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  • tell me about the city because, you know, I left the city almost nine years ago and you've spoken about these kind of false idols in the city.

  • You know, again, back to me when I was seven years old, I just thought that if I accomplished something that maybe I'd have some worth Maybe.

  • I think that's what I was doing.

  • And I taught myself that money would buy me happiness.

  • And I was in my head for I mean, for 40 years, Michael.

  • And at one point I was watching my quarterly income and they paid us quarterly at ICAP, and I realized that is my income went up.

  • I became less happy and it took my four year degree at M i t to realize there was a reverse correlation.

  • And I better do something different with my life or I'm gonna be upset.

  • I was alone.

  • I was depressed.

  • I was drinking myself to death.

  • I had no family and no friends.

  • And I thought, I gotta stop doing this.

  • And I started doing this just taking me on a different adventure.

  • But it's hard to get out of that.

  • That that that feeling in the city.

  • Um, what do you What do you see there?

  • Especially as a Christian.

  • And why do so many people get stuck in it?

  • Well, I think you put your finger on his money.

  • I mean, I mean, when I started when I was 18 I was you know, I had no clue, really.

  • And I just worked hard.

  • And, you know, I was sent to Germany to learn German, worked in a German firm over there.

  • It was when I was 21.

  • Great experience came back and then climbed the ladder, became one of the youngest sort of ring traders in the open outcry market on sort of climbed up and realized.

  • Actually, when I got into this very sort of powerful firm, that sort of was a global physical trade, a merchant off metals and particularly copper that I realized, actually, money was at the heart of it.

  • It was It was really rather like an eye opener When, when My sort of mid twenties that that actually it was all about money, and I've been sort of naive not to realize that beforehand.

  • But once I realized that everything was sort of you could you could allow your thoughts works, you know, what's the risk reward?

  • You know, how much can we lose?

  • How much profit can we make, etcetera.

  • So you sort of learn, learn these things.

  • Um, but then becoming a Christian, you know, I was doing well.

  • I mean, we were way were being married.

  • Five years, started having Children, were, you know, I was doing reasonably well on bond.

  • Then all of a sudden, this this whole area off being a Christian, on working in the city.

  • I remember I usedto traveling on the train and I'll be thinking about God and be reading the Bible would be thinking about all sorts of questions and talking this sort of stuff on.

  • Then I'll get in the elevator in, in the city, got their God will be gone the whole day and be gone.

  • Get in the left.

  • At the end of the day, God will come back and it suddenly occurred to me after a while.

  • God's not with me.

  • I'm not with him in the work place.

  • It's all about money, Then that whole area off developing, growing in biblical understanding.

  • You know the studies, etcetera, listening to sermons, but preying on talking to other Christians that you know it are thinking well, the city I had often have people saying to me, How can you as a Christian, work in the city?

  • You know, it's all about money?

  • How can you do that?

  • And I had to think about that.

  • And then what it did was it sort of cleared up the idols that are in the city?

  • Andi, I think particularly it became very clear to me.

  • Money is obviously an idol.

  • You described it yourself, Brian.

  • It gives you everything.

  • Apparently, it gives you the freedom.

  • It gives you the house, health care, the holidays, the reputation, you know.

  • I mean, you know, it seems to be the God to bow down to.

  • All right.

  • You've also got the company, the whole corporate culture where you're climbing that ladder.

  • It's a competitiveness with one another on.

  • There's a bowing down to the company.

  • When I actually joined Well, when I was with Fever a Salomon at the end of the eighties, they invited me onto this onto the global board governing all their trading, and I was going to be in charge of base metals on and Andi I was invited to this board on.

  • I just thought, Okay, I'll think about it.

  • And it was a sort of little bell bringing in the back of my head.

  • Andi, I thought, Well, I'll go away and I'll come back to you tomorrow, Marty, and I'll tell you on dicer.

  • Prayed about it and on demand.

  • And then in the middle of the night, I woke up.

  • I just thought, I need to tell him I'm a Christian and I need to tell him there's Mawr important things than the company.

  • There's more important things than money.

  • So the next day I went up to him.

  • I said, Look, Marty, I'm very happy to do this.

  • Um, but you need to know something.

  • This is a managing director of Solomon Brothers.

  • This this was the boss off in New York.

  • Hey, was Jewish chap.

  • He Andi?

  • I said, look, Uh huh.

  • I'm a Christian.

  • So number one, that's God, Number two.

  • There's a family.

  • And then and then there's a company, and you may rest assured I will work hard.

  • But there's that priority.

  • And you know these things are important to me and I won't sacrifice on.

  • Hey, actually said to May I have Talmudic studies every week.

  • I said, Well, very good, you know, But, I mean, it was it was sort of bouncing the conversation about but that whole area off prioritizing God and family before work was quite difficult.

  • Andi, you had to concentrate on it, and you had to be disciplined.

  • So city lunches, okay, you were a Kipper.

  • ICAP I mean, I know they used to love.

  • Well, they love city lunches.

  • I mean, they were the thing.

  • Andi.

  • I just had to learn.

  • How do I not have city lunches where you're drinking and talking and you know it on in.

  • In the end, you have to learn to say no.

  • And that was a big thing.

  • For me to learn is to say no Took to these things and no to go away on him.

  • We can company get together, strengthening one another where it was all sorts of things might be going on.

  • Just say no, I'm with the family on.

  • They didn't hurt me saying no didn't hurt me.

  • I said no a few times to some of my clients and they respected it.

  • I said, If you want to do that.

  • There's a bunch of brother brokers that can take you out there.

  • But I just don't do that.

  • I'm we could do other things.

  • We could go play squash.

  • We could go do this.

  • We go to that.

  • But I'm I'm not.

  • I don't want to do that thing.

  • And surprisingly, they it was okay.

  • And they respected it if they understood it.

  • My colleagues, Maybe not, Not as much.

  • But you were able to find that line in the city.

  • Yes.

  • Well, in the end, I was ending up was the boss.

  • So I had to discipline myself, Really?

  • But even beforehand, you know, it was just I was saying no.

  • And on they respect to that.

  • And as a Christian, I've said to other Christians, you know, don't be ashamed of the Lord.

  • You know, Don't be ashamed of Jesus, you know, if you keep your head above the parapet, But as a Christian, you know, don't be ashamed of him.

  • Because if you are, I mean in markets is if you're ashamed of me, I'll be ashamed of you.

  • You know, which is a very tough first, frankly, but just be up front about it.

  • And then you Then I found that he was there, and he was protecting me.

  • I mean, you know, um, people did respect, you know, we were called the God squad at times of financial times, called us the God Squad in the city.

  • And that's something on, I think, you know, I've heard people sort of respected us.

  • Uh, you know, because we had a sort of, I guess mawr integrity than they thought city people should have.

  • I want him.

  • Why?

  • My wife?

tell me about the city because, you know, I left the city almost nine years ago and you've spoken about these kind of false idols in the city.

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GOD, FAMILY, THEN JOBS: Why I Needed Structure In My Life To Become Better - Lord Michael Farmer

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