And today I'm gonna be getting ready.

I'm gonna be doing huge hair, huge makeup on big PVC clothes.

The first step is actually shaving the sides of my head, which I've already done.

Then I apply moisturizer.

Then I put in primer.

So without primer, everything slides.

I guess I would describe my style as golf inspired.

It's foolish, inspired on its high fashion, pretty much only wear black, So I developed my style.

E guess for the last 10 years has been like a very slow evolution, which has just been growing ever since.

Maybe the age of 12.

I guess 12 was The age went like my parents stop dressing me.

It was quite small.

It was just like wearing black were in bondage.

And then it just kind of escalated When I moved to London and I met more colorful creatures That kind of inspired me to go like one step forever, and I think growing and kind of confidence as well.

Um, every every person year, I kind of become like a bigger person.

I do bigger head.

I do bigger looks kind of feel more within myself to be able to do that.

So I grew up in Guilford.

Sorry, It waas a very conservative town.

Um, incredibly boring.

I remember there was one moment around 16 and I was wearing blue jeans on the white hoodie when I was just like, running to the shops and I caught my reflection in the mirror and I was so horrified.

Why sor that I vowed toe like, never wear something like that again, which is interesting because it was mawr.

I was aware of what I didn't want to be than what I wanted to be.

The next step is I use foundation.

Put it on a sponge, which is damn because the sponges already done it actually stops their foundations.

Soaking into the sponge kind of creates like a softer finish with, like, less inconsistencies, less streaks.

There was really, like no one else around me in my hometown.

I could really look up to or take any kind of like there was no tribe there at all.

And it was only through being online and through, like Facebook and Instagram.

Could I actually see that they were like other people that kind of just like living their lives openly and freely they would seem to be based in London.

I was always attracted to like Goths and punks.

I don't know why.

Well, golf is very like multifaceted.

There's so many different sides to it.

I was inspired by the first wave of golfs in, like the late seventies early eighties people like Powerhouse Susie Virgin Prudence the kind of fluidity in expression, which was regardless of gender.

There was like shaved heads, long hair makeup, any conversations about gender or sexuality.

We're kind of almost irrelevant.

There was such sexual ambiguity.

I kind of like, aspired to be there in a way which is to be offer but also be very sexual about it, because the world the world is so like used to binaries, which isn't just male or female or top and bottom or Southern Dom etcetera because we're always told that like opposites attract but not really be anything but still be attractive has always been the goal.

It za difficult moment because you're trying to, like, make sense off the world, particularly yourself.

I saw style as a way to kind of, in a way ignore these questions on just start developing an identity then I use a concealer thio like cover some like gremlin things.

When I first came to London, there was really desperate to find these people that I had seen images off on lying in magazines, looking that I was a little bit disappointed because when you typing off, you might come up with, like, runway images of Alexander McQueen.

Or do your a stunning designs and models like Draped Muse, exquisite fabrics.

And actually, that was kind of like a disconnect because that wasn't in the clubs.

That wasn't who I would see it anywhere.

But I went to places like slime.

My Electra works and I found some tribe.

I found some some of my chosen family, I guess so The next step is I draw a kind of leaves our line of where I want my eye make up to be.

It's so much more fun and rewarding to get dressed up and go hang out with people.

It's good to be seen, you know, but seeing amongst people do you want to be seen with.

So that kind of inspired me Thio create my own club, which is brave.

I wanted Thio show off the work of my friends.

I like creators to come on Deal inspired to me.

Other people have DJs and other performers it had hosts.

I guess I was first drawn to finish.

Also because of, like the liberal environments that exists and have people just being themselves and be uncomfortable kind of makes me comfortable.

I found it increasingly difficult.

Thio exist online way No, like what will get us band and what won't that somehow like we still manage the light slip through the cracks there.

In a way, it kind of like it.

Senses are work from, like the active cannon.

It's a sad moment for where we are in, like humanity.

I guess that we've handed the keys toe Zuckerberg and these awful people.

I'm just gonna start smoking this album, blending it so it's a bit softer.

Now go over this in other colors.

Documentation, I think, is vital in these club environments because it liberates.

I think that liberation is important because at the moment it's for me.

It's obviously very centered around London to not share any images, to not have any documentation.

It creates elitism.

That is only for like the few and not for the many.

Not always.

The collaboration that I do with my partner Salvia projects kind of manifested its way in different directions.

So we did a VR project, that collaborator Con organ near we free the scandal bodies and then adjusted thumb through a slightly more alien like so it was very much designing.

For Avatar, the way we put ourselves across online is an avatar in itself, because it's like a manipulation or a characterization of who we think we are.

OK, now I'm just gonna blend the black of tiny bit into the brown.

Now I sharpen the edges with my foundation.

Yes, so the foundation cuts through the blending and creates this very straight line on now, ever sponge of a straight edge.

I'm just gonna started about I have, like, a degree of responsibility what I've been doing.

When I was growing up, there wasn't really any kind of like role models or anyone else saying It's okay not to, like, pick, agenda or pick a sexuality, their figures like Pete Burns or Boy George, which were incredible.

But the conversation was never really there.

Maybe they possibly started it in their own way.

There is a bit of sadness because there is, like, intergenerational conflict.

Even though I feel like they led the way in kind of being themselves one by one, they will come out with kind of like, transfer big terms.

You know, I'm optimistic that the next generation is going to grow up in a time where things are a lot easier on board.

The kind of language and discourse is already out there.

Okay, now I finished my eye, so I'm gonna dio my contour and now which is on my cheeks on my jaw like squeeze the brush head So it's kind of flat goes loosely from the top of my ear in the direction of May that then I'm gonna do my lips.

I've gone for brown because matches my eye.

Okay, so my face is done and I'm going to start doing layer.

It's a long process that takes around two hours.

I'm only gonna be showing you a small part of it.

But it's the same process just repeated on Go in in to the root, as's faras possible.

I squeeze it and I hold it for around 15 seconds.

I move up and do the next bit.

I definitely had, like, a peak hair moment, which is where I was doing.

I would be 8 ft tall with shoes and hair.

I can't really do that anymore, because Hairspray formulas have changed that.

Like they're no longer glue like, so they can't really hold huge, huge styles, which is unfortunate.

I don't do the very end that's meant to be, like non crimped.

Then it's important.

Thio spray on try and get the roots as much as possible.

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Well, they would then go to the root and start there on Just keep going, and that creates this texture, which is kind of it.

Moz, Once it's in shape, I'm going to use a hair dryer Thio play into shape and using the jet off the hair dryer.

Shape it.

I'm gonna go and finish this and get dressed in the other room, so I'll be back in a minute.

Okay, Well, okay, so now I'm dressed.

I've got my PVC boots, PVC gloves, PVC top PVC skirt, PVC cape on my second cape, and I'm so dark it is physically quite taxing to move around to getting cars to go on Busses, to get on train because I occupy so much space through hair and through clothing.

I can't really fit into anything but the same time I love the impracticality off.

People have, like comfort clothes.

My comfort is more in something where I feel myself or something, where I have a new attraction to it.

And it's that kind of love of beauty where I feel so much more comfortable when I see other people doing the same thing.

I kind of see what they're going through.

And that, to me, is beautiful.

His beauty.

Yeah, yes.