I began on critical care because I knew they were.

I knew help was needed.

Started the nurse training in 1991 30 years ago.

Actually, this year it's been really, really tough working on the intensive care unit during the pandemic.

This last wave has been, I think, the worst.

Actually, my name is Jackie Jocelyn.

Hello.

My name is really Jocelyn.

I'm a first year student nurse.

I'm working on critical care and I'm absolutely loving it.

My eyes have been opened across all like areas.

I can't believe what I say Day in, day out.

When I started in December, it was so, so busy and my eyes was actually I was just like, Oh my Lord, what is going on?

I can't believe how bad it is and how poorly people were in the edge was dropping people.

My mom and dad's age on there, and the kids are obviously the same age as me, and I just couldn't believe it.

And that made me want to help.

Instead of running away, she was going to study business and economics at Liverpool University.

She had a place to start in September and last year she she obviously saw me coming home from work, and I do telling the tales of what we're doing and I think she was slightly inspired.

And then she did a total 36 day.

The challenges that were first have been unbelievable, personally and professionally, working alongside the most amazing colleagues that you'll ever meet.

They looked, I'm gonna try to do it.

Uh, Dad got COVID late last year and he was on the unit for for three weeks.

Actually, Already, he fought a good fight.

It was a great character.

He did everything everybody asked of him.

When my granddad got taken ill, I saw how well he was looked after in the extra mile that all moms colleagues were going for.

That made me realize that I was in the right profession, and it made me want to help the other families that couldn't see their family members.

It's just somebody's dying, the relatives aren't there and and you're holding the hand.

The cart breeze, they're asking you, I'm dying.

I don't want to die.

And for us and my colleagues, it's been really tough to deal with all situations I'm obviously not like a proper nurse yet, so I was just doing basic things, like helping with washers and groups of T and flashing hair and all the basics like that and chatting to him.

And I think that's what they need the patients.

You need a friendly face, and that's what I want to be there for.

I've told her she's not to stand around.

There's always something to do, even if if she thinks there's nothing to do, go and talk to a patient or fill up the gloves or empty catheter bag.

There's always something to do, and she's took heed of my advice.

There's always something to do.

That is what she's told me and my first ever shift on Boxing Day, she said.

Do not stand around should I'll die.

If any of my colleagues tell me you stood around, I was like, Okay, well, I've always been proud to be a nurse.

Actually, my mom was always proud that I was a nurse.

She was supposed to say, This is our Jack issues a national, but I think we're under a lot of pressure at the moment.

Obviously, I'm getting older now, whether I can keep it with that pressure.

I'm not sure, Mom, Mom is a tough not She's very She's not Stern.

That's the wrong word.

She is amazing.

She's such an amazing woman.

She's a she keeps going and choices tell me as a kid, like keep on keeping on whatever happened.

But the pandemic didn't necessarily break her, but it did take a layer of slat, a layer of braveness off her and, I think, experience for experiencing it firsthand as well.

Um, as a daughter, she then wanted to do better for all of the patients.

So I think it's rewarding for her as a nurse and as a sister to continue on encouraging patients and keeping them going and keeping them keeping on is what she says to me.