Ifyoutellyourselfthatyounevercanbecome a greatchef, thenyouwanttobecome a goodchef.
Ifyoutellyourselfthattheyouarenevergonnabe a goodathleteandprobablyonemonthbecome a greatathleteoneday, youknow, themoreyoubelieveandtellyourself, setyourselfgoalsandvisualizedyouwishyouasyourselfholdingthattrophyorevenliftingthatbiglift, youknow, onitslastweek's threeweeksandweeksandmonthsandyearseven, uh, ittookme 10 years, thewindowwalls, who's been 10 yearsback.
I wasreallyhadthinkingaboutmeholdingthetrophy.
Sometimesithastostartsomewhereforotherstobelieve.
Youknow, onit's veryimportanttobelieveinyourself.
Somebodyyouhavetomakeharddecisions, andthat's life.
Very, verydifficulttimesyouyouwantjustlaiddownon, basically, justyouwannabuy, Youknow, whenyougothroughvery, verydifferenttimes, youknow, umumBut I I tookitasstrength, and I I thoughttomyself, Well, I'm gonna I'm notgonnaletthiseventhoughhekindofdidcompletelyruinedmylife.
I'm justgonna I wannabehonestaboutthis, right?
Right.
Rightnow, I actuallyhaven't seenmydaughterinthreeyears.
Like I haven't physicallylike I haven't beenabletohavemydaughterbefore.
33 years.
That's thehardestthing I'vegonethrough.
Itwasveryhardtotalkaboutit.
Andthehardestthingisthere's nothing I coulddo, right?
Um, offcourse.
If I could, I wouldgonow.
Andsoyou're, umButthat's justsometimesyouputintodifficultpositionsonthat's life.
It's veryunfair.
I usedthedooras a strength.
Youknow, I thinkabouthereveryday.
Andi, I wannabesuccessfulherand I wanttolike, I think, like, OK, if I'm constantlyinthisspot, likedoingstuffonbeingsuccessful, youknow, she's conceitedon.
Andthat's whatmotivatesme.
Youknow, shesheknowswho I amandshewayspeakexcellenttogetherevery, uh, Sunday.