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  • People always say that you are your own worst critic, but critic is just another word for judge.

  • And when you are your own biggest judge, you can become your own jailer.

  • For the past year, I have felt imprisoned in my own head.

  • As an artist, I've been stuck, and no amount of inspiration has been able to give me the freedom to create.

  • This feeling led me to abandon my personal projects and instead help others bring their visions to life.

  • It's not that I didn't have ideas or want to create.

  • It's just when it's not your own story, it isn't as scary to put into the world.

  • For nearly six months, I've worked all around the world helping others.

  • I thought that letting go of the creative decisions would allow me to breathe as an artist.

  • It hasn't worked out, I mean sure I've made some money, but at the end of the day, the goals and the dreams I had for myself never went anywhere.

  • I just chose to ignore them because I wasn't able to move forward with my ideas with any confidence.

  • I've let the pressure of an audience influence my creative process.

  • I stopped viewing my work as an artist and just began viewing it as a judge.

  • Over time I realized that the thing holding me back was perfectionism.

  • The dictionary defines perfectionism as a disposition to regard anything short of perfection as unacceptable.

  • You hear a lot of people call themselves perfectionists.

  • And usually it's said as some sort of like a humblebrag, but for me perfectionism was an anchor.

  • The thought of making mistakes was paralyzing.

  • Everything had to be perfect or it wasn't even worth trying.

  • So I thought one simple realization was able to break these binds holding me back.

  • When you look at yourself in a mirror, you don't see what everyone else sees.

  • You're overly critical of every detail.

  • We all wish we could change something we see, but the reality is that those changes are things almost no one else would notice.

  • What I realized is that my art is no different.

  • I was criticizing my work so heavily because I was viewing it in a mirror.

  • I knew what I wanted to see and if I couldn't make it exactly that I didn't see any point in trying.

  • But, when you view your work like that, you'll never be happy.

  • There's always a change that can be made.

  • It's an endless cycle of judgment and abandonment.

  • Perfection in my mind is a measure of how well something does, what it is intended to do.

  • I create art to express myself sure, but the real goal is to create something that evokes emotion from my audience, from all of you.

  • And if my work does that then it's as perfect as it needs to be.

  • Scott Adams said: "Creativity is allowing yourself to make mistakes; art is knowing which ones to keep."

  • I'll never be able to show you exactly what I see in my head.

  • And at best, it'll be an approximation with some flaws.

  • But that's okay, because those flaws will be the mistakes I will learn to accept and choose to keep.

People always say that you are your own worst critic, but critic is just another word for judge.

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