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  • - My name is Billie Eilish.

  • Billie Eilish.

  • My name is Billie Eilish.

  • [upbeat music]

  • This is getting out of hand, I am Billie Eilish.

  • I'm doing this shit till I'm 90.

  • So get ready for it.

  • I think it's October 18th, 2017.

  • It's October 18th, 2018.

  • October 18th, 2019.

  • October 18th, 2020.

  • I'm 15.

  • I'm 16.

  • I'm 17.

  • I'm 18.

  • I have 257,000.

  • I have 6.3 million.

  • 40.7 million.

  • 67.5 million.

  • Where are these people coming from?

  • Like that's my question.

  • The most followed person that follows me

  • is Chloe Grace Moretz.

  • Katy Perry maybe.

  • Justin Bieber.

  • Ariana Grande my baby, with 204 million followers.

  • It's a picture of me and Charli XCX.

  • Isn't it the one about me smiling.

  • 10 million, that's a lot.

  • Five grummys, won five grummies [laughs].

  • Wow, I will be 18, I never thought I'd be 18.

  • Hopefully I look fly.

  • What is that quote?

  • Well, I have accepted the things I cannot change,

  • and well I have changed the things that I cannot accept.

  • It's a good thing think about.

  • What changes?

  • You know, what endings?

  • What new beginnings?

  • [Billie laughing]

  • Oh God that's did not age well.

  • Girl, please.

  • [Billie laughing]

  • Talk about what's gonna change,

  • what's gonna be different?

  • [Billie laughing]

  • Your whole life will have gone.

  • But not just you everyone because coronavirus.

  • Definitely not where I thought that I would be currently,

  • but I'm also not mad at it.

  • I'm very, very lucky to have had this year play out the way

  • it did, because for a lot of people, it was literal hell,

  • and I'm very aware that I have been pretty blessed

  • for the fortune that I've had this year.

  • Even though the year has sucked,

  • it's still, you know, whatever, we're alive still, you know.

  • I don't know, the thing is like I don't really have

  • any free time, but then also kind of, it's weird,

  • I contradict myself, because I kind of don't really like

  • having a day off, because I get off

  • the hustle, [laughs] I get out of the groove.

  • You know, I get out of like my vibe.

  • I hope, whatever amount of off days

  • I want next year I get.

  • Like if I want 100 off days next year, I hope I get that.

  • I hope I'm listened to.

  • That's basically it.

  • I really said 100 days, 100 days I said.

  • Oh, you got what you wish for, you happy?

  • [Billie laughing]

  • You happy, coz damn.

  • This is the most amount of time off that I've had in,

  • you know, five years now.

  • I think that goes for a lot of people, but that

  • was even true for like the first month of quarantine.

  • You know, we had three weeks off and I was like,

  • wow, this is the most time off I've ever had.

  • I can't believe it.

  • It's so great, it's like a free vacation.

  • And it'll we'll go right back out on tour in a week.

  • And we'll be fine.

  • And clearly we were all wrong with that.

  • And we look like clowns now.

  • But I will say I have made and created things that I don't

  • think I ever would have created without this period of time.

  • This amount of time and this is just life itself.

  • I would like things to be normal though.

  • Again, I would like that.

  • But I will say that I'm grateful for what it's given me.

  • I really wanted to go on that world tour.

  • We started it, got three shows in canceled,

  • flew back home.

  • I really wanted to get a Lamborghini.

  • But I have a Lamborghini.

  • It's not that I couldn't have I just there were

  • so many other things that were so much more important.

  • There's more people to give that money to.

  • There's way more and I cannot stress it enough way

  • more important things going on than the fucking Lamborghini.

  • So one thing I have now that I did not have a year ago,

  • is my little pooch puppy shark.

  • Shark.

  • This is shark my son.

  • He is so silly like oh he's wagging his tail.

  • This is shark didn't have him a year ago

  • because he's only eight months old.

  • Alright, I'll let you go bud.

  • The people that support me.

  • My fans, which I don't like to call fans,

  • you know, my family.

  • You know, finishing this album and doing the most crazy

  • shows like I'm capable of doing in the next month.

  • Maintaining my happiness which I've been experiencing

  • for like the first time in many years.

  • I want to stay happy.

  • That's a big goal for me.

  • So cute I love that those are all very genuine,

  • those were 100% what I was feeling very strongly.

  • It's so weird like what we take for granted like I would

  • never have thought that I wouldn't be able to do shows

  • one day, you know.

  • So much time spent me dreading to,

  • dreading press, dreading this, dreading that.

  • And like I had no idea that I was dreading something

  • that I would one day not even be legally allowed to do.

  • Like that's what's crazy to me.

  • The shows are like the one thing

  • that I feel like I've ever been good at.

  • I know that sounds stupid but it's like the only thing

  • I've ever done that made me feel like I belonged.

  • Maybe it's cliche, I don't know.

  • Lord keeping my family safe and, you know, staying up there

  • isn't much else to do right now.

  • Everything matters differently now than a year ago.

  • Honestly everything I really can't even think

  • of one thing like all the things that I felt

  • like mattered most a year ago, matter less.

  • All the things I felt like mattered

  • at least a year ago matter more.

  • I learned so much more about just the way people

  • are living that I wasn't aware of climate crisis

  • and social injustices and, you know,

  • kind of all the bad things.

  • And I think made me think differently.

  • It's not like I wasn't aware, I just learned more

  • and thought about it differently and, you know,

  • was more open to learning.

  • And it's been a crazy year.

  • People think I'm pregnant.

  • A lot of people thought I was pregnant for a second.

  • That I sold my soul to Satan.

  • There's this picture of me like running from my car

  • to my brother's front door on like 110 day degree day

  • in a tank top and everyone's like damn Billie got fat.

  • I'm like nope this is just how I look.

  • You've just never seen it before.

  • So that's like the most current one but whatever.

  • I don't know.

  • I think that's not really for me to decide.

  • I think yeah, the reason people are looking up to you

  • is because you're you.

  • They're not looking up to you so that you'll tell them

  • something that you would never actually tell them.

  • They're looking up to you so that you tell them

  • something that you would tell them yourself.

  • So I love having kids.

  • Kids relate to me and tell me

  • that I make them feel comfortable in their bodies

  • like that if I can do anything I want to do that.

  • So it's really hard to talk about my life

  • and have it not sound like I'm bragging.

  • Sometimes I'll catch myself in a conversation

  • with someone acting like I'm in an interview,

  • and in interviews you're trained to talk about yourself

  • and not ask the other person about themselves.

  • And so I'll catch myself in conversations