Name: How Unloving Parents Generate Self-Hating Children
Uploaded: 2021-03-24T19:45:10.000Z
Duration: 5 min 33 s
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(1) A central fact about early childhood  is that babies are born into the world  

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entirely at the mercy of others. They have  no native strength, intelligence or utility,  

they cannot fight or complain,  walk away or argue their case,  

their survival depends solely on their  capacity to look up from their cots with vast,  

innocent, beautiful eyes and charm their  parents into caring for them. It's their  

power to attract love that ensures they will  be fed and clothed, protected and kept alive.w

(2) In exchange for this nurture, young children  readily offer their parents or caregivers  

unconditional admiration. They naturally adore  and are boundlessly impressed by those who pick  

them up and bathe them, warm their milk and  change their sheets. They are in awe at these  

giant people who know how to turn on a washing  machine and kick a ball over a tree. There  

is - at this stage - no innate desire whatever  to question or doubt figures of authority.

(3) Given what is at stake, it follows  that small children are instinctively,  

hugely sensitive to how well they are doing at  getting their admired protectors on their side.  

If they feel they are loved, they can relax  into themselves and get on with the many other  

pressing priorities of early childhood: working  out how to eat solids, figuring out what a plug  

socket is, how a button functions, what  words are and how soap bubbles form.

(4) But if love is in more restricted supply,  the picture grows a whole lot more complicated.  

There are childhoods in which, for a variety of  reasons, parents fail to be charmed as they might  

be. They leave the baby to scream, they shout at  one another, there might be violence and hysteria,  

lethargic despair and terror. The young child  knows instinctively it is in grave danger,  

if the situation is not somehow corrected, in  extremis, it may be left on a hillside to die.

(5) At this point, our biology initiates a  desperate yet darkly logical process. The  

young child starts to try a lot harder. It  redoubles its efforts to charm, to be good,  

to do what could be expected of it,  to smile and to ingratiate itself.  

It wonders what may be wrong with itself to  explain the parental disapproval and harm - and  

doesn't feel any alternative but to search in  its own character and behaviour for answers.

(6) At the same time, the child resists what  might - from an adult perspective - seem like  

the obvious move: to get annoyed with and  blame the adults in the vicinity who are  

not looking after it as they should. But  such a bold thought does not belong to the  

defencelessness of the early years. We are in no  position to mount a challenge to our protectors  

when we can hardly reach the door handle,  let alone turn on a tap; we need to have  

our own front door key and bank account before  cynicism is a realistic option. It is far more  

intuitive to wonder why we are horrid than to  complain of being unfairly and unkindly treated.

(7) Small children therefore naturally turn  injury done to them into dislike of themselves.  

They ask not so much 'Why does my parent fail to  care for me?' as 'How might I have failed this  

admirable person?' They hate themselves rather  than doubt those who should be protecting them,  

shame replaces anger. It feels,  on balance, like the safer option.

(8) A vicious spiral of self- hatred then  sets in. The unloved growing child wonders  

constantly about their faults. Their  parent may be alcoholic, narcissistic,  

sadistic or depressed; they  may never cook a proper meal  

or shout intemperately from their bedroom,  but none of that matters in the slightest.  

The parent cannot be envisaged as anything other  than substantially impressive. To explain the  

lack of love from the paragons of parenthood,  it must be that the child is an awful person,  

they must be stupid and mean, selfish and slow,  physically repulsive and irritating and shallow.

(9) As childhood gets left behind,  much of this dynamic is forgotten.  

The adolescent and young adult overlooks exactly  what went on, they cannot necessarily think  

clearly of the early years - and parental  figures may be keen that they never do so.  

The former child can't tell any more that their  feeling of shame has specific origins, it can feel  

like something they might have been born with, a  natural phenomenon, like bad weather or the flu.

(10) Liberation awaits us when we dare to  take on board a highly implausible idea:  

that our self-hatred, far from being inevitable,  is an internalisation of early deprivation  

and that far from needing to revere  and admire those who denied us love,  

we are in a position to understand, to  question, to be annoyed and to mourn what we  

did not receive. We are not so despicable after  all, we've just - till now - lacked any better  

ideas to explain why we didn't manage to charm  those who should have loved us from the start.