Butformostofthatgame, man, I wasTominatingeveryyouknow, everyeveryoutcomepossible.
So, umandnotLineupissotalented, likesotalentedandyeah, I don't know.
I'm just I'm proudinthewaythat, youknow, I scoutedthem.
I scoutedmyself.
I'm justproudofeverything I didtoputtheteamin a situationtowin, andand I wantedtokeepgoing, man, I felt I feltsoconfident.
Youknow, how I adjustedthroughseeinghim a secondtimeandwhat I wasgonnabeabletodo a thirdtimelikeman, I justbelieved a lotinmyselfandwhat I didto, youknow, hopefullyseehim a thirdtimethroughandthefourthtimeofneed.
I mean, I wantedtogothatwholegame, thatwasmyThatwaseverything I wanttodoisjust, youknow, burnthetankandseehowfar I couldgo.
Wereyousurprised?
Wasthereanyconversationtherebetween, uh, no, no, no.
There's noconvo.
Hejustcameoutand, youknow, thatwasit.
Hesaidhellof a job.
Yeah, but I don't knowwhenyouwhenyouseetheoutcome, itsucksbecauseweendeduplosingSothenoftheday, like, I wannabetheguythat's outthere, winorloselike I wantedtobelike, I lostthegame.
Or, youknow, I wonthegameby, youknow, putting a performancethatcouldhavehelpedtheteamwin, winorlose.
So, I mean, youcouldsay I'm beingselfish, but I justfeltwithhow I felttoday, likeyougot.
I justwanttoride.
JustingrantedpartofthereasonwhyyouguysmadeittotheworldSiriswasbecauseoftheuniquedecisionmakingofcashandofthefrontofficeandas a competitors, areyouabletoetoseeandunderstandwhyhemadethatdecisionatthetimehedid, orwithwhatyourstuffwasliketonight, Canyounotcomprehendwhythatdecisionwasmade?
Um, I mean, I saidittomarksquestion.
I mean, cashis a hellof a manager.
Wecan't takethatawayfromthem.
I mean, ifNickgetsoutofthejam, I couldusuallydoes, andourbullpenholdsitdownliketheyusuallydo.
Noone's talkingaboutit.
Soattheendoftheday, I seebothsides, Um, but I mean, justmeandthewaythat, youknow, I feltthatgameandwhathewasabletoseeduringthatgame, I just I don't wannabetakenoutofthatgame.
I mean, I don't likebeingtakenoutanygamehonestly, andforthemostpart, youknow, meandcash.
I'm asidewiththembecause I knowhowgoodof a manageris, and, youknow, it's justtough.
It's toughbecause, like I feltsogood.
I feltlike I dideverything I couldpossiblydotosucceedingus.
GotoStephanieEpsteinlike, doyouthinkit's way I wouldhavebeenifyouhadgoneoutthereandlikewayyouhave a homerunorwhateverway?
Well, I'm gonnajustsay I'm notgonnagoouttheretogiveup a homerunandlosethatway.
That's justthat's nothappening.
Um, thewaylikemymindworks.
I don't seelikethemdoingthat.
I seeyouknow, mesucceedingandme, youknow, stickingto a game, playing a Justin, learningandgrowing.
Andthat's that's how I'vealwayslookedatit.
So I don't lookatitlikeif I stayedoutthere, theywouldhavehit a homerun.
I lookatitisif I stayedouttherelikewe'regonnawinbecausethere's I don't reallyputnegativeintomymindorliketheycouldhit a homerunandgethitslike I alwayslookatwhat I coulddo.
And, youknow, I lookatthebestversionofmyself, andthat's kindof I'vealwaysdoneit, butyeah, I don't know.
I justwannabetoGodthat's outthere.
Andifif I loselike I do, But I just, youknow, I justdon't seeit.
And I neverwillseeitbecause I alwayslookat a positiveangleofwhat I'm gonnabeabletoaccomplish.
So, um, fortheguysintheclubhouse, I justhope, youknow, theyunderstandrest a coupleweeks, ifthat's whatthey'regonnado, andthengetreadyfor, like, a championshipseasonnextyear, wegottawinitall.
There's losingstuff, isn't fun.
AndwhenWhenyougetthiskindofopportunityandyouknowyouloseto a greatteam, everyteam's greatintheplayoffs.
Butwhenyouloseto a team, itreallydoessuck.
So I justhopetheguysinourclubhousegetreadyfornextyear.