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  • I had a bit of a flashback there, Jeff, to two years ago when when I decided to tell my story of, you know, heroin overdose and addiction.

  • So people look at me that that's the last thing they would expect.

  • When I was doing this Ironman race, it just came out and there was the night before we were going to release this and I had all this fear, and I was just like, you know, how is it going to deal with it?

  • And I hadn't told my wife for 16 years.

  • I hadn't told anybody, Jeff.

  • And then finally we released it, and because I knew it was the right thing to do was help a lot of people.

  • And it did.

  • It was in a wash of people with all the same stories and family members, and it's just all came.

  • But there was that moment where it was just it was literally terrifying.

  • Yeah, it really is.

  • Yeah, I'm sure.

  • I'm sure the reason I did that probably was planted seeds.

  • Maybe even some of your stuff, you know, told me that it was gonna be okay, you know?

  • So I think it's intercession re Brian.

  • They call it intercession rewriting.

  • So your work will go out there.

  • Your story if you tell it.

  • If you tell it from an honest place, which you do and I do like there's an intercession in somebody's life, they will receive it at a specific time that will, you know Well, we've known yourself from your own stories that it can stop someone from committing suicide.

  • It can stop someone from making the wrong decision.

  • It can interrupt their life and take them on a completely new path.

  • We had a lovely story about Romans because I said to the last lot, Well, we need to do with this with Poland, Ludwig, because that's all we need to do with Romans is tell the truth.

  • We need to protect the truth.

  • When we put it out there, I can't tell Orlando that it's going to do well.

  • That is gonna winner wars.

  • I've got no idea what this film wants to do, only that it's got its own soul that once we've done everything we can do.

  • It was a lovely line from Pope.

  • Innocents had to send Francis, he said.

  • I expect you to do everything you know, what did I expect you to do?

  • Only expect you to do what is possible.

  • But you must do all of it.

  • So I said We've got to do everything we can possibly do.

  • Then we've got to let go of it.

  • What it does after that.

  • It's not up to us, I said.

  • But it will go out and it will work and it will touch people and we will never meet.

  • We don't need to meet them.

  • We don't need.

  • We just have to trust that the truth will go out and it will find its path.

  • It ended up, remember, Rory Nolan is one of the actors in it.

  • He was He was in Europe somewhere.

  • Come in Where It waas.

  • Andi.

  • He was there for a funeral and he said it was walking down the street and Romans was being premiered in this small town.

  • So he went in.

  • He went inside and he said, Oh, I'm in this film And they said, What do you want to come and present it?

  • So he said, Yeah.

  • So he took his girlfriend's family with him and they all went and sat and watched this film on they all got a lot from.

  • It's a challenging film, they said.

  • They sat around afterwards, eating the mother.

  • The mother of the family was saying, It's a good film, but I don't think I don't think abuse goes on in the church like they say it goes on.

  • I don't think that's really true.

  • Think that's exaggerated.

  • Her son at the other end of the table said, I was abused Mom, and she said, What?

  • This is in the room full of people.

  • I was abused, Mom.

  • What?

  • What do you mean?

  • She said, You said You remember that priest you sent me to when I was depressed?

  • Yeah, he sexually abused May.

  • The film act is as an intercession for him.

  • That was the first time he found the courage to reveal it.

  • His girlfriend when gasp for the mother.

  • But she couldn't deny it anymore because it happened and it's happened to so many people on were sick as our secrets aren't way.

  • So this is the idea is that I don't need to know what the film does.

  • I just need to know it's got the truth.

  • I know it's got the truth because as you said exactly the same as you.

  • It wasn't just about writing the film that was frightened enough.

  • It was the thought that in two years time we're gonna have to go over this and we're gonna have to edit it and get it right, and then it's going to go out.

  • And then people are gonna want me to talk about it.

  • They're gonna want to just stand in front of a camera.

  • They're gonna want me to go on television.

  • They're gonna wanna They wanna ask me why I forgave this person.

  • They're gonna want to know the details of the abuse they're gonna wanna They're gonna wanna ask questions when they ask questions.

  • It will be good for me because it will help me to reveal Mawr little hidden parasites.

  • But it's very frightening because you're just thinking, No, I don't want my mom to see that, because I don't want I don't want my mom to be hurt.

  • You know, I don't want my family to be hurt by my revelations.

  • You know, these are some of the details of what I've written about in notes and Romans.

  • I've only just recently shared with my own wife when I wrote Fragile, which was which was a stage play which was a precursor to this.

  • There was stuff in there that I had to tell my wife before we went in tow.

  • Watch it.

  • This is what is going to be said.

  • Andi, I haven't told you this before because because it was so secret.

  • I didn't even know it was a secret.

  • Only that it was I was ashamed of it, that it was blackmailing me.

  • So I decided I need to I need to call it's bluff and just say Okay, do your worst.

  • You know, if you want to blackmail me, come in.

  • Have a sit down.

  • Here's my wife.

  • Here's my kids.

  • Tell them everything.

  • In fact, you don't need to tell them I'm going to do a play.

  • I'm gonna put it in front of everyone in Coventry on this play and at least war.

  • But this play would not go on anywhere else.

  • You wouldn't go on anywhere else when no one else would have you we don't need.

  • And I said to the director of the West End, Director Nick Bagnall, I said, Yeah, I'm happy for this place to go on anywhere, but not Coventry.

  • I can't have this song in Covent.

  • It'll kill May I said, the idea that my mom might see or the idea that my friends might stand in front of this.

  • You know, this play about, you know, the sexual abuse and then my own self abuse on my own sexual self abuse.

  • On the detail of that, I said, I don't want that in Coventry.

  • Coventry was the only place that we go on.

  • A guy called Hamish Glen, who's the artistic director, said We'll put it on and I was Oh, God, that's exactly what you needed.

  • Yeah, it was all I needed.

  • Yeah, I just kept saying to God in my head, I kept talking to my highest self, I guess steps, um, just protect my mom.

  • I don't want my mom to be battered by this is isn't to do with my mom.

  • This is to do with me articulating what happened and trying to find the truth.

  • The truth was, I was blaming everybody for what happened to me.

  • It wasn't conscious, but there was blamed.

  • There was blaming.

  • My mama was blaming My dad was blaming the person abused me.

  • I was blaming the police.

  • I was blaming society was blaming anybody that denied what happened to me when I actually did.

  • The plane went through the layers.

  • All I cared about Ryan, all I cared about.

  • All I cared about was protecting my mom.

  • I love my mom.

  • I just loved that I felt love at the very core of this.

  • I wasn't abandoned by anybody.

  • I thought I was abandoned by God by by very source.

  • This is what Julian of Norwich said.

  • We're not afraid of being abandoned by People were afraid of being abandoned by God by our source.

  • Of course, when I got to that point, I don't know how I'd missed it.

  • Because all of my characters was screaming that shouting God, that Buddha, you know, at Christ where the foot were, where were you and eventually eventually had to dialectic with God in my own head?

  • And he said, You think you think I abandoned you?

  • And I said, I said, Yeah, I did.

  • I do think that And he said I didn't abandon you, But did you abandon that?

I had a bit of a flashback there, Jeff, to two years ago when when I decided to tell my story of, you know, heroin overdose and addiction.

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TAKING AN INTERSESSION: How Geoff Thompson Managed To Inspire Brian Rose To Tell His Truth

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