I want, like, yeah, a timeline.

So first day of school, Newtown, After my dad died.

First time I saw you was right after Sparrow's introduced me in front of the class.

You must be doing welcome class.

I'd like you to meet Mr Dillon Hoffmeyer.

He's new here, so please don't be yourselves.

Be nice.

Yeah.

Yes.

It was a good first impression.

A few weeks later, I saw you at the moonlight and when Jed tried wrapping his arm around you.

Oh, and then on the day after the election Mm.

Mara, why are you wearing that?

Which is a motherfucking breathing?

You got detention for the profanity, Mother.

Fucking worth it.

Yeah, it's cliche.

But you wrote a poem last spring that made me feel like you understood me.

Even though we really talked.

I friended you on Facebook.

Afterwards, I looked at your picture.

Sometimes I even gave you my number.

But I think you forgot or never saved in your phone.

I hoped we'd run into each other during the summer, but never did.

And then it was senior year.

And I thought, Why try?

We're going to college, and that made me sad because you seemed so cool and original.

But then when Caitlin died, I didn't see you anywhere.

Yeah, you had two backpacks.

One of them was hers.

Are you okay?

Uh huh.

I don't know how to do with this.

I can take care of it for you.

Mhm.

Yeah.

When what happens again?

Oh, mhm.

And when you said it might happen again, I thought, Whoa, Maybe I've been wasting my entire life preparing for a year.

That may never come from me.

So fuck it.

I'm gonna tell you how I feel.

I'm gonna spend my savings on a car.

I'm not going to be scared anymore.