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  • - Everybody in the office thinks

  • that we have like, crushes on each other.

  • - Everyone in the comments on the videos too.

  • I don't have feelings for Merle.

  • (intense drum beat)

  • You wanted to be single for a long time,

  • and I didn't wanna cross a line between

  • coworker and--

  • - No.

  • No.

  • No.

  • I had rules.

  • And the rules were, I need to be single for a year.

  • - Yeah, and my rule--

  • - And no your rule was I'm going to marry

  • this woman someday and I will do anything

  • in my power to make it happen.

  • (pensive music)

  • At the beginning of 2019 I was coming out of

  • a three and a half year relationship.

  • I was about to embark on this huge journey

  • from the BuzzFeed office in New York

  • where I had been for three years,

  • to the BuzzFeed office in L.A.

  • Moving to L.A. was like immersing

  • myself in everything new, my family's not here,

  • all my friends I've had forever aren't here.

  • One friend I had here with me

  • that was a saving grace is Rachel.

  • - Merle coming out to L.A., newly single.

  • The best way I could describe it

  • is she was like an unbridled stallion.

  • She just was goin' out on the weekdays, living it up.

  • She was kind of like in a new City,

  • she just wanted to be meeting new people,

  • going to new places, and not getting involved

  • in anything serious.

  • That was like, the farthest thing from her mind.

  • - Before Merle came along my dating life

  • was quite eclectic.

  • I was either not making myself available to people,

  • or I was just throwing myself

  • at people who were clearly not compatible for me.

  • - It wasn't clear to me at first,

  • that he was desperate to find love.

  • Until he started making projects

  • over and over again about finding love.

  • And people around the office wondered

  • why is he using the companies resources to find love?

  • - When I watched Aria date a couple people,

  • it was clear that he was very romantic,

  • and loving, and giving.

  • But it never like sparked.

  • - So, after having dabbled in the dating world for a bit,

  • at the start of last year,

  • I decided to just focus my energy on a personal challenge.

  • And if you haven't seen, or haven't heard

  • me talk about it a hundred times in previous videos,

  • I trained and fought in an MMA fight last year.

  • But then of course during this period,

  • is when Merle strolled into the BuzzFeed office here in L.A.

  • (pensive music)

  • - When I moved to the L.A. office we had a weekly meeting.

  • My whole video team would come together.

  • - The only first interactions we had

  • were in the team meetings, the team check-ins.

  • - Yeah, and this man would be flustered,

  • huffing in and out of the meeting, hi.

  • - I had training.

  • - Oh sorry gotta go I'm gonna be late.

  • Oh I can't even make it.

  • Or you'd just write in the group message

  • and be like, "Sorry I had another training today,

  • "it was the only day I could do it."

  • And I remember thinking, he's a liar.

  • He just doesn't wanna go to this meeting.

  • I just thought he like, this really aloof,

  • too self involved, egomaniac.

  • Which also, not totally incorrect.

  • - She saw how cute I was at a few of the meetings,

  • and so she wanted to see more of it

  • so she was very upset and disappointed.

  • - I did think he was cute.

  • - Slowly, you know, we'd message each other

  • over Slack, our in company messaging system.

  • Merle couldn't get enough of me at the meetings.

  • - No. - She wanted to see more.

  • So she messaged me over Slack.

  • - He's a good producer so I wanted some help.

  • - [Aria] At first it was more about work stuff

  • but then slowly we'd throw in some

  • banter every now and then.

  • And there was some clear, at least digital

  • chemistry between us both.

  • - Then I dropped a casual suggestion,

  • "Maybe you wanna come sit with the team."

  • And this man came up and then became

  • a permanent installment.

  • - Wasn't entirely because of you.

  • Because Megan went on sick leave.

  • - Me and Aria used to sit together

  • on this one couch, away from our desks.

  • I left to have a surgery done,

  • so I was out of work for like a month.

  • And during that time, because I wasn't there,

  • Aria chose to go sit at his regular desk.

  • And that's where Merle sits.

  • And so really, I brought them together.

  • - So then we enter the phase of Merle and Aria

  • talking 12 hours every day, all day.

  • (pensive music)

  • - I sit right next to them,

  • and I watched this flirtation blossom.

  • And it was pretty adorable, but also annoying.

  • - And it was just like.

  • (snapping hands together)

  • All, day, long.

  • - It was so easy to just like,

  • talk about genuinely any topic.

  • We would joke about murder, horror films,

  • it just seemed like we had a lot in common.

  • - First time I really saw the tension

  • between Aria and Merle was when

  • Aria and I were filming the follow up video

  • to his MMA video where we kinda talked

  • about the behind the scenes, and (beep).

  • They were so flirty.

  • - Jack was seeing a lot of sparks between us,

  • no idea what he saw, he's a bit of a perv.

  • (laughs)

  • You are.

  • - Kick rocks, (beep).

  • At that point I was like, they're gonna date.

  • Like I'd never seen Aria act like that.

  • - This interview ended with a hug that I thought

  • would end any romantic interactions between us.

  • (laughs)

  • - I remember hugging each of the interviewees

  • after their interview.

  • And so I said to Merle, you know--

  • (beep)

  • It's something kinda weird.

  • Because I had both of them here,

  • and I hugged both of them afterwards.

  • - So I have to hug you?

  • (laughing)

  • I don't think I've ever hugged you before.

  • - I don't think we've hugged each other before.

  • - Let's get this awkward moment in history.

  • I'm like okay, here's your hug.

  • And I go to hug this man and he clings onto me

  • for dear life like moss.

  • Jesus Christ.

  • - Wow you smell like--

  • - You got a little hand hold.

  • (laughing)

  • You practically choked me out.

  • - Behind the camera I was just like--

  • 'Cause it was just so like, tense between the two.

  • You could tell that they had the hots for each other.

  • And I even told Aria as soon as we finished that video,

  • I was like, "What's goin' between you two?"

  • And he denied it, he's like,

  • "Yo, no."

  • Like, "We're just friends."

  • - I remember I told Jack,

  • "She's a coworker, I, you know, I won't do that."

  • - I don't believe that.

  • (laughing)

  • I don't believe that at all.

  • You were probably like, "Really?

  • "Was she blushing?"

  • (laughing)

  • "Let's look at the footage again."

  • (laughing)

  • - And I was like, "Do you guys hang out?"

  • He's like, "Yeah, sometimes we'll stay late

  • "at work together 'til like 10 PM."

  • I'm like--

  • (pensive music)

  • - I stay really late sometimes,

  • when there's a lot of work and I started realizing

  • that Merle and Aria were also staying late.

  • - They would work late.

  • And it would actually just be them

  • hanging out until like 11 PM.

  • And maybe getting like, 30 minutes worth of work done.

  • - These after hour hangouts kind of,

  • now that I look back at them, were basically pseudo-dates.

  • - I remember those nights,

  • there were like these brief periods

  • where it felt like time froze, and it was just us,

  • in the office enjoying each others company.

  • And, it was wonderful.

  • I've never openly and actively pursued

  • someone the way I did with you.

  • And it was because we were just so open

  • about the fact we were flirting with each other.

  • (laughs)

  • - I remember openly addressing the fact

  • that we flirted with each other,

  • and Aria was like shocked by that.

  • First I told him that I think he flirts with everyone.

  • - I don't think I'm that much of a flirt.

  • - Aria is a (beep) whore.

  • - I, at one point was like,

  • "Well me and you flirt all the time."

  • And he was kinda like, oh my god, yeah I guess so.

  • And so I feel like that sort of

  • transitioned us into this newfangled territory

  • where it was like okay we're openly flirting

  • with each other.

  • Obviously we're interested in each other,

  • but I was still genuinely dead set on doing my own thing,

  • not getting involved with anyone.

  • But Aria, he was obviously pursuing me.

  • - I realized that Aria had an infatuation

  • with Merle when they showed up

  • on set for a video that I was ADing.

  • They were awful together, to be around.

  • Like Aria's got a type of energy just in general.

  • Which you can kind of find the frequency

  • and understand it.

  • But it was off the charts around her.

  • Annoying, in fact.

  • And I'm not afraid to say that.

  • - There were rumors flying all over the office,

  • and the internet, that Aria and I were together.

  • - I kept seeing them together around the office,

  • and I was like oh my God I think they're a thing.

  • - From my desk, I really see everything.

  • If there's a love beginning, I usually know.

  • And I'm just saying, I saw a lot.

  • - I feel like I was able to really hone in

  • on Aria and Merle's relationship,

  • because I met my fiancee at work

  • and it was just the same exact thing

  • was happening in front of my eyes.

  • - I messaged Aria and said, basically,

  • "You guys are a thing, it's obvious, everybody knows."

  • He says something like,

  • "Oh we're just two professional coworkers."

  • And then I told him that that's exactly

  • how my girlfriend Cedee and I talked, six years ago.

  • (laughing)

  • - One of the big days where I realized

  • how special you were to me.

  • - When you fell in love with me first?

  • - No, when I realized how special you are.

  • It was the day we went and filmed

  • that road trip video with Jack.

  • - Boy, I was third wheelin' hard.

  • There were so many times where they would like,

  • look at each other and smile.

  • And like, they would laugh at like,

  • jokes that didn't even make sense,

  • or I didn't even understand.

  • I fully knew that they would date,

  • and get married, and have kids.

  • (laughs)

  • - We never spent a prolonged period of time

  • outside of the office together,

  • so I thought, you know, what if it's awkward

  • after a little bit?

  • - [Merle] It wasn't awkward, it was really fun and easy.

  • - A lot of fun, and you shouted with me in public.

  • (both shouting)

  • - All of the yelling and screaming

  • and this is my world that Aria does--

  • - This is my world.

  • - Sometimes I think it's really funny,

  • and sometimes it makes people really uncomfortable.

  • But Merle is like the only person

  • who really loves it.

  • You know that thing they say about

  • when you love someone you love them for their flaws?

  • (slaps hand)

  • - One of my favorite things that Aria said to Merle,

  • he said to her, "Merle, you just moved to L.A.,

  • "you're in season one, you have to go around and date.

  • "I'm your season three guy."

  • And I just thought that was so cute,

  • and so funny and I was like,

  • "Oh my god, like Merle I love him."

  • But Merle was still dating.

  • And she was not thinking of Aria that way.

  • - My first initial reaction

  • to the thought of me and Aria romantically,

  • was like, overwhelmed.

  • It was mostly because I was in a phase

  • where I wanted only casual relationships.

  • I didn't want a long term, serious relationship.

  • And Aria is not a casual guy.

  • I thought it was like an all or nothing type situation.

  • Everybody was whispering in Aria's ear,

  • asking him all the time, like has anything happened?

  • Is anything going on with you and Merle?

  • Meanwhile, I'm catching hints of this.

  • Sorry, you had something.

  • - One time, me and Merle and Megan

  • went out for dinner.

  • We asked her, "Merle, what's the tea?

  • "Do you like Aria?"

  • She said, "He's cute, but I wouldn't date him."

  • (pensive music)

  • And look at that (beep) now.

  • - I just didn't like it, it put too much pressure.

  • - Mhm, I get that. - It stressed me out.

  • And it was really public,

  • like people on the internet I've never even met

  • were like saying things in all the comments

  • in any videos we were in together

  • which can be nice but at the time was overwhelming.

  • - Yeah, we love it now.

  • - Yeah now we're all about it.

  • (laughing)

  • - Get those follows, baby.

  • (laughing)

  • But of course, all fun things have to come to and end.

  • And--

  • - This man threw a temper tantrum.

  • - I did not throw a temper tantrum.

  • - Finally one night, we were working late

  • and he said to me, "I don't think I can keep doing this."

  • - Because, you know it's just not gonna be good

  • for me, you know, you know.

  • It just wasn't gonna be good for me.

  • - I guess I was caught a little off guard,

  • but I kind of agreed with him,

  • and I was like, "Yeah that seems fair,

  • "because I don't wanna lead you on.

  • "And I'm not ready for something serious,

  • "and clearly you are."

  • And actually I was starting to be a little sad,

  • I was like damn, are we just not gonna talk anymore?

  • It was like,

  • very upsetting to imagine that our conversation

  • and the time we spent together was gonna go away.

  • (calm music)

  • - But then of course the timing worked out,

  • because the next week I was in Europe.

  • The trip to Europe, was I think,

  • honestly a big turning point for things.

  • Because it gave me kind of, space to reflect.

  • - Although he still managed to maintain

  • contact with me by having me be involved

  • with his video that he was doing.

  • - And of course I did have one of my best friends

  • Jo with me.

  • Jo and I would just eat and drink

  • around the streets of Italy.

  • And I would just talk about this woman non stop.

  • - The whole time?

  • - Most of the time yeah.

  • - Awe.

  • - Jo gave me very, very, very good advice.

  • Jo told me, you know--

  • - Slow things down a little bit,

  • be there for her, be her friend.

  • Don't be too pushy or try to make things happen.

  • If it'll happen, it'll happen.

  • - And I genuinely took that to heart,

  • I didn't take it as a strategy.

  • So when I came back, I--

  • - A new man.

  • - A new man, a tanned man.

  • - First of all a tanned man

  • that I didn't recognize when I first saw you.

  • He's very tan and he has a new sense of calm.

  • - And I told her, I said,

  • "Hey, I'm sorry if I put any pressure on you.

  • "I really just wanna take things day by day.

  • "And whatever happens, happens."

  • And that was genuinely my mindset.

  • - Turns out that's the most attractive

  • thing you could possibly do.

  • (laughing)

  • It was like he was like this new person,

  • super mature, and he was just like,

  • "We'll just do things at our own pace, no pressure.

  • "No worries."

  • And I really liked that.

  • Once he was back and I felt like I had space and time

  • I feel like I had a clarity to kinda

  • just like look at what was actually happening,

  • instead of looking at what other people

  • were expecting to happen.

  • I was like there's no pressure.

  • - Like the old days.

  • - Maybe something will happen, maybe it won't.

  • (cheerful music)

  • I was going on a lot of dates,

  • I was starting to get frustrated

  • because the people I was meeting

  • couldn't really compete both in conversational ways

  • but also just intellectual ways with Aria.

  • I had like this moment where I freaked out,

  • and I went to Rachel's place.

  • - And she was like, "Rachel I went on a date last night,

  • "and I just couldn't stop thinking about Aria.

  • "Like I couldn't stop comparing the guy to Aria.

  • "Nobody makes me laugh the way Aria does,

  • "nobody gets me the way he does."

  • I had never heard her talk about someone this way,

  • and I was like whoa, like where is this coming from

  • but also, it sounds to me like you really like him dude.

  • - So then, one night at the office we were staying late.

  • We were talking about everything under the sun

  • and I broached a topic about--

  • - Sexuality.

  • - Sexuality and things about sex.

  • After we had this conversation,

  • Aria had made this eye contact with me.

  • And he just held it for an uncommonly long time.

  • And I swear to God I've never

  • experienced anything like this in my life.

  • I felt so scared, and aroused at the same time.

  • It was like a sexual awakening.

  • I remember blushing and being like,

  • "I can't even look at you right now.

  • "Like I cannot look at you."

  • - I come back to the office and she's just like,

  • "Rachel, we need to go to the bathroom."

  • And she was like,

  • "I don't know what's going on with me,

  • "I don't know what's going on with me.

  • "But Aria gave me this look,

  • "I like him that way now, I really like him."

  • - After that night, I started thinking about Aria a lot.

  • In a very different way.

  • (laughs)

  • My mom was coming to town

  • and so was my grandfather for my birthday.

  • Rachel was like, "Invite Aria to come to drinks."

  • And I was like, "He shouldn't meet my mom,

  • "we haven't even kissed."

  • I ended up inviting him anyway.

  • He came very dressed up, had a wonderful night.

  • He touched my leg under the table

  • while I was sitting next to my mother.

  • He was very nervous, Rachel took pictures of it.

  • It took him like 30 minutes to do it.

  • Then, I started over thinking when we should

  • have our first kiss,

  • and where we should have our first kiss.

  • So I took him to a park,

  • and found a very romantic spot.

  • I also started babbling that night, I couldn't stop.

  • And then Aria grabbed my face and kissed me.

  • It was very romantic, and honestly

  • things from there have just kind of like,

  • skyrocketed I feel like.

  • - This is my world.

  • - Oh stop that's cute.

  • For something I was so uncomfortable with

  • for such a long time it was the easiest

  • transition in the world.

  • - And then next thing you know, they're (beep).

  • (cheerful music)

  • - Seeing Aria, date other people versus

  • watching Aria date Merle.

  • It just became so obvious what was missing

  • in the other relationships.

  • - It's like you see two people

  • who are so clearly right for each other

  • finally realize that they wanna be together.

  • And you know, Merle is one of my best friends

  • so oh my god I'm like gonna cry.

  • (laughs)

  • - Once they did decide to let everybody know

  • about their relationship,

  • they did not hold back.

  • Everybody knows, we're making a video about it right now.

  • Which I think is kinda crazy.

  • (laughs)

  • - So much of what you saw on camera,

  • was just them in their natural element.

  • And I dunno I'm just reading the comments

  • and I'm like oh I can't wait for the world to find out

  • that they're actually together 'cause it's a real thing.

  • - I think people have a hard time

  • thinking it's real because of it's value,

  • to both of their careers.

  • But, I can assure you when they're not

  • making money off of it, they are stupid

  • attracted to each other.

  • - I was out celebrating Merle's birthday with her.

  • And she pulls me aside and she says,

  • "I just wanna let you know,

  • "that I have serious feelings for Aria.

  • "No one's ever made me happier."

  • And I could just feel it was true.

  • And it just made me so happy for them.

  • (laughs)

  • (exclaims)

  • I'm gonna cry.

  • (laughs)

  • Okay.

  • - I actually have something I wanna take you to do.

  • We're just gonna leave bright and early

  • in the morning and that's all you need to know.

  • (pensive music)

  • - Okay.

  • - Merle and Aria have the type of love

  • that I think a lot of people

  • would be really lucky to find.

  • (cheerful music)

  • - Can I look?

  • - We're going in there.

  • - What?

  • We're going on a hot air balloon?

  • You're scared of heights.

  • - I know.

  • - And for how much Aria loves romantic movies,

  • rom coms, romantic dramas, whatever.

  • I think this is a very fitting love story for him.

  • - This is gonna be really romantic

  • and I'm gonna cry.

  • - I feel like love is a journey.

  • - Love is unexpected.

  • - I feel like I didn't know what love was

  • until I learned how terrified I was

  • to not have it anymore.

  • (cheerful music)

  • - [Rachel] I think one of the most important aspects

  • of love is really finding your best friend.

  • - [Jo] You need someone to just be your team mate.

  • I think when you have something like that,

  • it's really special.

  • - [Woman] I'm a huge romantic and I love, love.

  • I think it's fascinating and beautiful,

  • I think it's part of the whole reason

  • to be a human and be alive.

  • - [Woman] I think love is the reason that we do anything.

  • Is to give love and ultimately just to feel love.

  • - I've never felt this way for someone before.

  • I didn't actually think I could.

  • He was like in love with the things about me

  • that I don't even like that much.

  • The best way I could put it is that

  • I think when you're confronted with

  • all the things you wanted, it's hard to go after it.

  • Because you're scared that you're gonna ruin it.

  • - [Aria] I never felt more comfortable being myself

  • with anyone the way I am with Merle.

  • - [Both] This is our world.

  • - [Aria] Merle is everything I could want in a partner.

  • In the past few months, I have found myself

  • really and truly believing

  • that I am the happiest I have ever been.

  • - [Merle] Sometimes I sabotage myself in relationships

  • and I can actively feel myself

  • not doing that this time.

  • So I guess I'm just really excited

  • to see what happens with me and Aria.

  • Who knows, but I think this

  • is the best shot that I've got.

  • - One of my first videos at BuzzFeed,

  • was where I tried to find my soulmate in 48 hours.

  • Well it took a lot more time than that,

  • but I finally got it done.

  • (cheerful music)

  • (pensive music)

  • - High stakes, for sure.

  • Because now, God forbid if they were to break up

  • there's gotta be a video about it.

- Everybody in the office thinks

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