constantly scrolling and stimulating and absorbing information.

And I really miss being bored as fuck because that's when you learn skills.

That's when you read things.

That's when you just like discover.

I don't know who the fuck you are.

All right?

Mhm.

Mhm.

What?

Yeah, mm hmm.

Mhm.

Right.

Mm hmm.

I cannot.

We could not not.

Oh actually is this too close?

God, I'm still getting used to this man.

I don't know how bloggers do this all the time.

That's crazy.

This is crazy.

I don't know how to make this shift work.

Oh my God, but I'm rereading the script now and trying to get to work on it.

I think preparation is the key to everything right?

Like the more prepared you feel you can just sink into something because otherwise you're just too worried and concerned about.

Am I prepared enough?

Also I don't know if anyone else has.

I got this helix piercing two years ago and it is so infected.

I probably shouldn't be touching it but it also feels really fucking good to like rip the crust, ease off but I've been doing like sea salt soaks because apparently that's all that works yesterday, I was like reading a book and I was like laying on my, oh it's already bleeding, I was like laying on my ear, I shouldn't have done that and it was just, I got up and my pillowcase was like bloody and there were like pieces of my skin and the blood and I was like oh my God, but I have literally, I have felt like I have healed this son of a bit multiple times and it never quite heals, it's bleeding sometimes, you know, I just remind myself I have to stop and smell the roses Well oh God, I hope there's no bugs in it and then we have a game night tonight which I'm very excited about.

I think it will be good, I think it'll be fun there, they fucking get in bitches, we're going to game night, baby girl, I have a few questions for you, baby girl, how do you feel about going to Budapest for eight weeks to star in a movie, I can't wait to leave all you bitches behind, wow, rise to fame, wow, you know you'll be crying the whole time, anna from the future here jokes on you, Jason because actually I was the one crying all the way home thinking about how much I was gonna miss my friends and how much fun we have.

But anyway, back to the video.

Oh, I have a question if you're popping a bag of popcorn and you open it and you see it's not done, is it?

Okay, Put it back in.

It'll explode.

It will definitely, it'll explode.

I would close the, closing its aim for my mouth.

I'm trying.

Ah Alright, getting the whole ball, Got the whole bowl, baby girl.

Okay, I'm going to get the K pop one in my mouth.

So the way that snake oil works is you have one investor who chooses a profession.

Everyone else draws six cards and out of those six cards they choose to to create an invention.

Everyone pitches their invention one after another.

You recap at the very end with the slogan and the investor chooses which product they're going to go with.

You are being the biggest one of the issues.

I would never tell you your business.

But I would imagine one of the biggest issues is keeping people in line.

Alright, so here's the thing, Benevolent Leader, very sincere.

What does it do?

So what do you have a handle of freedom, much like a handle of vodka in your life?

And that's the fear belt.

You pick up your belt and when you're with them, they get really is just a regular belt.

Giving cages dungeons, metal bars.

It's so medieval, we're updating the prison system, laser cages.

It's been there the whole time.

Every single dictator, any dictator.

We're talking Stalin, Hitler Mussolini.

They can all take lives away, right?

You can kill anyone.

You could kill me if you don't like my pitch.

But the question is, do you have the power to give life?

Wow?

Think about, think about all the people you could kill and then use as leverage is saying I could bring them back.

I could bring your family back, your friends back your loved ones back.

So not only can you have leverage with death, Life itself, You transcend duality.

You become not just a dictator.

Oh, that's a solid one minute I found a cool place for you miss.

Beautiful and the mightiest person.

So we have to keep the image clean.

I'm just proposing a very meek dirt club.

Just send him to the dirt club.

So we have, we've worked with Dyson very closely affiliated a bridge vacuum and what a bridge vacuum is is like if you like, you can look out into your surroundings and like that bridge.

I don't like it.

You second right off palace is blood news me.

I know all of these people.

We film them.

We cover everything that they do.

You don't need to buy their product.

We will bring their product to you for your visibility.

What I would like to remind you before we go around and you say your slogans that anyone who has not chosen will be executed immediately point a finger for your freedom handled, take a sip, feel the freedom here belt.

What everyone's as in one go laser cage for the anna age.

Oh, life power might be a dictator when you can just be a God wow dirt club, hang loose in the club bridge, vacuum bloodiness, all of these ideas from the comfort of of course I will take being a god.

Yeah, I would say that game night was a success.

It was a lot of fun.

And as I'm editing this, I realized there's no ending.

I don't know how to edit.

I clearly do not blog a lot, but I'm very excited to go to Budapest to do this film.

I'm gonna miss everyone so dearly I might do, I don't know more vlogs if people like this, I think the only thing you might like is maybe seeing the cats in a christmas tree costume so I shall end it here.

Who's ready to be a christmas tree?

Who's ready to be a christmas tree?

Here we go.

He's got a tiny hat Oh my God, this hat is so cute.

Here we go.

It's a tiny little hat.

Okay, here we go.

Okay, here we go.