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  • I wanted to write about not just about the grooming and the abuse, but the second abuse with familial denial.

  • And also, you know what's left inside you when somebody abuses you.

  • They don't just abuser, they take something from you.

  • They take a part of your soul and they replaced it with the parasite.

  • So even over space and time, their feed him from you.

  • Do you think about somebody 20 years after the abused job rushes of adrenaline, fear, anger.

  • I mean, you know, I went on the doors, made myself into a monster on my battered Anybody that came anywhere near me It was just massive displacement when abused at the age of 11.

  • That's not gonna happen again.

  • So I built this armory.

  • It's not here now.

  • It's all of my armies in the books now But all of the war paint all my body is filled with warpaint Ah, huge back, big back wings on I got rid of all the prettiness because I was a pretty boy.

  • Got rid of the prettiness, got cauliflower ears and broken nose.

  • Don't come near me on Fucking dangerous.

  • Actually, I was just uninstall cure.

  • Frightened boy stuck in the carapace of this martial arts legend wasn't a legend.

  • This martial arts master wasn't a master.

  • I was a frightened boy inside this physical frame.

  • The only way I was going to clean that Brian was to write about it and to say, This is you think I'm a tough guy or you think on this.

  • But actually this is what I feel like inside.

  • And I want to clean that so that the whole idea of writing the book was about telling the truth, so that if I if that book lands on the If that, for instance, notes from a factory floor lands on the lands in the hands off another young family man who's suffering with depression, who's cornered by depression, who is imprisoned by depression, he's going to read that and he's gonna find himself.

  • He's gonna find something of himself because there's nothing I've left out everything that happened to me or the terrible wild imaginations, the possession, you know, somebody abuses.

  • You leave a parasite, India on.

  • Even you can't even trust your own hands, even your own hands abuser.

  • You lose your world, your will is taken over on the only way to get rid of that is to write it out, talking out, you know, put it on to put into paper.

  • Give give this element of life outside of yeah, so that's converted off converted what they would call in two days on the the evil inclination, the evil element within everybody.

  • I've converted it into spiritually light or into information, and it's recorded in ink so people can read that on that.

  • The sound, the sound waves.

  • Ironically, we were talking about sound out there.

  • The sound will lift off the page and it will become sub vocalize told vocalization in them on that will begin their healing process, even if it just gives some information, even if it just gives them e think they were in the Koran, they would call it a remedy.

  • Some of the attributes of God are called remedies.

  • Eso it gives you a remedy.

  • So you read it and you just go.

  • This is May, and there is hope on this stuff that's blackmailing me.

  • This stuff that's keeping me in my small, terraced house in this factory job in this depression.

  • Actually, maybe it's not a harbinger of doom at all.

  • Maybe it's a messenger of hope.

  • Maybe I can turn into that Intercourse with it absorbed 99% of it.

  • As you shiver, says Maria Roche, about the the founder of Arcadia absorbed 99% of it and convert it into something beautiful.

  • So you said something to me when we came in, which is very kind, very prolific, that's all.

  • All of the stuff.

  • I write, the films I make, their my burnt offerings.

  • That's my animal sacrifice.

  • In the Old Testament, they talk about animal sacrifice, burnt offerings.

  • It's an allegory.

  • We sacrifice our animal soul.

  • We are burnt offerings, Airil the things that blackmailers.

  • We bring them out and we put them into the light.

  • And we do it for one reason and one reason only.

  • And this is the secret.

  • We do it because we want to share it with people because we don't want other people to suffer.

  • So whether you're talking about Buddhism or do you Judaism or Islam or Christianity or Sikhism or any of the any of them, they will come to the same place when we want to serve of the people genuinely, when we genuinely serve of the people.

  • Abundance comes down, then it's our job to deliver that.

  • So that's that's what.

  • And I love it.

  • I do love the feeling.

  • I mean, if I picked that buck up now on, I read the rhythm of the writing.

  • I love it and I can objectively tell you it's a great book because it's not mine.

  • It's picked up all my flavors.

  • It's picked up all my stories.

  • It's picked up, you know, my own rhythms.

  • But it's not may.

  • That's too good for May.

  • I couldn't like that what I had to do, Brian was get in the way of that.

  • I just had to get in the way of it.

  • I had to wait for it to come on.

  • I remember it.

  • Come in on, Believe me, I'll put that book off For years and years, I kept saying, I don't want to sit down and write that Everyone kept saying You should write a sequel, Toe watch my back so I can't write that.

  • There's so much to remember.

  • I'll never get in order.

  • What I was really afraid.

  • Waas was that I knew behind those stories was a treasure.

  • But to get to that treasure I have to dig, passed quite a few dead bodies and nobody really wants to do that.

  • But I did.

  • I had had an inspiration to sit down and write it, and I sat down for eight weeks full time.

  • Never let nothing disturb me, and it came out.

  • 150,000 words came literally came through me.

  • If I had have had more stamina, it would have.

  • It would have come sooner.

  • I just just just had enough stamina.

  • I finished that.

  • I've been trying to write a book called The Divine CEO For a long time I've had three attempts, but it wasn't coming out.

  • I just couldn't find it.

  • I knew I needed to do it.

  • I couldn't find it.

  • I wanted to write a book about creating a divine covenant.

  • I finished that on the Friday hand written Andi, I said to my wife, CEOs, come is here.

  • I can feel it.

  • I went for a walk up Kuma be my local park, and 20 chapter headings downloaded into my head had to write them down before I lost them and send themselves send them to me as emails.

  • I sat down on the Monday and I wrote for another eight weeks, 150,000 words, and that was a divine CEO again into the book that I had hardly anything to do with.

  • It picked up my stories.

  • It picked up my flavors.

  • I have some delicious flavors.

  • I haven't Irish heritage.

  • I've been around a few corners, so it's got There's some nice stories, but the rhythm of it again is beautiful and it's healing.

  • It's a remedy, but it came through me.

  • What I've done with my life now is I've just got rid of everything so that I could make myself a vessel just to receive this work and put it down.

  • But that But that doesn't mean it's easy because it z it can feel like burnt offerings.

  • Animal sacrifice, you know, just by the nature of what I'm saying, you can tell it's painful.

I wanted to write about not just about the grooming and the abuse, but the second abuse with familial denial.

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REACHING THE PINNACLE OF LIFE: Geoff Thompson Explores How You Can Find Your Inner Treasure

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    林宜悉 posted on 2020/09/19
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