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  • -Phoebe, so nice to see you.

  • Thank you so much for doing our show.

  • I know this is a pretty tough time you're going through,

  • we're all going through, but how are you feeling right now?

  • -Hi, Jimmy!

  • It's been a while since I've seen you in person.

  • I mean, I think it's just sort of --

  • It just depends on the day or the hour.

  • You know, sometimes, you feel okay

  • and you're like, "Oh, things are, like, progressing,"

  • and other times, you just feel so defeated.

  • And I feel like I've definitely been kind of

  • going through that, living in New York,

  • and, you know, you kind of see, like, the protests

  • and, like, people marching and the silent sit-ins.

  • And it's all very powerful and moving,

  • but it just sort of makes me feel like --

  • I know that this keeps flaring up every few years

  • and everyone's sort of like -- A lot of people are like,

  • "I can't believe it's happening."

  • I think we have to sort of, like, move beyond that reaction,

  • because this stuff isn't surprising,

  • and it only bubbles up because of years of suppression

  • and oppression and not being heard

  • and just, systematically, the system is designed

  • to oppress black people, oppress those who don't have,

  • you know, the financial means to be able to resist.

  • And I think that, you know, I'm just sort of, like --

  • We really, truly have to look at just our institutions

  • that we are so -- we so blindly trust in a lot of ways,

  • whether it's, like, local government,

  • federal government, or the police.

  • I think we really have to start being more active

  • in our communities and really trying to be like,

  • "Okay, like, I really want to have a part in this,"

  • instead of just only being, like, shocked and awed

  • when things really go haywire, you know?

  • People are in a lot of pain. -Yeah.

  • Especially in the city, can you talk to me about --

  • I mean, this is -- Can we talk pre-George Floyd

  • was scary enough with the pandemic.

  • Did you leave the apartment much?

  • Did you...

  • -You know, New York is very resilient.

  • And, you know, we like to show up and support each other.

  • But I think there is a mix of some people feeling like,

  • "Oh, this quarantine is inconvenient"

  • and not willing to play ball and realize

  • this is a team sport, you know, which I feel like

  • is a uniquely sort of American attitude to be like,

  • "Well, this is infringing my rights to, like, get fertilizer

  • or go to the hair salon."

  • It's like, people are dying.

  • I don't care if I see your roots.

  • Like, you're 55.

  • Yeah, your hair's gray. We get it.

  • We all get it, you know? You're fooling no one.

  • You know what I mean?

  • -We're in the same boat right now.

  • -Yeah.

  • -And then something like this happens

  • on top of an already-crazy moment.

  • And I think it's just an interesting time

  • that we're living in and sad and a lot of people just frustrated.

  • And I know I'm trying to change and be better at, you know,

  • communicating and talking and listening.

  • You know, when I see that video of George Floyd, I can't watch.

  • I go, "Dude, enough.

  • I cannot watch this awful thing."

  • But I can't even imagine, as a black person,

  • how that would feel to watch that over and over again

  • and just -- You know, you're going -- Yeah, I don't know.

  • I mean -- And it's -- I don't know.

  • How does that affect you when that comes on?

  • -Yeah, I mean, I can't watch it, because I feel like

  • every time we watch a black person

  • being horrifically murdered,

  • and then that becomes who they are.

  • And I think, like, outside of this moment,

  • outside of the uprising that's happening,

  • what I want, on a day-to-day level, to happen going forward

  • is to see black people as not just the trauma they endure,

  • but as multi-dimensional people who have jobs, who have kids,

  • who have family members, who like to dance, who love to read.

  • And I feel like we get so caught up in, like --

  • You know, there's a lot --

  • Like, the phrase of, like, trauma porn.

  • And so, like, you watch that video

  • and then you'll post, you know, like, a quote

  • from James Baldwin, as if he's the only black person

  • who's ever written a [bleep] book.

  • And I'm like, "If I see one more white person

  • quote James Baldwin, like I don't freaking know --

  • -We can quote Alec Baldwin. -[ Laughs ]

  • Not James. Dude, It's been done. Oh, you're so right.

  • -Yes. And it just feels so performative in a way.

  • And I'm like -- I think, on a day-to-day level,

  • we need to have conversations with each other.

  • We need to listen to black people.

  • We need to amplify, you know, black female authors

  • who are also writing on this,

  • black trans authors who are also contributing writing

  • about police brutality, and sort of just remembering

  • that we are full people who are happy,

  • and, yes, we deal with a lot of adversity

  • in terms of racism, but that's not my entire life.

  • That's not any black person's entire life,

  • even if you are an activist.

  • And so I think not seeing us as human

  • allows these videos to constantly just

  • stay on loop every few years,

  • and I think that's really harmful.

  • So I really want the takeaway to be, like,

  • outside of however long these protests last,

  • is that you see black people for all that they are.

  • -Yeah. Is that one of the reasons why

  • you started your own production company?

  • -Yeah. I mean, I think with "2 Dope Queens,"

  • Jessica and I really were just sort of like --

  • I think we were just surprised, in a way,

  • that people really reacted to it

  • and responded to it so positively,

  • 'cause we were just going, "Well, we don't see

  • any sort of, like, comedy shows hosted by black women

  • and, like, the alt theme that's really, like, supporting other,

  • you know, black performers, other performers of color,

  • other people in the queer community."

  • So we just sort of started it because we weren't seeing it.

  • And I think, you know, I wanted to continue that

  • with Tiny Reparations, because it's like

  • you can get to a certain point,

  • and it's great that Jessica and I are here,

  • and we have "2 Dope Queens"

  • and she's doing movies and I'm writing books,

  • but I don't want it to be just us.

  • So, when I started Tiny Reparations, I was like,

  • "Well, I --" My head of development is Puerto Rican.

  • Jose is amazing. I love him.

  • The office manager, Mike -- he is Vietnamese.

  • And we really just wanted to have this amazing sort of, like,

  • diverse sort of, like, think tank of, like,

  • how we can develop different projects right now.

  • -I agree.

  • I think that's totally -- You know,

  • one thing I was looking at, what you can't kind of get away from,

  • if you do look at social media, is that a lot of people

  • are saying, "It's not a black person's job

  • to tell white people -- teach allies how to be allies."

  • -Yes.

  • -And, so, I was wondering what your take on that is.

  • I mean, I know it's not your job to teach me

  • how to relate better, but how would you kind of

  • lay it out for anyone who's watching?

  • -Yeah, I mean, I think that, you know,

  • whenever you're curious about something, we have the Internet,

  • and so if people can sort of go on Yelp to find the best tacos

  • and spend like two hours searching for fajitas --

  • You know what I mean?

  • No one's confused about how to do that,

  • but when it's about, you know, social justice

  • and really showing up and being an ally

  • and making things better, I feel like

  • there's this tendency to be like,

  • "Oh, I don't know what to do.

  • I need help."

  • And it's like, I already have a job.

  • I can't take on another job. I can't do it.

  • -Yeah. At least Google it first. -Yeah.

  • -You can't come to me asking me every single thing, yeah.

  • -Yeah, and I think it's about, you know, in the workplace,

  • like, if you hear of a job listing,

  • like, make sure you're not just referring it

  • to your white friends, but your black friends.

  • Make sure that -- You know, I see a lot of people

  • on social media, a lot of celebs and a lot of people

  • who are trying to amplify the message, and they may donate.

  • And I'm like, that's fantastic, but if you aren't

  • having conversations about race with your children,

  • that's also part of the problem.

  • And it's not just about this moment,

  • but it's about for the rest of our lives.

  • -Yeah. It started -- Yeah, for those who haven't started,

  • start now and know that there is no end.

  • This is just part of your life now.

  • And that's just the way I'm looking at it, too.

  • Like, I have a new -- I have new things I have to do.

  • And I have two little girls that I'm thinking about every day

  • and I go, "I want them to have a great understanding

  • of where everyone is and that we're all human

  • and that we have to help each other and we have to look out

  • and we have to give back constantly, always.

  • -Yeah. -Do you mind sticking around?

  • I'd like to ask you some more questions when we come back.

  • -Sure. I'd love to. -Cool.

-Phoebe, so nice to see you.

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