Name: It's 2020 and I'm emo again
Uploaded: 2020-10-09T19:21:34.000Z
Duration: 11 min 50 s
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R e used to be incredibly EMR Well, it's email with someone could be in Australia where it's super hot all the time e used to be really in my back in 2000 and seven slash 2000 and eight Those with my prime m o years 2000 and seven and 2000 and eight was great seven and eight for me.

So it was the end of primary school in the start of high school and I don't really know what started it.

What triggered the m O to come out, but it it came out full force.

It was a great time, but it was also a really bad time.

Generally, I was a pretty sad person, you know, I was very angsty.

I was a teenager, had all these feelings, and I didn't know what to do with them.

So they were expressed through, uh, style choices on today I'm gonna be trying to recreate Ah, little bit of that look, with makeup that I currently have, which is not that much stuff.

I had all these big, chunky wrist bands covered in spikes and I would wear, like, all of them at the same time.

I don't think I own anything from back in those days, so I'm just gonna do with my best.

With what I have while I put on some makeup, I was thinking we could reminisce together about, uh m o stuff.

So basically, I'm just gonna be doing a lot of a lot of black around my eyes of this color in this color.

I'm gonna just try things I'm not a makeup with.

So I'm going to start with a red base and then put black over the top.

Also, I do already have just like a layer of BB cream monetarily, like wearing foundation that often because it's a My skin is very sensitive.

The first Emma music I ever listened to Waas My chemical romance I heard.

Welcome to the black parade on the radio that first that first note of Welcome to the Black parade and I was like, Oh, well, this is excellent.

I think it was, and it just opened my whole world, too.

I finally felt like, Wow, this is something that I'm really interested in.

I love the music like this is all I can remember by that It's been so long that I can't remember every detail, but I don't know if the red there was any point of the red, But you know what?

So after I had this whole transformation at home where I knew the kind of thing that I wanted to be into and I was like understanding and learning about the world of em Oh, I was just so, so excited and so happy.

And I went to school and I started telling people I was like Guys, I'm m R now, guys, I'm anymore.

And at that point, everybody knew that it wasn't like cool to be email at that point people want that nice about it, E kind of understand, You know, if someone comes to school, they're like, guys, I'm anymore.

It's like, Well, I think I already felt a little bit misunderstood at school and in life.

O made me feel accepted more in some ways, but also kind of rejected more in other ways.

And so it was Yeah, just in interesting time in life where I just became pretty sad.

But through this whole time, I started discovering more music.

You know, I was so obsessed with a panic, a disco.

I know they're not like the most emo band out there, but I think they represent part of the M O era.

You know, I started out with the easier ones like Michael Prevents Full that boy panting and just go all time low.

And I think gradually, over time I started moving over to heaviest stuff.

Remember, I went to go see so many parkway drive concerts.

I loved Parkway Drive and also but bring me the horizon.

But a full out with this kind of you might have to reduce.

Um foundation feels weird without eyebrows.

That was Looks like, I guess, a little a little claim to fame for general information in Brisbane.

We have hungry jacks in the city area in Central and all the emos.

I don't know if they still do, but they used to go and sit out the front of Hungry Jacks.

I was in a regular, but I did go and chill there.

So I went to primary school and I graduated and went to high school and I was still pretty pretty Dang m r On gradually, I turned a bit more seen, you know, added a bit more color into my palate.

You know, I didn't have the best time at the start of high school, I had some really, really good friends, but also had e wasn't the easiest person to talk Thio.

I was still, you know, dealing with a lot of self discovery.

I wasn't super easy to approach and talk Thio or something, I don't know.

But e remember I used to feel so defensive all the time.

It used to be so worried about people coming up in, like making fun of me when I waas a young boy, my father was thing about 2020 is My compartments had to cancel because in 2000 and eight I was supposed to go see my comic ornaments and I had to cancel because I had my first of a drama show, which ended up like Help me get into theater stuff and then shaped the rest of my future, which is great.

That happened and then, I suppose, see them 2000 and 10 or something, and then they had to cancel the tour, so I didn't see them then, and now it's finally going to see the first time my life couldn't see them because they had to cancel again.

Maybe if I see them all cry so hard that I just passed away.

Maybe it's all for the best, but still very, very, very, very sad.

Also, if you guys ever come to Tokyo and you're a little bit, um are they have a great selection of email music?

You should just go to karaoke and sing all your favorite.

So, at school, we had this camp in grade 10 where you get sent away for a month.

You get sent basically to the middle of nowhere Outback Australia, and you have to learn how to survive.

You support each other, you cook for each other and yourselves.

When you're alone in the forest and you have a little tent and you reflect on life and stuff, it's really great.

Uh, don't know how health and safety wise it is now, like if it's still allowed.

But it was absolutely wonderful during that month.

You're not allowed to wear makeup or where any, like fashionable clothes or anything.

So everybody in my grade was kind of stripped down to being their course elves, you know, they didn't have makeup to hide behind or or clicks or anything we all had to work together, and we really got to know each other super well, which I think was my saving grace, because it meant that people got to know the real me rather than feeling worried about what I was wearing and everything.

And we got to have really good conversations.

And after that point, I kind of started to to move away from being super alternative.

I still waas, but I just kind of added a little bit more color here and that.

And I had other friends as well, and I kind of just went a little bit more chill with everything.

And after that point, I was like, Oh, being Emma was just a phase Being Emma was just a phase, and I'm totally fine.