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  • Given how much we all long to be happy, we might presume that accepting the possibility

  • of happiness in our lives would be an uncomplicated, serene and automatic process. But for many

  • of us, however theoretically attached we might be to the notion of being happy, the possibility

  • of actually being so is liable to trigger deep ambivalence and fear. We wouldit

  • appearsoften prefer to be worried and sad rather than attempt take on the risks

  • surreptitiously connected in our minds with positive moods. We mayhowever paradoxical

  • it soundsbe nothing less than afraid to be happy. As ever, our fear has a history

  • that begins in childhood, where one of the following is likely to have occurred. Someone

  • we deeply loved, and perhaps admired too, was unhappy. Their sorrow moved us profoundly

  • and led us to identify with them so that our caution around contentment continues to function

  • as a secret tribute to them. To be happy would, in a way that would pain us profoundly, mean

  • being disloyal. However much they might on the surface have encouraged us to venture

  • out and seize opportunities for joy, an important part of us wishes to stay with them under

  • the canopy of grief. So without knowing we're doing this, we ensure that we will always

  • have a modest career because they never had educational possibilities or we turn down

  • sexual opportunities because they were sexually neglected. Alternatively, someone we were

  • close to might have been jealous of us and led us to want to downplay our achievements

  • and hide our contentmentin order to feel safe from their envy and rage. We learnt to

  • associate gloom with safety and joy with risk. More generally, we may have lacked any plausible

  • role models for happiness. We may have grown up in an environment where being anxious and

  • panicky was the default state, where it seemed natural to picture the plane crashing, the

  • police showing up, the business collapsing and the mole morphing into cancer. We may

  • be intellectually aware that there could be other ways to interpret the future, but equanimity

  • doesn't feel like what our tribe does. To this resistance, we might have added a layer

  • of intellectual superiority: happiness seems for the little people, the leading symptom

  • of understanding the world intelligently must be sadness. All such positions contribute

  • to a psyche where the onset of happiness is a cause for grave and glaring alarm. When

  • we are finally on holiday, or in love or surrounded by friends or free of financial pressure,

  • we panic. Our senses have been jammed for so long in fear mode, they are filled with

  • dread when the alarm stops wailing. To return to a more balanced state, we're liable systematically

  • to sabotage the conditions of contentment. We start working on holiday and soon uncover

  • a cause for concern at the office; within hours, we may be protesting that we need to

  • return home. Or else we do our utmost to convince a new lover that we're not worth it, by

  • seldom calling them or (if they really don't get the message) having an affair. It feels

  • so much more normal to be abandoned. In order to acclimatise ourselves to joy, we need to

  • return to the past and unpick how we learnt to use anxiety as a defensive strategy to

  • protect us against other threats we were too young and too easily overwhelmed to answer.

  • The manic worrier worries, as it were, about 'everything' because they are unable to

  • be appropriately concerned with, and in mourning for, one or two big things from long ago.

  • The anxiety that belonged to one particular distant time and place has been redistributed

  • and subdivided across hundreds of ever shifting topics in the present (from workplace to reputation,

  • money to household tasks), because its true source and origins remain unknown to the sufferer.

  • We are using the flotsam and jetsam of everyday worries as a proxy for an unmasterable trauma:

  • shame; humiliation; a sense we don't matter to our caregivers; neglect or abuse. We should

  • not sarcastically point out to worriers that they need 'something else to worry about',

  • we should realise that something terrifying that they have buried deep in their unconscious

  • is lending a continuous sense of dread to their fragile present. We manic worriers need

  • not sarcasm but supportive and intelligent company to give us the love we need to dare

  • to look back at the pastand the insight with which to try to do so. Our dread is a

  • symptom of an ancient sorrow, a sign that we keep not finding anything in the outer

  • world that answers to the horror of the inner one. Needless to say, it isn't the case

  • that there is never anything to worry about in the present, just that there is a lot less

  • than the manic worrier tends to believe. Furthermore, what there is to worry about can be coped

  • with with far more resilience than the manic worrier can imagine, for they are operating

  • with what is essentially a child's sense of their own powers and capacity for survival.

  • Manic worriers should gradually come to exchange their feelings of dread for the future for

  • a patient understanding and mourning for an unfairly traumatic and as yet insufficiently

  • explored past. There is nothing greedy or stupid about happiness. The ability to take

  • appropriate satisfaction from the good times is a profound psychological achievement: it

  • is a mark of deep seriousness to be able to giggle, have a pillow fight with a child,

  • delight in a fig, sunbathe, sometimes knock off work early to have an ice cream and appreciate

  • a daffodil. Sorrow is obvious; there is always a richness of reasons to despair. Fear is

  • safe as well; if we are waiting for the enemy with sword in hand, we may gain a vital few

  • seconds were the blow to come. But the trulycourageous and heroically defiant move

  • would be to dare to put down our weapon, lessen our preparations for catastrophe,

  • resist the terrors ingrained in us over decades and once in a while believe that, astonishingly,

  • for a time, there might truly be nothing to worry about.

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Given how much we all long to be happy, we might presume that accepting the possibility

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The Fear of Happiness

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    林宜悉 posted on 2020/11/18
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